A letter from May 25th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, it's PASTYOU, i bet you didn't miss me at all right? lemme remind you of the **** you've been through these past years that you never deserved okay. you've never had perfect relationships or friendships often, things at home, school and everything was just difficult. there was a point in life where you forgot your worth and baby i hope now you've understood and treasured your worth and you got into your first relationship on August 23rd 2017, he was your first love yes, you were together for 3 years nearly yes, but he broke your heart to and that's what hurt you. because of that you felt like you lost your other half but you lost yourself to because you felt empty. you cried every night at this point rn i still do i mean and its been 5 months. we broke up on january 16th 2020. it was nights crying with aliyah, cerys, lorena, evelyn, iqra, symran, savanna, megillah and safa. they were reminding you of your worth everyone on your snap was there for you. but you just couldn't be there for yourself but you always managed to be there for everyone else. even now writing about him makes me miss him so much he was my baby and bro i loved him with everything in me and he took away my happiness in a split second and all his feelings he apparently felt, idk if they were even real but i never feel like i will ever be able to love again please prove me wrong and tell me your happily in love with someone. remember that day evelyn and iqra had to pull you out the house to go to lorenas birthday motive otherwise you would have just been sitting at home and crying. thats how you know they're real ones. even though you had a wedding the same day and ended up just chilling with them for a couple hours that was enough to take your mind off it all. there wasn't a time they let you think of him. nice girls always finish last should have known that, gave them your heart and they ****** around and broke that. they played you. did you so shady and had you in your feelings for so many months. you couldn't trust yourself let alone anyone else and you never deserved that at all. babe he cheated on you with our opp, the biggest opp we had ALYSIA. that dumb slag but i still hate her. idk if you feel different now but idc. look at her compared to us bro shes ugly looks like a donkey. i know you could never hate him or ever talk bad about him but uno what he lost a good one and your doing amazing and you've moved on and you've glowed so much mashallah. GIRL IM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!! remember the times dad locked our phones at 12:30 and it was so jarring. it caused so many ******* arguments in the family for years. remember the time you met this boy Talha, you would ft him everyday. the conversation just flowed and there was also something to talk about. remember that thing you thought about sitting on the jaanamaaz in ramadan "someone can make you feel something in 3 days that someone in 3 years couldn't, time doesn't mean anything". that made him laugh and made him happy, falling asleep on ft with him. he could always make you laugh and you felt like you was actually falling in love with him. that night you was so tired and you said to him, i think i love you and the fact he smiled through it all and even while i was falling asleep he didn't get off ft till it locked. he was on your mind day, night and throughout the day. EVEN WHEN YOUR GOING NORMAL EVERYDAY THINGS. remember him saying he knows your the one for him and how he will wait for you, introduce you to his mum, engage you at 21-22 and travel the world with you and marry you. remember him, is he still in our life, did that all go as planned or was that just another niggas lie? deep when i typed that paragraph about him he was texting meeeeeeee i'm writing this while not being at my best time and on top of that being in quarantine because of corona which makes everything worse i hope your okay there. you know i was always looking forward to the future not knowing what would happen but girl i just always wished the best. you've cut all the toxic people out your life now your only left with the real ones i really do hope your okay and well and happy, you turnt 21 today. i hope your enjoying yourself and i hope your happy. YOU BEST BE HAVING A BAD ***** TIMEEEEEE!!! did you get into dentistry just like you wanted to or did you wanna change profession. remember your beautiful, amazing and bro i'm so proud of you, for not giving up back then and the fact you made it to this day to actually read this letter. A WHOLE 5 YEARS LATER. i hope your happy baby girl never ever give up if you ever doubt your worth or your going through a hard time. look back and see how you got through all that you can definitely get through anything else no doubt cause your a baddie and your just so amazing. KEEP DOING YOU BABY KEEP GOING XXX i hope your as successful as you wanted to be when you was me and i hope your keeping your grind going. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLIE! XXX next time your at a bad stage write another one of these and send it out again and when you see it you will be just as proud of yourself as i am babe. LOVE YOU SO MUCH LOVE FROM PASTYOU!!!! CANT WAIT TO SEE WHAT ELSE LIFE HAS AHEAD FOR YOU BEBE. KEEP GOING YOUR DOING AMAZING!! remember haters gon hate. and ******* got alot to say. you just keep rubbing it in their faces that you better than them and if anyone wanna leave your life you HOLD THAT DOOR WIDE OPEN FOR THEM PERIOOOODDDDDTTTTT! ayt love you girl you ain't gon hear from me again, stay safe, stay happy, keep slaying xxx never to be continued............