A letter from May 26th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Why are u still single man ??? Get urself a boy or girlfriend uff U still confused bout ur ********* ? Wouldn’t be surprised if you were ngl Did u finally figure out if you’re *** or bi ? I mean I’d understand if ur *** cause idk if I’m only saying I’m bi to not completely go against my parents beliefs. But **** it ! Them toxicass ppl ain’t got nothing on u. I’m talking bout ur parents and whole family in general. Hope u were able to do your year abroad and are finally happy. Maybe you’ve even found a reason to continue living idk. Right now it’s weird and I don’t see a reason in continuing this lie called life. But I hope your finally free now. Free to do anything u want. Free to love whoever u want without being afraid of being judged or abused by ur parents. I really hope you are. U deserve it. I’ll try my best to endure this pain for u so if you’re still hurting don’t u dare think about doing anything to yourself. I’m trying my best too. I know it’s hard to believe I mean I am u so I know it the best LMAO You deserve to be loved. You deserve to live. You are a normal human being. You are not disgusting and you are not a disappointment. I don’t believe in what I’m saying right now but I hope you will. Happy New Year ✨ Your 18 year old you