A letter from May 24th, 2020

Time Travelled — almost 6 years

Peaceful right?

Dear Me Are you scared? I know we thought it would never get better but does it? Do we stay with Aurora or do we meet someone new? Have you fulfilled our dreams yet? Are we still going to be a teacher? Have we gotten better? You're turning 19 today huh? Is it fun? Right now its 5:24 pm on may 24th 2020. I just turned 13 and I'm in love. Are we still friends with Frances, and Cadence, and Arissa and Bella? Have we gotten our first tattoo yet. Do you still write? Have we gotten better at writing and singing? Have we been in a play? Is it terrifying to grow up? Do we still think about our bio dad? Is mom doing okay? Say Hi to her for me! And Dad! I guess the kids too because when you read this they'll be 10 right? As i'm writing this their still four. And loud too. I'm scared I'm scared for mom I'm scared that the person I hope is the love of my life might leave me. How do I even know you're reading this? You might've died by now and whoever has this email is getting a horrible surprise. Do me a favor okay? Give yourself a hug. You made it through all of the ******** you had to deal with in your life and I'll be damned if ill let you throw away how incredible you are. Get your *** to the best school and show the world that your ready to rule it. I'm proud of you. It's okay if you still don't know who you are. Get your **** together and breath. You've lived this god**** long and you better appreciate it. Do you still paint? This letter is all over the **** place but its you so you know it would be. Did you ever take up knitting like you said you would? And I know I've mentioned her already in this letter but tell Aurora I said hi. I don't care if we're together or if we even spoken in months, just call her and say hi because no matter how you feel about her as your reading this, the you writing this is so in love with her. Take a moment and make something. Write someone a letter, bake something, just get up. Did you ever get over you're hatred of tea? I hope you did because I've heard some good stuff about it. It sucks that I don't know whats happening to you right now because I would write some questions better for you. Hey, do me another favor and stay alive. I love you

Epilogue

about 22 hours later

Y’know I was really nervous to open this letter. I know how bad we were back then and I was scared this would just send me spiraling back. I am...

