A letter from May 24th, 2020

Time Travelled — almost 6 years

Peaceful right?

Dear Me Are you scared? I know we thought it would never get better but does it? Do we stay with Aurora or do we meet someone new? Have you fulfilled our dreams yet? Are we still going to be a teacher? Have we gotten better? You're turning 19 today huh? Is it fun? Right now its 5:24 pm on may 24th 2020. I just turned 13 and I'm in love. Are we still friends with Frances, and Cadence, and Arissa and Bella? Have we gotten our first tattoo yet. Do you still write? Have we gotten better at writing and singing? Have we been in a play? Is it terrifying to grow up? Do we still think about our bio dad? Is mom doing okay? Say Hi to her for me! And Dad! I guess the kids too because when you read this they'll be 10 right? As i'm writing this their still four. And loud too. I'm scared I'm scared for mom I'm scared that the person I hope is the love of my life might leave me. How do I even know you're reading this? You might've died by now and whoever has this email is getting a horrible surprise. Do me a favor okay? Give yourself a hug. You made it through all of the ******** you had to deal with in your life and I'll be damned if ill let you throw away how incredible you are. Get your *** to the best school and show the world that your ready to rule it. I'm proud of you. It's okay if you still don't know who you are. Get your **** together and breath. You've lived this god**** long and you better appreciate it. Do you still paint? This letter is all over the **** place but its you so you know it would be. Did you ever take up knitting like you said you would? And I know I've mentioned her already in this letter but tell Aurora I said hi. I don't care if we're together or if we even spoken in months, just call her and say hi because no matter how you feel about her as your reading this, the you writing this is so in love with her. Take a moment and make something. Write someone a letter, bake something, just get up. Did you ever get over you're hatred of tea? I hope you did because I've heard some good stuff about it. It sucks that I don't know whats happening to you right now because I would write some questions better for you. Hey, do me another favor and stay alive. I love you

Epilogue

about 22 hours later

Y’know I was really nervous to open this letter. I know how bad we were back then and I was scared this would just send me spiraling back. I am...

