A letter from June 4th, 2020

To the lovely future Meg, Bet you forgot about this one, huh. So hi, it's me, no worries, just Megan from 2020, not a creepy stalker. Right now, it is currently 2:10 pm on May 25, 2020. I am 16 years old, 5'10, 160 lbs, and I just got done binge-watching Avatar: The Last Airbender on Netflix for the past 3 hours. It's weird to think how long five years actually is, but how short it can end up feeling. Five years ago I was 11, which seems like a baby to me, but I bet you feel the same way at 22. Oh by the way, happy birthday! The big 2-2, actually not that significant in any way haha, but I'm proud that you've made it this far. I chose to send this letter five years from now, because by now, you should have gotten your college degree. It's funny because I can't even imagine my life five years from now. As of now, I don't even know where I want to go to school, or what the **** I want to do. It's a scary time, not that you aren't any less scared, you have to actually go out into the real world. I've never actually done anything like this before, so this is very exciting. The hope for this is for you to receive it on your birthday, and have something to smile at. So basically, I'm giving myself, AKA you, a sweet *** birthday present, so you better enjoy it. These past few years have been very interesting to say the least, and I hope they just continue to get more so. To think that only a few years ago I hated myself and my life is astounding. Currently, I am happy. I'm surrounded by such good people who I love and who I know love me. I hope that even if you have gotten new friends, they are good to you. You deserve to be loved. Of course, I'm sure you still remember good ol' Coronavirus, god only hopes it's still not going on as you read this. The year almost the entire Earth shut down will forever go down in history, and to have been alive while it happened, is kind of annoying. Of course, bad things have to happen in every generation, I just didn't expect it so soon in my life. All I wanted was to enjoy being a teenager and to have a good time while it lasted. This all sounds so privileged, trust me I know, but it's how I feel. Anyways, **** coronavirus, I hope they've found a cure. I sometimes think the whole ~college experience~ thing is stupid, but I really hope you at least had fun. I hope you stayed somewhat sober, but I also hope you have experienced getting high. And *** lmao, did you have *** with a guy, how about a girl? Are you dating someone right now? If you're not, don't be upset, being single is good as gold and you don't need someone else to make you happy. All I hope is that you made good friends, got decent grades, learned valuable things, and had fun. Okay let's talk about family. Right now, Jordan and Alex are still together, and Brooke and Seth are still together. I love both of their boyfriends and they already feel like brothers to me. I really hope Jordan and Alex are at least engaged, I need a niece or nephew ASAP!!! I honestly could see Brooke and Seth breaking up, but if they're still together and strong, I'm happy for them. What's going on with mom's business? Are her and dad planning to move somewhere else than MN, have they already? Did Brooke move back to MN or to another state? Is Jordan still in CA, did she buy a house? Has any extended family died? Did mom and dad get a new dog after Teddy died? Is your relationship worse or better with immediate family? So I actually ended up taking a break from writing this, partially because I got interrupted and kind of forgot about it, but also partially because I didn't know what else to write about. Currently it is 3:10pm on June 4, and it's my first day of summer. So far I really haven't done anything. The day after I started writing this, George Floyd got ******** by a police officer, starting protests all over the country and even world to fight against police brutality. My question is, have things changed? Do black people still get ****** for doing almost nothing? Are prison systems still corrupt? Is real justice being served? How long did these protests last and did they help create any change? Did people still support Donald Trump in the 2020 election? Are things better now? Are you still fighting? Right now I'm only 16, and while I can't go out and vote, and mom won't let me go to most of the protests, I can still use my voice. I hope you still know that your voice will always be important, no matter what age. I also hope that since you're much older now, that you use that advantage of being young and active to really go out and make change. I hope you've gone to dozens of protests for dozens of different topics. I hope that you voted in the 2024 election and I hope it was for someone you really believed in. Things that are bothering my life right now- my *********. It feels silly to be focusing on that while the whole world is going up in flames, but it's still my life. I'm so proud of you if you came out, and if not, that's okay. By now, I'd assume you have, I mean come