A letter from May 29th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Believe me when I say, you are the better version of Amira right now. Be proud of what you have achieved cause you have gone through so many things in your life. Don't judge yourself. I want to remind you that the most important thing is : To thank Allah for what He has given you. Countless blessings, happiness, success, health and wealth. Never stop seeking Allah guidance and advice. He is the one who still with you during your ups and downs. Do you remember when you 'lost' your bestfriend and you felt devastated, you cried every single night, you try to be as workaholic as before and purposely going back late at night so that you can just go to sleep and forget what happened. Nobody know what is going on not even your parents or your close friends cause it was so painful that you can only tell Allah in your prayers and He understand want you've been through (people do give good advice but still not enough), but then Allah give you something that you never thought you will get, which is the 'Cyberjaya'. Yes, it is the thing that you have been waiting for few years and you can't believe you get the offer. The moment when you received the message is like a cure to all the sadness and somehow you become stronger and eventually moved on. Remember when you feel so down when most of your friends already got their place for internship but you still waiting for answers and you really need to give it soon to University so that you won't have to repeat the semester, But then, you not just only get one reply but two, and those replies are coming from well known companies and someone else's wish list. How great was that! 😎 Allah wants to see your patience and faith in Him so that He will give you more. Remember when you like someone and you never tell anyone except Allah and pray that guy could be the one, there's few guys there, not gonna name one, but let just keep it between me, you and Allah 😉. But then Allah immediately show you the sign whether he is a good guy or not. He is protecting your heart from any bad guy that just trying to play with you or someone that has already taken but act like they don't. 😒 Remember when Allah close your 'Aib' or weaknesses in front of all people, so people see you as a good person and praise you for your good work or good heart, but they never knew about the sins and mistakes that you had done before. He chose to cover that for you and guide you through all of that because why. Because He loves you. It is true. I just want to share with you the quote that will always touch my heart everytime I read it and the last sentence is the most meaningful to me : "Wahai anak A*** jangan pernah engkau takut kepada sesiapa pun yang mempunyai kekuasaan selama kekuasaanku ada dan ketahuilah kekuasaanku tidak akan pernah punah selamanya. Wahai anak A*** jangan pernah kau takut dengan kesempitan rezeki sedangkan perbendaharaanku penuh dan perbendaharaanku tidak pernah akan habis selamanya. Wahai anak A*** aku ciptakan kamu untuk beribadah maka jangan kamu bermain2 dan aku juga sudah menentukan rezekimu maka tidak perlu engkau lelah  Demi kemuliaan ku dan keagungan ku jika engkau redho terhadap pemberianku maka aku akan tenangkan jiwa dan raga mu engkau akan mula di sisiku Jika engkau tidak redho dengan pemberianku maka aku akan membuatmu mengejar dunia seperti haiwan buas yang sedang mengejar mangsa nya di padang pasir kemudian tidak akan datang kepada mu kecuali yang aku sudah takdirkan. Wahai anak A*** aku telah menciptakan langit dan bumi dan aku tidak pernah rasa sulit menciptakan dua nya maka apakah kau fikir aku akan sulit mengurus rezeki mu  Wahai anak A*** jangan kau minta rezeki untuk esok hari sebagaimana aku tidak pernah meminta denganmu amal esok hari. Wahai anak A*** Sesungguhnya aku sangat mencintaimu maka atas hak itu cintailah aku!" 🌸 The moment I discover this, it really strengthen my belief that Allah actually loves us. But we are the one who run away from Him. we didn't look for Him , where in this sentence He begging us to love Him after all the things he had given us. As precious as air, he gives us the air to breath to go through the day and keep looking for Him and just tell him the story of our life, as He willingly listen and will help us, as long as we obey and stay grateful to Him. I believe you have encounter more miracle, unexpected and beautiful situations or incidents that makes you feel Allah loves you and answers your prayers. Including your love life hubs, marriage, family, children, career and more happiness. If any of this is still not there when you read this letter, don't worry, as Allah will always have better plans for you. Just remember all the events I have mentioned before and never give up on Him. The more you believe in Allah, more surprises you will get. May He guide us, our families, our friends and to all the people that we know or know us , to heaven, Jannah Firdaus without azab or hisab. Aminnn. I LOVE YOU ❤️ I ADORE YOU ❤️ I CARE FOR YOU Sincerely, Your PastMe 29th May 2020 2.00 am In your pink room