A letter from May 25th, 2020

Dear Future Me, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, I don't know what to really say I don't know if ill even be alive when the time comes to send this but I just wanted to say that even if it seems like someone has taken everything from you they haven't because you have the biggest heart in the world and you are sooooo amazing and beautiful and whoever wouldn't love you for you is crazy , I miss being a little kid not having to worry bout anything life was care free. life is hard right now momma keeps knocking me down just so I can't be happy and now she switching up for so man I don't know what to do anymore I just want to find someone who will care for me I hope i can find that in the future. I also miss my father no matter how much that man didn't care for me I just wanted him to be there for me sometimes. it's crazy what time can do how much it can either mess everything up or make it a bit better any right now it gets better for a Lil bit till it just gets ****** up in a blink of an eye. I miss being happy I was fun when I would spend hours at granma dots pool with all my sisters but now I just keep everything to my self and rarely let new people in my life I used be so good at making friends and creating bonds but now it's just everyone using me for one thing after the other and I don't want to be used anymore it's getting tiring so I'm just nor going to anymore for the safety of my heart, well I hope your doing good 20 already look how time flies well have a good day and remember to always love your self cause that's all you need. BYe ;)