on, it's been a long ******* time. I'm sure mom and dad and Brooke and Jordan all welcomed you with loving arms, but how did extended family take the news, do they even know? Whatever they said if they do know, know that you were brave enough to say those words in the first place to them, and that's all that matters. Let's see, what else? Oh, art! I really hope whatever has happened over your life, you haven't given up on art. It's always been a part of you and you can't let it disappear. Right now I'm thinking of majoring in art and design, so if you've let that part of you go, I'll be really disappointed. Art is joy, art is passion, art is love. As for religion, where do your views align? Right now I feel like I'm getting closer and closer to becoming an atheist, yet I somehow can't call myself one. When I talk to someone like Maddie, I believe in the good of God again, but then when I talk to someone like Jamie, I'm like yeah **** religion. Maybe you've found a good place. Okay, I think that's all. Hopefully there aren't too many typos in all of that. I call this next section: What Is 16 Year Old Me Like? Honestly I can't even remember what my basic interests were 5 years ago, so I figured you'd be interested to know in case you don't remember! (I'm going off random lists online because I can't think of my own questions lol) First; favorite ______ Favorite fruit: blackberries Favorite vegetable: green beans Favorite soda: sprite (I'm sure this one hasn't changed) Favorite coffee order: caramel macchiato Favorite food: pasta pasta pasta pasta pasta Favorite Harry Potter movie: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix Favorite Hobbit: Sam duh (**** Frodo) Favorite scary movie: Us Favorite Pixar movie: Walle Favorite TV show(s): The Sinner, Anne with an E, My Brilliant Friend Favorite musical artist(s): there's way too many to choose from... Hozier, Harry Styles, Tyler the Creator, ABBA, Beyonce, The Beatles, BROCKHAMPTON, Frank Ocean, Simon & Garfunkel, Clairo, King Princess Favorite genre: currently rap Favorite artist artist(s): Gustav Klimt, Zaria Forman, Frida Kahlo Favorite vacation: #1 roadtrip w/ mom Favorite season: fall!!! Favorite animal: sloth Favorite sport to watch: tennis or basketball Favorite time in life: the majority of 2019, so when I was 15/16 Favorite makeup item: eyebrow gel (changed my life) Favorite scent: that specific almond candle (if you've forgotten about it, go find it NOW) Favorite color: forest green Favorite girl name: Coraline or Rowan Favorite boy name: Vincent or Cooper Favorite video game: Papa's Cheeseria or Minecraft Now other random questions to get to know yourself more :) What social stigma does society need to get over? female armpit hair, so frickin stupid that people still care that much. What food have you never eaten but want to try? dragonfruit, or other fruits. Do you think aliens exist? hell yeah, of course I do. Best movie you've recently watched? Just Mercy, watch it again. What's something that will always be in fashion? high waisted jeans- I hope. Have you ever broken a bone? no, but I kind of want to. What is your biggest pet peeve? republicans. Which celebrity has the worst fan base? Ben Shapiro and Pewdiepie. What song did you last sing out loud? Dream a Little Dream of Me. What's the most interesting documentary you've watched? 13th. How comfortable are you with public speaking? a lot less than I used to be, but still pretty nervous, unless it's in front of people I know. What's your worst example of procrastination? I waited to do half of my math assignment for distance learning a day before they were all due. What word is a lot of fun to say? ****. How do you fall asleep? I imagine a scenario with friends or someone I ~fancy~. What's the worst hairstyle you've ever had? 4th grade short *** bob. What's your worst habit? biting. my. nails. please tell me you've stopped by now. What's a basic skill you don't know how to do? change a tire. What's the grossest food you absolutely love? cheese curds all the way and I'm not ashamed of it. What do you do to de-stress? blast music in my car and go on a drive, or blast music in my headphones and dance around in my room. Okay, I believe that is everything I want to say. It's funny because I'm very glad I can stop writing this, but also a part of me doesn't want to stop and still feels like there's so much more to say. Oh well, there's always going to be more to say, but I can't write you a 10 page essay. Know that I love you and I hope you love you as well. Know that wherever you are right now, you've made it, and you should be proud that you're simply just reading this right now. Know that if I'm proud of you right now at 16, so you can be proud of your current and future self as well at 22. Know that the world is crazy in 2020, and maybe it's crazy in 2025, but whatever you do, don't stop fighting for what's right. Know that you deserve to be surrounded by good people. Know that you are a good person. Happy birthday once again!!!!! ~ sincerely Megan from the past <3