Darces. Dasrec hleiw ielf a be wlli ym dna i eayevyrd of hkint rof i ’im. Negserrpis ew hsa od lla lgon ntsur out etmr het yltluaac fsetefc. Reh how a mi’ uyo ont evol erew’ hiwt heerw ldive eerv aorra,u lu’dovwe rdolw haetyhl hg?uhtto nda in asw htgohut roysr ouy. Heva rtcheae inggo orf ot ltils a saoispn eb i a i dan raylel it do am. I evew’ od tulyr ,etetbr nktih i lalrye totegn. Huttogh hda ti tmie the oyu siht i ovel uyo nedede hatw utb htikn funod yuo twn’as ’ewev. Vole nda lwdro hatt yuo eth tow who uoy epepol orf uoy iveg woh uwold fro are uyo ehav inerdfs. (r)tsa ubt ftqeruyeln no’td mtie nrce,sfa ot ltsa lkat or uoy ecncead tlisl i ,rsisaa dna aelbl emrreebm dkeatl i eth. D’otn i lnigvo tinhk thme otps eerv o’yull. Tno luodw ottaot, eno ew eexctp uoy laobpbyr htohugal iflanly idd a etg. A uyo t’is the ormf nrtefaimc dulow ownk chwhi vleo hgut,ho tuoqe i pmoe dne. Ghahotul wiret etnh lslti did no i uyo we vole ever prteyo orme ot ouscf. Uto teg dab enflgies lspeh the ti. Our ’eevw iepormdv and singing asy siltl i htbo aoapnstsie oudlw llsski ’eerw tihw yrht’ee nad gtnriiw tuoab tgisnh. In a lodev and so it i ned won tath t’si mrajo uro i pu p,ayl idd uchm. When rdowl nssee na su teh ehartte orf d’tnseo uteolt isegv eamk. Crays itllet iggrwno si a pu. Awht ubt nya eilbvee ofr leik shtree’ wlle di’ to tinrotcniuss ton nede yalrel you ndigo wr’ee eytrpt do ot. I ellw’ think he ihwt oscle reev dda dna own tno btu in his be e’rwe rtsie yaw dotn’. P,nai ihelw asere it ot that rbon jtsu epolep dan a he dik wsa lbielfla ear detnso’ ’ist ew ntrotamip whne emrbemer rwee eht. M’mso wreso otntge. Vremoip oyur wokn ahtt evern hrgmntiae idd alwasy orwts aws hlaeth hre tbu i. Thwi eoj alaicorn preocss dan eht iogcndriv ni of h’ess to hornt gnmvio raza. Eth neatm sorry eewr uoy, m’i turh ovle ’im zlireae htta oeplep tath ohw you oyu noly vere nda rea gynuo yorrs too to ot. Dski raza noly the are ,ogdo taoub wnok logatuhh i. Morf sah one a gao no snujit dreevcero aws nda seyra uro orfm emdov earlly efw moeh ttha. Be to fo bbay thgisn grwno do)lu tlsli esy z tlo lrgi a going awlysa e’shs laso( ’hess oru ’ethres iwth but. Wnok cardes i how oyu weer. Eht lla i how sthgin and got adb reghytnvei emit nkow mesede woh rdka. Ltlis racsed grfyitneri i onkw sles kema ysa poeelp i esem lwoud btu m’i i nghist heva taht. Tieamny ahegnc eliva litls oons ont ggoin r’eew thast’ ot and. Hkitn ouy rheniag plshe meor i inebiedclr mi’ rezlaei ysa ehtn yuo dwulo. Fo anwt em taht i hatt ot i ni rodup ifel vile ouy giben utb you uodlw hree inkth my be dlwuo deende i a dopru ,of mrbmeeer yaw be for enev ot. Lwihe up i den ts’i raeyll he“t c,”soloh od in dan btse otn elo,egcl did ovel rentsew ew. Rlelya asmtr erca wneh utboa auesbec zgianam are we rae is’t gerdsa our we fftus. Tno kwno if how erev i ubt lilw lkie eurs asy id’ im’ i am i to. Ti kesam tub i hent hpapy orme na vodle an,psois ahtt ’ndto of pna,ti ihntk na i yuo aeepcs wsa cltaua ti em isllt ti. Os het ulwod leyalr ifel ahtt too nay royu fo ti pclae is eb lal uyro vero rinete rwiting nssee mskea. Eath tou ti adn ufdon ew os hcum irdet tgnintik ew. Nygioann sa s’it lhle. Onggi sthi not chum tbu tou i nokw ’mi uoy aher turh ot owh to ti erh ot cerha ludwo. I let in my rhut lief reh sitll dndnaesutr hse sefure trgniy to nad us iton asyw kbca ot im’. Tleye,rcn rdemari eht hre ehs ostoph i eocfokba mmso no gto asw. Atth elvo aveg uryo so it of oyu m’i mchu erevn dan vesrddee she erh orrsy. Btes teh emda yrtahbdi ddi i day, ehrot rfo ltulycaa a esifrnd ceak abke our i. His cj mnae ouy htnik dan him uodwl i rdoea si. Enerv aet, chwih su vero etg oru nidgeirrlf the orf tehrda ahets ew did tabou. A njiistnoec ,t do yojen dnik !s(iuesprr sti’ fro do o)yb! fo we weke a nffeitrde eyver ichhw we. Whis i to uoy go talk dcoul bkca in i nad mtie. Uyo i ti ngtshi ttha epsrimo grhuhot dna get aemd ettrbe. Uoy plpeeo lkycu and ahev o’ruye htat mhte vradyeye ear leif ni so ehret ot rschhie oruy. Phyap ew rewe’ utb n’ater erectpf. Got ehtn vere ineiadmg ermo i uasbcee heer uyo oyu i eolv ’vlocued y’ueor woh. Eb peek dntdi’ uoy gyntri lno’twdu i if eerh. Tmgnpiet, i i wsa veen onkw ttah dreit ubt ew dtdi’n igving msemitsoe ouy up ownk oto os. Adn satdey ecbsuea oyu i hree loev i’m ouy.

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