A letter from June 13th, 2020

Dear Future Allison, I know that by the time you get this message you'll be one day away from turning 16! Yay. But I'm not here to talk to you about that type of stuff. I know that right now for me, stuff is really heavy right now. But this is just a reminder, if your not feeling loved, I love you :). I know you might be thinking that I have to love you, because you know.. I am you, but I'm being serious, I feel like there's to many commas in this sentence so I'm going to start a new one. I really hope your getting the help you need and deserve. I know right now, no one knows how I feel about anything at all. So future me....If your thinking about ******* yourself.... Don't. For me, and for you. I know things may be really rough right now, with the constant feeling that nobody loves you at all, but just don't. People love you, your parents, your siblings, your friends. They all love you. Even if it feels like they don't. But on a lighter note, Istg if you turned into an edgy teenager who says they have no soul, mate you better turn tf around right now and find a new aesthetic, coming from your edgy preteen self, it is NOT a fun experience. Be a soft girl or something, start having a casual aesthetic for all I care, if people think that your depressed, your doing it wrong. And istg if you changed the playlists I spent my time and energy on to My Chemical Romance I will come out of this screen and strangle you, all my 21 depression playlists better have the same songs and new ones, and none of them can be edgy or your typical e-girl **** alright? So you better step tf away from your edginess right now because I did not take the time out of my own life to find aesthetics to be only for you to turn out like this. Alright, alright, got it? You better hoe 😤. You should be a year 11 when you get this, are you still even living in Wellington? Are you still obsessed with anime, if your not, then start. You now I am literally a professional weeb and I'm not going to have you ruin that. Alright I got to go now. Bye future me!