A letter from June 1st, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I am writing this letter from my childhood bedroom in during the summer. My life is pretty boring so I won't go too far into my current self. However, it is a CRAZY time to be alive. I won't explain it, but the world is kinda ******. Just google 'June in 2020', and you can remember how ****** this year has been so far lol. Anyways: Tonight I sat with my two best friends (i'm sure you can guess who), in a field to watch the sunset. We ended up staying in the field for around 3 hours. We discussed a lot of topics, God, *****, boys, etc. One thing that is a popular trend on tiktok right now is the idea of "main characters". I have, unfortunately, come to the conclusion that I am not a main character. When I walk into a room, I don't feel like I belong. I don't really feel beautiful, I don't feel like I am the best version of myself. I am the DEFINITION of a side character lol. This is something I want to change. I want to become confident, and I want to become a main character. So, I hope when you read this in 5 years, you are the person I so desperately want to become. Right now, my 5 year goals is that I will be graduated with my Bachelors degree, and will be living and working in the big apple. I've never even been to New York, but I know it is where I belong (at least for a few years). I hope that I have a boyfriend (maybe a husband?!?!) and that I am living and enjoying the city alongside many friends. I hope that I am doing a job that I love, and that my life is exactly what I want it to be. IF WHEN I READ THIS IF I AM NOT HAPPY WITH WHERE I AM: CHANGE IT *****! there is no reason for you to be unhappy. DO NOT SETTLE! If reading this letter makes you realize the ambitions I used to have and I haven't been living the life that I hoped I would live, than I hope you walk your *** out of your situation and you start living your **** life. This life is too short to be unhappy, and you need to be doing what is best for you, at all times. Be the person you want to be, make the changes you want to see in the world, and love others unconditionally. Call mom, keep ties strong, and don't forget to LIVE YOUR LIFE! You deserve to be a main character, and don't forget it. Now, some questions I would like to ask you: - (not a question) but I really hope you've been in a relationship by now lol - are my two besties still my besties? - how are my freshman year college friends doing? (as those are the only ones I know at this moment) - what did you get your degree in? - did you get tiktok famous yet?!? - how's emma chamberlain?? - how's my whole family?? - how are the pups?!? - how are you doing?? KNOW THAT YOU ARE ENOUGH! I hope that you are doing well, and that this letter brings a little joy to your day. Seriously, call the fam and your old friends. We don't want to have any regrets! Best regards (see ya on the other side), Me (but 5 years younger) dx