A letter from July 11th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hii🤚... I am past Mayank,I am 20 year and 7 months old. and today is 11/07/2020. which is one of the worst year for everyone...(because of corona,sucides and many other things). This year is also last year of my graduation and after this what will be done I don't know?... I filled many entrance examination form like pantangar,bhu, allahabad university and ranichauri University.. hope I got addmission in one of them..and secure my future in a safe way 🙏🙏current topic, that in which college I will got admission formaster degree, sometimes push me a little dipression or overthinking..🙂😟 My current situation is 🤔🤔... (zindagi kha lejayegi kuch khabar nhi...khaar bs itni hai ki kuch achha krna kuch alag ho na ho per shyd aisa jise pana aasan na ho) these days my mind full with many questions, some about life and some about my family...but one thing that I want that is happiness ... I afraid sometimes that what will be next...there are may people who have high expectations from me but I don't know can I give them happiness in future and will be reach theirs expections? One more thing tagt Some things about thats i am overthinking sometimes , daydreamer and bhut kuch pta hai lekin dar lagta hi ki bolke khi rishto mai difference na aajaye..bs hope sab achha ho .. i also a little shy boy (in front of girls),...I think talk to girl is very hard. Hope when I got this letter I will change my shyness into easy talk and will be free from overthinking...I am social but there are so many boys in My contact list but no more girl Now I wanna talk about your dreams... 1. I wanna be a IFoS (Indian forest service officer) .. ptani lekin ek shaan ki naukri hai aasan nhi hai per muskil bhi nhi.. 2.maa and papa ko khush dekhna chahta hu..unhe tension free dekhna chahta hu..unhe ek nya sansar dikhana chahta hu..vo agar kuch kre bhi toh apni khushi ke liye.. vo aaram se rh ske ...or vo kha ske ki hamara bea hai na😍..vo jo 3. I wanna wander the india...each city with my bullet(❤️)one dslr camera ,one dairy. I wanna start with leh Ladakh, Manali,kerla,darzlling hills(W.B.), pondicherry,asam etc..(bs paisa ho jeb mai🤔🙄) Hope when I got this letter ,I must have roamed some cities 🙏✌️... Bs abhi filhal 5 sal mai itna kafi hai...aage ka uske bad...bs jab tu muje mile toh mai sab palu ..tuje padke ek khushi ho.. chehre pe halki se muskan ho✌️🙏🤠 Good bye... And enjoy the life ❤️