A letter for you!! its ur past self so read it.... (july 21st 2020)

Dear FutureMe, Okay uhh hi? I find it kind of weird to be writing something I'll see in like 5 years. This has nothing to do with I want to write but someone logged into my spotify account in Germany...and for WHAT. It's like the second time it's happened it so ANNOYING. Anyway back to what I wanted to write umm yeah there are so many things I hope for our future. Honestly right now I'm doing pretty okay, I mean we're in quarantine because of a huge pandemic...but other than that I'm still doing okay. I'm not sure whats going to happen with COVID-19 but for now we are stuck doing pointless online school work that doesn't help me learn if I'm being honest. Okay I'm going to be able to drive soon, well kind of. I want to start learning when i turn 15 and a half SOOO if like that happens lit dude. Also I'm really hoping that I stick with doing cross country and didn't back out because if i did I'm going to yell at myself. Hey I also hope i got more guy friends because that's also a goal of mine,,,ours? idk either way i hope you made friends hoe. ALSO PLEASE TELL ME WE GLEW UP O H M Y G O D. i will also yell at you if you didnt bc wtf that was our goal YOU BETTER NOT HAVE FAILED ME. Finally did we date anyone??? are we dating someone??? boy or girl??? MMMM i must know but like i cant bc,,,time. if we are please dont embarrass yourself by showing them this, i know youre going to think 14 year old you is cringy and i dont care bc this is how we were so deal with it *****. OH did you ever come out to mom and dad? a*** even? yeah theres not way that probably happened. OH MY GOD wait i wonder if you are still talking with maya and sofia and the rest of our group, i swear if you stopped talking to keylyn i will end you bc she got you in with the girls you would be scared to ever make eye contact with. You cant tell me i didnt lie about that part. One important thing actually, are we still talking to ryan...i hope we are i mean i never wanted to let go of him so if you havent talked to him in awhile or stopped, please PLEASE text him again or reach out to him. I want us to be best friends still and make it to adulthood. Hes the one person i dont want to lose so dont **** it up for us okay? Plan to meet up with him or something if hes back in LA or got to disneyland with him or smt, just please whatever you do dont let go of him. Now back to how we are or at least doing. I hope we look better and yk can fit into the clothes of our dreams. Omg did we ever get better at skating? honestly we not too bad now i know the basics so like im just vibing. Im planning to learn tricks but like i need to get better with my balance lowkey. Right now our art is not the best as it could be yk? I definitely need to work on anatomy and need to develop a semi realistic style. I also need to work on eyes because thats pretty important. oh also i hope that we worked had and got into CALARTS. thats also an important thing because thats our future right there. Im counting on you to do really well in high school and graduate with good scores. Hey btw rn were watching anime-. I KNOW its insane right???? when we were younger we never liked it and promised ourselves we wouldnt go through that phase... we did sadly BUT IN MY DEFENSE...THESE BOYS ARE TOP TIER. kageyama is LIT RALLY IHDUHAOAHOAIDH. IF you dont remember what this man looks like you better stop and look him up right now omg and then look at the rest of the characters we're in love with OKAY YOU WONT REGRET IT. Sooo i stopped typing this a few months ago...if i remember correctly this was in May?? maybe june when i stopped writing the letter. So with that being said let me catch you up on some important things you dont want to forget. So grandpa got sick with Covid and mom and dad had to go and pick them up so grandpa could get the medical assistance he needed at the time. After mom and dad left,,, it all went to ****. When they got back they were at risk for also having Covid and the only place they were allowed to self quarantine is at home which meant me and danny had to pack up literally everything and leave. At this point in time i was also sick but not with covid i was just overheating and not eating properly. Okay so we ended up going to Alex and Damaris's house for about a month until danny decided to have artemis with him which made us move to Vanessas house. Honestly not that bad bc im vibing with vanessa now. Okay so after all of that grandma and dad are sent to the hospital and then released bc they got better. Grandpa sadly didnt make it and passed away. I didnt know this till the last 20 min of the zoom call where we all said out good byes. Doing it over zoom was horrible but there was nothing we could do. Now its July 21st and were arent back home yet but we will be soon. Oh school isnt reopening so YUMMY ZOOM. Now there are also some things going on with ryan and sofia that is making me wanna rip my head off. JUBFOIWBNFCJWFNB so they have this thing where they are "married" as a joke and ryan goes "i love you" and "honey" which is all fun and games bc hes done that to me before. But now hes telling me "hey i might like ur best friend" He didnt say that exactly but he meant it like that. I honestly dont know how i feel about it i mean it focken makes me so mad. I CANT HAVE **** IN THIS WORLDFNDCOL@EBNDFOJU@#EDN. It might change and you might be reading this like im overreacting or im being stupid. Or maybe not, maybe this is still bothering you and they are together at this point. WHO KNOWS but no matter what happens i hope you know now that ryan isnt everything. Know that you dont have to chase him anymore nor do you have to prove yourself to him. IF you some how magically have him as yours when ur adults....be careful okay? just still dont lose him as a friend. Just know that you dont have to chase him romantically anymore bc you deserve more. Now let me go back to normal, SOOOO cross country has been thrown out the window but dw im planning to go back to running on wednesday. Yk how we wanted no one to know about cross country bc we feared about getting judged..well thats whats happening now but its okay bc im working on trying to prove them wrong and then when you read this you cant tell me if we really did and how our body is liking it. Dont be afraid to meet new people and i hope we got better at being more outgoing bc that would be nice. WE AREEEEE never giving up on anime btw. dude its so good so lmk how far we get into watching shows. YOOO also pls try drawing backgrounds bc im gonna try to do that AND also i think were getting better at eyes and anatomy but we still have a long way to go. Overall, I hope we are just happy and thriving, i hope ryan becomes ours or we are best friends in the best way possible and that you never loose sofia and maya and cynthia. Im gonna start working on us so i hope it payed off. Okay so i think thats it and i hope college is going good and that youre happy with who we turned out. <3 -lizzy