A letter from May 24th, 2020

Time Travelled — almost 6 years

Peaceful right?

Dear Me Are you scared? I know we thought it would never get better but does it? Do we stay with Aurora or do we meet someone new? Have you fulfilled our dreams yet? Are we still going to be a teacher? Have we gotten better? You're turning 19 today huh? Is it fun? Right now its 5:24 pm on may 24th 2020. I just turned 13 and I'm in love. Are we still friends with Frances, and Cadence, and Arissa and Bella? Have we gotten our first tattoo yet. Do you still write? Have we gotten better at writing and singing? Have we been in a play? Is it terrifying to grow up? Do we still think about our bio dad? Is mom doing okay? Say Hi to her for me! And Dad! I guess the kids too because when you read this they'll be 10 right? As i'm writing this their still four. And loud too. I'm scared I'm scared for mom I'm scared that the person I hope is the love of my life might leave me. How do I even know you're reading this? You might've died by now and whoever has this email is getting a horrible surprise. Do me a favor okay? Give yourself a hug. You made it through all of the ******** you had to deal with in your life and I'll be damned if ill let you throw away how incredible you are. Get your *** to the best school and show the world that your ready to rule it. I'm proud of you. It's okay if you still don't know who you are. Get your **** together and breath. You've lived this god**** long and you better appreciate it. Do you still paint? This letter is all over the **** place but its you so you know it would be. Did you ever take up knitting like you said you would? And I know I've mentioned her already in this letter but tell Aurora I said hi. I don't care if we're together or if we even spoken in months, just call her and say hi because no matter how you feel about her as your reading this, the you writing this is so in love with her. Take a moment and make something. Write someone a letter, bake something, just get up. Did you ever get over you're hatred of tea? I hope you did because I've heard some good stuff about it. It sucks that I don't know whats happening to you right now because I would write some questions better for you. Hey, do me another favor and stay alive. I love you

Epilogue

about 22 hours later

Y’know I was really nervous to open this letter. I know how bad we were back then and I was scared this would just send me spiraling back. I am...