Adrces. I fo my inhkt dna ryaydvee eb mi’ ilwl for a eiwlh lief i ecrasd. Sah we lal egnperrsis goln ecfstfe het rutsn otu metr do ualylcat. Erh adn ohtgthu vole ihtw ouy a uoy rroys lidev wuodl’ve ni elhyhat rvee hweer i’m eerw’ saw lwdro oughhtt? tno ,rauaor ohw. Od ayelrl gnogi a ma eb it i ot adn teerhca i a avhe nioassp fro ilslt. I alleyr uyrlt i tbre,et do tegotn iknth vwe’e. Oyu hogtthu ahd vleo ntihk i tub ti dnuof eedend swna’t atwh sthi oyu meti ’ewev yuo het. Hwo olppee het ohw fro aevh uoy yuo ear dnrfies lowdu olve for dan give you oyu wot dlowr atth. Tsill nad etim lalbe ncedace ot tdon’ dkteal i ro fca,rsen uyo rias,sa a()str bermerme yetlreunfq tub i slta aklt the. Sotp reve gvinol i emth htnki ol’uyl notd’. Tge a texpec ouy bborypla hauotghl otn uowld ew ylfanli one oatot,t idd. Nde animfrcet t’si louwd olev the a hwcih eoqtu nkwo i outhh,g uyo fmor pome. To idd ouy on evre rome tnhe stlli vloe osufc gtahhuol eiwrt we i etyrpo. Lseph adb teg neflgise ti het tuo. Nad itwh ignsngi deoimpvr h’eyter i yas owdlu were’ uatbo thbo vew’e isslkl gtsihn dna rou tlils nigrwti aoneaptssi. So pu i’ts eldvo y,apl and hucm joram end oru in did i now i ti atht a. Gvsei orwdl hte amek nwhe atrthee snsee lteuto sotdn’e an us for. Ysrac si up a oigwngr tlteil. Nede you fro lelw epytrt di’ to liek intcstrsnoiu tbu rlelay ot er’tesh what gonid weer’ lveeebi ayn otn do. Nda iwth otdn’ el’wl shi elsoc i in own itkhn eb he rvee yaw ew’er dad tno but ietsr. Saree jtus ehiwl ear obnr a nda saw tson’de ti memrbeer teh htta newh prtatinmo ewre to we flleailb opleep ina,p ikd tsi’ he. S’mmo tetong rseow. Aasywl ddi btu aws hatt evnre rhe althhe nkow ripvome arimtghne wrtos yoru i. Adn nvmiog itwh het joe to nthor ses’h nialroca oepscrs aazr cdrvgiion in of. Mi’ oryrs oyu weer ttha rrsyo too u,yo ruht how ear eerv nad ttha to young ot eantm loev rezlaie yuo im’ elppeo yoln eht. Raza i sikd btuao ,oodg aer the lghtoauh nowk lnyo. Aog nitsuj fmro sha fmro wsa dna layerl noe fwe a thta dvmoe asery our eeedocrvr on ehmo. To ngorw (laos shes’ sseh’ tslli gonig aalwys doul) esy with hgnsit be btu a z lot fo oru reh’tse grli bbay. Oknw i rwee who you acdres. Who rdak rnygethiev woh bad wnko tmei eth all mdeese tgo dan i tnhsig. Eakm smee shgitn ’im i tath i irntfryeig sels ltlis eoelpp wnok btu i sya sraecd loudw ehav. Iongg nad tlsil nhagce r’eew eilav tnmiyea not ot osno st’tah. Reeizal oyu i you tneh hntik orem ghinaer lridcnbiee i’m helps yas uwodl. I ywa htat a negib hree ym of, viel fiel atth rdpou ermrmebe neev fo uoy eendde ot ofr be me ot in oyu wdulo i awnt i dorup dwulo ihnkt but eb. Nda ew i idd oelv c”,olhos den up otn welih teh“ nrteesw rleayl sebt od gcell,eo in i’ts. Otaub ftsuf artsm cear hwen rae t’si ziaagnm cseubea our we erdgsa era eralyl we. Ubt to esru i am i’m sya nokw iekl fi ohw will i rvee i i’d nto. Tneh it taaulc aypph tbu ihknt of dlevo ’dtno i rmoe ti tisll uoy em npat,i atht aeskm ,inasspo wsa eespac na an it i. Eb fo that iwinrgt loduw eesns si apcle evro relaly lla oto ayn ilfe ti rtenei ouyr ekmas teh os oury. Dnfuo ehta os kitnngti and we it cmuh we redit uto. Annyogin as st’i llhe. It rhe much tbu m’i ont ogign uot rhcea ot ot woh rhtu hist to ulwod i hrea uoy konw. I hse lefi gytnri adn ’im noti ot ways furese su tel hurt rhe my akbc in ot ntduresadn lstli. On ,tlcneyer obkoeacf rhe i msmo ehs phsoto wsa otg eht mrraide. Lvoe ti rdsvdeee yuor os i’m ehr rorsy uyo agev hmuc nevre of hse nad that. I baek yd,a a i ckae did uro ofr amde nersfid lycultaa setb teh ydathibr oerth. Hsi cj mih neam ldowu dan uoy dreoa si tkhin i. Tge uoabt cwhhi fro nveer oerv fdrelirnig su erhdta we the ahets ruo did tea,. Iijtocnens (preus!sri od a od orf by!)o ew of a deftifner sit’ yjoen t, cwihh we eyvre nikd eekw. Ietm in shwi og to akcb i talk ouy i dan ulocd. Htat i it etebtr dan tge urhhotg ngshti maed you empiors. Thta oeeppl hirshce to uyor erthe you ear yu’reo evah mhte ifel nad ni yuclk so drvyaeey. Ew treepfc ’ewre tub re’nta hpyap. Ouy aiigedmn voel yuo ’reoyu i tenh i tog levodcu’ how hree uceabse emor eevr. Id’dtn uyo eepk if i tdwonlu’ eerh be gyntri. Atth i you in’tdd wnok tnpemgi,t eritd tub i aws stmimoees os pu vene oknw ew gniigv too. Nad oyu here aesbuec tdsyae i you mi’ velo.

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