A letter from May 26th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Happy 20th birthday!! Wow, You made it to 20 years-old today huh, I'm so proud of you!! It may have been really hard but you did it! I hope atleast. Please tell me you're alive to read this lmao. Anyways, How's life? Did you finally decide what you wanted to do with your future? Did you strive to become an writer? Animator? actress? Voice actress? Influencer (For some reason??)? Maybe a dancer? Maybe You're still in to musical theater and on your way to Broadway! I really hope so haha Bro remember when you really wanted to audition for a kpop entertainment company? God that was kinda cringy. But hey, if you did it, I'm so happy!! I hope the summer of '25 is better than the summer of 2020. It's going to be awful this year huh. Also, Are you still a Nonbinary Panromantic Ace? Or did that change? Are you a boy now? Well, Whatever you are i hope you're happy! Did you go to pride in these 5 years? What about friends? love? Did you finally get a partner after all these years? Someone who actually loves you and appreciates you? God i hope so. Are you still friends with Allani? Or Sydney? Or Candela? Or Katie? Or Poke? Ruwu? Or any of your amino friends? I honestly hope so. The friends i have now are so great and i really really love them. But We both know we definitely annoy them a little too much :( I hope you didn't let Sofia back in to your life. Are you still living in Spain? Or did you move to an English speaking country? America? Canada? England? Or maybe you moved to Asia! Japan? If you didn't move, did you atleast get to travel the world with your mates like ypu wished? Did you ever go to America for the summer with Allani? Also did you finally get some diagnosis? Anxiety, Depression or Anger-issues or some ****? I'll bet you 5 that we have atleast anxiety. I mean that's the only way of explaining the feelings I'm having right now ykyk? What about your family? Do you still fight with mum? What about Kimmo? Are they still together and alive and well? We fight so much... I hope everything is okay! What about pets? Pleaee don't tell me Lola, Pablo, Lipsu, Pörrö or Pyorä died. Please god i would not be ready for that i love them so much. Remember mystic messenger? Do you still ever play it? God it's funny how that game and saeyoung, who's not even real, are the only things capable of making me feel loves in any way shape or form. Btw, are you still in to musical theater? Remember Hamilton, DEH, Mean girls, Beetlejuice and all the wonderful works on broadway? Also, Did you ever get animal crossing on the switch? I know you really wanted it but couldn't afford it :( Honestly. I hope I'm alive to read this my mind has gonento such a dark place during quarantine its not even funny I've thought about being better off dead and that's why im writing this. To distract from those thoughts. Please be okay. Amanda, 14. Spain, Malaga. 27/05/2020