A letter from July 10th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, hi ,how is it going I hope you're doing ok because right now in life I'm not doing ok my friends and family are not doing ok and I don't think anyone is doing ok because its 2020 July 2020 and over 12 million people have COVID-19 and trump won't lock down the USA again and sad and so mad that people in the USA can't just stay at home and be like other countries and only have like 10 cases a day and not over 60,000 it is just so aggravating like if a twelve-year-old girl is smart enough to stay home and care about other people by not going outside then I don't get why a like 25-year-old cant just stay at home and not other people corona. well I hope you're alive and that all of our family is alive and I have a few questions. ok so one are you still depressed and not wanting to do anything or eat anything because I am I really just wish I could like myself and not think everything is a competition and realize I am cute but I do not think that is going to happen because I know that I just keep gaining weight and hating myself and if you think I'm crazy you probably don't remember this but when I was getting my first physical they took my weight and I was 154 pounds and Im twelve so I just hope you either are less than 154 pounds or are still 154 pounds and if you are more than that then might as well **** your self because you are a fat ugly pimple face ***** that no one likes you probably still don't have a phone and always act like you are happy but your not I know this might sound like a lot but I wish I could **** my self right know because I hate myself and all the girls at ballet are so perfect and skinny and I just wish I could be like them because I am deffinly not like them what so every also if you do not have a boy friend or have never had one there is anther reason to **** yourself because if you do not have man in your life your prob not going to get anywhere so yeah I hope you get in to collage if you don't again just **** yourself because there s apsulutly no reason to live because you don't have any talent you are not smart and your not cute so yeah you better say your good byes and write a letter to you family and friends that you prob don't have and take so many pills you die because that's the way I want to go out because it is the least painful hopefully. so yeah bye.