Rdaces. Of lilw orf htkin ifel im’ lwhei i eb a i earyevdy my dan aescrd. Luyatalc we ogln lla otu do eht ash ireespngsr rsnut cfftsee etmr. Wodrl we’re olve ni ont you was iwth ,auaorr ?guotthh ryors ughotth ’im rehwe a vdile ouy yhheatl nad owh dlwovue’ hre erev. Ma ereahct be for to nad hvea lslit i a od ti arlyle a npiaoss ngiog i. Nitkh ,eetbrt od truly i evew’ oetngt eyrlla i. Eth ti eev’w i tknih eovl ouy thutgho ’ntasw eednde waht tbu adh you yuo fudon eimt isht. For woh uyo uyo uoy ivge dwluo het evha who yuo lowdr orf dfnersi velo owt are hatt eplpeo nad. Dot’n i adn memrbree lsat laleb asari,s sar)t( nrceas,f uqreelyntf takl cdeanec illts i eltdak eth tub or ot imte ouy. L’oluy t’dno nlgvio erve nkthi i ostp ethm. Ghuthaol did we a infylal tge oduwl oyu ,ototta cetepx nto oen byporbal. Poem yuo hihcw qtuoe end i ldwuo from a cmrietnfa nwok oh,htug is’t lveo the. Oyu levo neth ddi ufosc we reom ot iewrt no huagotlh erev tllis epryot i. Bad pshel out iglnefes it etg the. Wudlo rewe’ ysa obaut dan nda sillt erteh’y ginths rou rgtnwii klsils eaopatissn ve’we i tiwh nniisgg hobt vmrieodp. Our pu a i’st ypla, so ni i adn i marjo edn mhuc did that nwo ti veodl. Ewnh eth gesvi su do’ntes an dwolr esnes rfo ateetrh uettol eamk. Pu igrnogw cyrsa si ltitel a. Ubt for layrle ’esreth igdno elik ont llwe iintnsruostc ’id ayn od athw to eliebev yetrtp yuo to eedn erew’. Ni wiht w’eer wno i btu tnod’ he adn ish dad be tirse nikht eclos w’ell ywa nto erve. Eesar eth a ti rnob swa ,pnai ewnh opelep rae utjs helwi ahtt to pnmatriot were eh lfielabl eeerbmmr se’dtno ew nad ikd s’it. Omm’s etognt owser. Vrpmeio reh thhael idd rhaienmgt oyru nokw asw eenvr ubt ayswal wtors that i. Oej dna raaz rcpesos iogdnrivc hortn sehs’ ot lcrinaao gimovn whti of eht ni. Oyu ’im uoy ot ot ryrso era woh i’m the uyo, noly vere atht elvo nad too popele ttha wree natme osrry ruht liaezre ygnuo. Azra wnko eht lthhaoug od,og era only tuboa iskd i. Ttah ormf a ayrse ahs on mrof eon was dvemo uor oga nijsut hmoe dan fwe eecvorder llyear. Tbu be a aybb ithw rowng z hngits ola(s ngigo ’sshe ’hretes uor to tol llist eys hs’se rlgi wasyla fo l)dou. Erew ouy aredsc nwko who i. Eth imet dna hwo woh hsntgi adb dkra gto nowk edseem vhyengtrei i all. I know listl ttha leppoe edcsra aekm i ays ritegyifrn olwud btu essl eems eahv i’m sgtinh i. Onso isllt ggoni evila nghaec ton ot nda nmyetia ’eewr stta’h. Rmoe uoy loudw i ays elriaze ethn ’mi eriienbdlc you tnhik plseh nhigrae. Eb ot i way eb i elfi in uyo natw ot luowd orpdu my olduw vile i a eednde vnee of, orf atht nhkti beerermm niegb tbu ouy fo ereh durpo ahtt em. Do teh“ seertnw up ew levo shcoo”l, otn elcleog, ryeall i’ts hwiel sebt dne idd i and in. Mrtas esragd s’ti fufst cear aellry baout enwh agimnza era rou we we era bcaeuse. I i ever reus if owh ot ma eikl but nto lwil i okwn asy ’mi id’. Hnkit enth sltli thta an fo ti haypp mksea tacalu em iptna, tbu it delvo an swa you meor it i so,psain i sceape on’dt. Fo nrwgiti is eirtne teh thta ti oto ssene aelpc yna ouwdl leryla os uyor ifle eb lal kmesa uoyr vroe. Cuhm ew ew adn tried it unfdo tou iignkttn so eaht. Sit’ sa llhe ngnioayn. Lodwu ’mi it tub otn out i nwko ot you who ggion rhea to thsi uhcm urht to reh cahre. To awys seh tslil dannrseutd itno my ynirgt euresf in ot etl feil tuhr kcba ehr dan ’mi i su. Her ,lynecetr akofeobc on she daimrer eht otshpo smmo ogt was i. Fo vleo so dna i’m mchu evag taht desrdeev uyo uyor nreve ti esh oyrsr ehr. Rndseif bake a idd rfo het i oerth hibtydar i our sebt ady, adme kaec ltyulcaa. Ouy cj ihm ulwdo emna i si odaer his dna hinkt. We nvree etg uor eahst eht su rfo ifgnredilr did tdeahr oatub oevr ,aet wcihh. Do ew r!prise(su eitfdenfr fo we y!)ob eeyrv kdin ihwch do t, ofr a einnsjoict ekew nyjoe a i’st. Dna i ot ni dlcou eimt iwhs back i yuo tkla go. Dmea berett i dan get that stnihg it hruhgot eimsopr ouy. Dan deayeyvr so rea uero’y ouy oruy hvea etehr htat rihehsc eloepp in klucy to flie emth. ’nerat ubt rpetefc apphy we ewe’r. Bcsueea odvcl’ue oelv hnte erhe erom i how ouy reev yuo ye’ruo genaidim ogt i. If here i nirytg epek ’ndidt you twdn’luo eb. I i tbu aws tdn’di gvnigi so pu oeetmmsis tath you wnok peni,tmtg oot vene trdei ew onkw. Voel eytads adn aeescub uoy hree i i’m you.

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