A letter from July 3rd, 2020

Dear Future Me, Hey, what's up? It's 2:25 a.m. in the morning right now while writing this. I found this off of TikTok. Does the app still exist? Probably does. I don't really know what to right. So . . . yeah. Today's your birthday though. Happy birthday. I hope you don't really care about birthdays anymore as much as I do now. But at least be happy your living (hopefully). The feeling I'm getting from writing this now feels sad. I have a feeling you might be sad. Either you haven't found anyone to love you yet or you've done something wrong and you don't know how to fix it. Whatever it is, it's your responsibility to fix it and your responsibility to put yourself out there. That's all I'm going to say. Where are you now? Are you finally out of the house and have your own home? Wherever it is, I hope it's a comfortable place to be in then it is right now in the home we're living now while writing this. Do you still like K-Pop? I hope you still do. K-Pop made me have a different mind set of things that I should be happy about. I'm trying. I hope your happy about the things we've accomplished. I'm pretty sure BTS in your time has less than a year to perform and make music for their fans, right? I hope NCT is still performing. Remember NCT, you still know the members names right and BTS? If you ever feel lonely at times, and you really can't find anyone, just adopt a child when you're ready. There's other children you can give love to that don't have family love, right? I'm sure you'll be a great parent, too. Or you can just adopt a cat. Haha. And PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS. You can do it. Okay? Please don't give up. And I know for a fact if you do, your going to be depressed and we don't want that okay? And also, I hope our appearance has changed to what we wanted. I hope your happy with yourself finally. Don't let other people bring you down. If anything, they're probably jealous of us and just want us to feel down when we truly know we look good as hell. I hope . . . Quit being nervous about things, too. Just sing a song lyric into your head for 30 seconds and you'll be fine. And if you don't succeed, try again and find another way. NOT AN EVIL WAY EITHER (unless you have to and you know what your getting yourself into). THINK BEFORE YOU DO ANYTHING. Right now I tend to not do that a lot and I hate myself sometimes for it. I hope it doesn't happen often for you as it does for me right now. If you do have anyone your with at the moment. Are they being good to you? If you know their not BREAK UP WITH THEM NOW. They should not be in your life if they aren't. And try to look into good personality and push aside looks. SAVE YOUR MONEY WISELY. We don't need our credit and stuff to be bad like our parents. Okay? DO WHAT YOU WANT AND NOT WHAT OTHERS WANT. Important my guy. Let go of people around you that are toxic to you also. I would hate myself if I didn't. Also, I hope you actually stay in contact at least with some of your actual friends such as Kitana. I know how much of an introvert we are. Just try and text, I know we hate that when we don't have anything good to talk about. Or call. PLEASE TELL ME IF YOU GOT TO GO TO ANY K-POP CONCERTS YET. PLEASE. THAT'S OUR GOAL IF YOU HAVEN'T YET. Alright, I think that's it. I really want to write more. But it's almost past 3 in the morning. So . . . yeah. Get that diploma if your going to school also. STUDY. Put away fun stuff if you can if it's distracting you. Eat healthy. Drink water, because I know I'm dehydrated as hell right now. Try and get some rest too for at least 5 hours a day. WORKOUT! Sincerely, C.J