A letter from June 24th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, well, I really don't know how to start this. I guess I should ask how you are, how you're doing. I would be 21 in 5 years from now. Crazy. You'll get this letter on your birthday so, happy birthday beautiful :)). I hope that you're doing much better and hope that you feel happy with life. I'll start by naming things that are going on right now that you'll look back at. Today is the 13.06.2020, 11:23am. I'm writing this before we go to the mall so I can buy myself some self care products like a Waterpik and some other essentials since I have to take care of my braces. Oh yeah, I've had my braces for about 6 months and a half now, and I can definitely say that I see a lot of change, in a good way of course. But what do I know, you already have your braces off and I hope you're taking good care of your teeth, or at least I hope they're already off.. Talking about appearance, I'm wearing glasses right now but I hope that you already have contact lenses. I hope that you had your glow up and I hope that it still comes for me. I'm very insecure about my looks and body right now and I'm just hoping that you've already moved passed that and love yourself for who you are. It's difficult for me to love myself, especially when I see all these other pretty people, it just gets me down. My skin has gotten better but not enough for me to feel confident in myself. I've bought some skin care products that are helping me so I'm hoping that you have flawless skin by now, cuz this **** is expensive man. Anyways enough sad girl hours, lets talk about right now, in my time. The Coronavirus is sadly still a thing right now, and I'm seriously hoping that it's nonexistent in your present time. It's honestly quite a struggle having to wear a mask all around town. It's really hard to breathe but oh well, better to be safe than in danger. My mom bought like 25 masks so she could be sure, lets not talk about the 15 bags of Toiletpaper.. definitely a karen.. 2020 is by far the dumbest and worst year of all, when I thought 2018 was bad, boy was I wrong. What is currently going on is the BLM movement. It's something very important to me. The Black Lives Matter Movement is something that has finally been spoken up about. Our generation (gen z) is the first to do something about racism and neglect towards Black people. I'm sure you remember people going to protests to fight for equality, well it's still going on right now. You remember George Floyd? That man changed the world. That's not the only thing, Trump has removed nondiscrimination law against queer people. It's honestly disgusting what that man is doing. Trump is a rotten orange, period. I hope you haven't changed your mind about him. I'm curious if in your present time he's still a president in the united states.. I surely hope not. he should be dea- huh what? nothing, keep reading :) Also, where do you live right now? In the USA like I've always dreamt of being? That would be cool. Hopefully you're being successful, in new york. I really hope that you've met ariana grande by now *****. if not, what the **** have you been doing? licking rocks at the beach?? anyways. Also, how have relationships been going, have you been in any? How is your style in clothing? Please, tell me It's like I've always wanted it to be. That's what I want right now, but mom is very strict on that stuff, I cant wear what I want and its annoying. I hope it gets better over time and she realizes that I can wear and do what I want. Do you have a car? If so what type, I hope it's a range rover or a jeep wrangler, if not that's also ok. At least you have a car. What about an apartment? I'm going to be honest and say that I think you still live with mom and dad. no offence. But if you live by yourself, good for you, you did it :). I still wish for a small friend group that I can count on, a group of bestfriends that I can have fun with, I hope you made some friends that make you happy and that you have fun with. I hope you're still friends with Alicia, Letizia and Abigail. You remember them? Yeah, we're all good friends right now but I think we'll all disassemble because of our different paths. I want to go to FOS while Leti wants to go to Gymnasium. I think Abi wants to go to Gymnasium too but I don't remember. Alicia wants to go to FOS too tho so she'll be with me. Right now we're almost done with 10th grade and I'm almost 100% sure that I'll pass to 11th grade. I've changed a lot since the start of 10th grade. When I came to this school, I was very shy and closed off, but since I cut off some of my toxic ex friends, I've gained slight confidence.. not as much as I would like tho. My Style changed slightly too. YOo, hold up. It's the 24.06.2020 today, 7:56pm. I honestly got tired n bored of writing so I stopped, but I'm back. lazy. Anyways, The sun has been out lately and I'm working on a tan. I'm as white as milk. I don't really know what to write anymore, I'm running out of topics. All I want to say is, be yourself. I'm not myself right now because I'm still scared of that and not ready yet. But you, I hope that you've found your worth. You're strong, beautiful, kind, sympathetic, adorable and amazing. Really hoping that by the time this gets to you, you're confident, loyal and much more. You're an independent woman and u can do what u want. You're 25 for god's sake. Do what you want, catch up on what you missed / lost in your childhood, be free. Because as much as parents, friends and strangers tell you you can't do ****, you most definitely can. Be free, live life, enjoy it as much as you can. I'm 'trapped' right now and cant do much but you're basically free, old enough to do everything. So do that. This was your past-self, 16 years old, height 1,62cm, weight 55kg dear future self, ily. hope you're still around to see this letter :)