A letter from July 13th, 2020

What's crack-a-lackin' loser :'), By the time you re-read this, that is- if you haven't forgotten, you'll be celebrating your 20th birthday! Congrats on living this long stupid, did you even commemorate it? Anyways, what's it like being an adult? is it everything you hoped for? did you enroll into uni? are you still aspiring to become a nurse? most importantly, did you end up living with your friends as planned? if not, that's disappointing but i hope you kept in contact!! How's it going with mum by the way? did she ever try and talk to you again, via text or in person? did you ever try and reconcile with her or are you still angry? she hasn't been the most involved in our life after moving out, and her presence is much more vague ever since she got a boyfriend- not that her boyfriend is manipulative, but everything revolves around him i guess. he's a good person, let's hope she doesn't treat him like ****. Secondly, how's school? did you study hard? did you end up getting the courses you needed? most importantly, did you get the grading you wanted in your HSC? Quarantine wasn't much help during covid as your motivation took a turn for the worst, I hope you got your **** together and refined your grades. they're shocking right now. How's your relationship with 'you know who'? did you end up breaking up with him as you planned? or did you somehow overcome your anxiety and faced your emotions? I know you're currently undergoing a lot of stress and frustration with yourself because of this, unsure whether you wanted it or not but I hope you figured it out. Despite the hurt you may inflict. Lastly, how is dad going? is he doing okay? have you kept in contact? being the only parental figure in your life makes it hard for you to be away from him for too long so i hope you're maintaining a decent flow of communication once you've moved out! That's about all there is to it <3 Yours sincerely, Past you.