A letter from July 30th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hi pich, i'm sorry for being myself right now! I feel so down lately as i always hate myself feel like i always wrong, been through heart breaking, toxic fri, toxic fam, too stressed, feel wrong for being myself, i hate me! sometimes i cried to ***** for living and everything around me feel so sucked! i judged myself! feel like i'm not being believed! this is corona period, i'm not productive, i sleep, i chill, i play game, i feel bad, i cried, i go to sleep, and yeah that's all i am now! However at least i have my bf to cheer me up. Thanks you kimlay, i love you so much and i hope in the next five years we still be together and finally engaged. I want you to be a part of my life together, you help me alots, you cheer me up, you stay here when nobody else does, i feel very down and acting so **** and you still falling in love with me. I hope you still love me the same and never leave me never leave the toxic me, i really don't want to lose you and don't want to find nobody else but you, i'm happy to be with you. Thank you for being a good man for me! To myself! I hope you doing good that time and happy and strong enough to deal with everything around you, i hope you doing good and okay, and if you don't please take your time and smile! be strong! I love you, and i hope you find what you really like and treating yourself well! I hope you find a place where you can call home and living happily ever after❤️