A letter from June 8th, 2020

Dear Future Me💕, 1:57 PM🕐 I just wanted to start off by saying what i am currently doing and give details so that i have a decent picture of how i am today and how this day went so i can reminisce. So i woke up at around 10 ish and went to grandma's house to chill. After that i was watching greys anatomy s2 last episode and s3 episodes 1 and 2. And then at that exact moment me and ruben started arguing which led to a fist fight which then also lead off to me getting so mad i cried. Anywho after getting over myself i went to the kitchen and ate 2 plates of cinnamon toast crunch. Then after that samantha and the whole clan came and she had brought chilli cheese fries and we chilled and played the berghaintrainer with no success. Then they left. And now im here writing this letter to myself while taking a **** lmao. And its still kinda early so thats all that happened today. i will definetly be making more of these throughout these months of 2020 as well as throughout the years. Now i will do a list of my favorite things so i can compare in the future. Also i might to a thing of where i am now and where i want to be in the future and also compare that when i see this in idk how many years. ------------------- FAVORITES❤️ SHOW: greys anatomy & shamless MOVIE:how the grinch stole christmas and stuck in love SONG: spanish is comando x and english is either jungle abwdh or lies mc magic ICE CREAM FLAVOR:vanilla or mint chip FOOD:mexican food and chinese food DRINK:dr pepper I will put that for now and then continue saying things about my self and etc. also ima take a break to help my tia flor with naydines birthday so i will be back. 2:14 PM🕗 -------------------- 12:45 AM🕐 wooooowwww i guess i really didnt have time today so when i left i had played monopoly with the broskis and then went to shower and get ready for the partay🎉 whoop whoop and u already know our vibes be lit so yeah then we played just dance and when everyone left i started doing my homework that i missed and a shoutout to my teachers for coming in clutch and letting me turn in late work for my final grades😘 **** QUARANTINE 🖕🏼anway thats my day and now im going to talk about myself cuz why not --------------------- Im 15 years old im 5'3 and a half i have long *** hair and caca brown eyes and yeah. i also love music and books(cliche af). i can listen to all types of music u name it(except for edm that **** ***) my favorite books are romance and horror and y/a. i love seafood with my whole life ill die with that ****. and thats about it lol if i forget to add anything it will be in different letters. --------------------- now i will talk of my mental state not to sound crazy or anything but just to get things off my chest and see if i still feel like this in the future. i also saved this for almost last or atleast when i was alone just in case i cried like a *****. ☆well to start off it will almost be a year that i had stopped cutting which yay for me. also sometimes i feel sad for no reason because like i do alot for everyone and they never see it but when i stop all of a sudden im lazy or being fake or basically nothing. like **** im like a second mom to my siblings and thats how everyone treats me when i stop caring so much. like just let me be normal and not have to worry about them im still a child i shouldnt have to be taking care of them the way i was and still do. anyway enough of that part of my sadness. besides that making me sad its never been my appearence or anything that made me ever do that it was more of family stuff. but i literally cant explain it at all its too complicated so i wont even try because i dont wanna start crying or any of that(might be a future letter) --------------------- now for the question part lol😝 -how are you? -what are you doing right now? -where do you live? -are you dating? okay wow what a fail i dont really have questions at the top of my head so i will for sure be adding questions in the next one. --------------------- where i want to be by this date.... hopefully im in new york almost finishing college to then go again into a medical school or maybe even starting my internship already at seattle grace hospital(get it lmao?) nah but for real. also hopefully i have become a better person because i know i am not right now which saddens me. also i want to be thriving and going out and living life because i dont want to die knowing **** well i couldve lived better.but im still young so i will make sure to add to this as well cuz to be honest do i really know what will happen. what if i wake up right after sending this letter and thinking about becoming a ******* author or a chef or something but then yet again i might not even wake up one day so my advice is to just live life. (ewwww that was cheesy and ugly who do i think i am lmfao😂) -------------------- so yeah i think this is my parting note because i wanna read wattpad or maybe even finish greys anatomy idk we'll see. so in that case stay a bad ***** and dont lose yourself. because it happens. and thank you for coming to my ted talk me and ciggarrettes after *** are finna head off keep it g my baddie. -------------------- roll credits! HERO FIENNES TIFFIN❤️👅💦 MCDREAMY(R.I.P)💕👅💦 Y una bolsita para dar el levantón Y un botecito que me quema con frío Tres, cuatro Barbie' bien preciosas pa' bailar El solecito a lo lejos veo pasar Me pasa mi compa' un tabaco pa' embaisar El corazón siento me empieza a palpitar Llevaba tiempo sin eso experimentar No sé qué es eso, creo, dicen mariposas Llevo un buen rato y no la dejo de mirar Labios hermosos, su rostro espectacular Me acerco y la neta no sé si saludar Pero no es malo, mejor me voy a aventar Qué hermosa niña, créanme que fue la verdad Toqué su hombro y, al instante, me mira Su mano pega y me lleva junto a bailar Me tenía loco la forma de su mirar Y al paso en que ella se me pega y me pone a bailar Su cuerpo pegadito al mío me hacía vibrar Tengo yo miedo y no me quiero enamorar Pero ya es tarde y créanme que esto me gusta Dos, tres canciones y no para de bailar No me interesa mientras esté junto a ella Tres, cuatro tragos y la fiesta mejora Nos conocimos mientras la rola suena Ya ni les cuento, ya saben lo qué pasó Rodó en mi cama y justo cuando el sol salió Dormimos juntos, me tenía bien loco Y aquí termina la historia de este cuento Aquí sigo en el antro fumando un gallo Siempre observando por si es que me la topo Pasan los días y no la he vuelto a mirar A Dios le rezo pa' que la haga ya llegar Cierro los ojos y me acuerdo de su carita Cómo bailaba, sonreía y de ese mirar Luna, dile tú que ya la puedes mirar Dile que vuelva y aquí la voy a esperar PERIODT.THE END👏🏼 1:24AM🕗