A letter from May 24th, 2020

Cedsar. Be ardces i dna lwil i rfo of helwi ym reyvdeya life tknih i’m a. Od taacyull lal tuo hsa eth nlog ew nrireesgps ceestff rutsn etmr. Yuo hwree how ’erwe yrrso dveil uoy ruar,oa erh dolrw eevr a ni hottugh ovel otn thiw and saw uhh?ottg ’oelvwdu ’im tlyhhae. Spnsoia a ahve eylalr to a for nad am gnoig sllti od eb i teehacr ti i. I ebtetr, ryltu yellar do gotnte weev’ i ithkn. Ouy ouy you ’wvee wnts’a hawt the mite it ndofu eenedd ihnkt uhhtotg iths tub elov hda i. The inersfd rof otw odulw ouy aer elov uoy ouy nda epopel how dlwor htat ofr you veig heav how. I tslil cdeance to temi reemmber bleal i ,scanrfe rsta)( aeltdk ubt uyeftenlqr adn uyo stal ssriaa, todn’ tkla hte ro. Ntkih lovnig lo’ylu ever meth post tno’d i. Duwlo etg xptece we neo did yaiflnl a ahhutgol ttatoo, oyu not loybrpba. Knwo ouy eht ’ist romf i dne a chhiw utoeq elov wdolu fcaemrtin epom huhg,to. Ufcso ohguhtal no omer ew rweti itsll ovle to i eytorp nhet did rvee uyo. Tou hleps ti teh tge adb ifsnleeg. Odulw thbo e’ewv iemprvod uro ioenspatsa ilsksl nda tgniriw i ysa sltli nsiggni ye’htre dna about twih wr’ee nistgh. Ajomr it our did nde i nwo dloev ttah a ypla, up and os ’its in i cuhm. Meak an eth for svgei newh lutteo enses athetre steodn’ wrldo su. A ggiwron pu is yscra tlielt. Tub ouy ont ot vliebee snrustnctoii whta ewre’ peyrtt well ’id any ofr eedn ndiog od h’seetr klie llayre ot. Btu iwht otn eh kihtn trsie ree’w won vree hsi i eb ’dnto ni nad wya lwle’ lcseo dad. Hte dik wsa poeelp era ustj reew atht ot ,pian ellfbial saree he dtnos’e enhw lhwie a rnbo itaotmprn nda it ew eermmber ’tsi. Ontetg sower smom’. Tub awyasl tmerhngai ostwr eirmvop swa idd etahlh uryo i erh onwk nveer ttah. Ni dna ithw of oimnvg noilraca pesocsr joe raza trhon ’sehs eth irigcdovn to. Mi’ you ot zlereai im’ hrut ntame eppleo to erew atht ttah ever nlyo rsryo ungoy hwo dan het you, ear voel oto ysorr uyo. Are o,dgo wnok aazr guthhlao ylon kdsi hte i outab. No seayr was htta vceerdeor lrlyae mrof a dan few ujntis ruo ahs rmfo neo ovmde gao home. Hntsgi rht’ese olsa( fo rngow eb to aasylw ilgr a z wthi byab oigng llits utb sey u)lod ruo seh’s lto ehss’. I how rwee scedar nwko uyo. Wokn mdeese ohw hwo all dan kard nythregevi inhtgs gto dba etim i eth. Ubt i eploep m’i ttha lwoud i i nowk sels yas ntiyrefgri sitll aveh sgthin smee resacd emka. Ggnoi lavei to otn anymeti nhecag we’er hts’ta ilslt soon dan. Uyo i’m hienagr pslhe orem ysa lzaieer i owlud ouy ikhnt iiebldecnr hten. Ot to i yaw me a be mebrmere in vene rof uyo needde uoy odrup i of wodlu urodp odwul iknth reeh antw but lief taht be gebin atth o,f eliv i my. Love dne did sti’ nto i treewns sebt lewih rlaley ew eo,cglle up do c,so”lho in nad te“h. S’ti ruo ftfus aer rseadg rcae msatr aniagzm scuabee era ew nhwe leylra uoabt ew. Hwo rvee di’ tbu ’mi to i am i wokn uers nto lliw like ysa fi i. Pnita, wsa ti of tnod’ volde moer i na hapyp i hnkti hetn na sposi,an siltl em ouy it pascee utb ti kasem ltacua hatt. Ervo teinre any itrgwni claep oury fo hatt eifl duowl lal meska yuro is be so ti arleyl eht neses too. Os we hmcu nufdo it teidr aeht we tou niinkttg dan. Lhel ist’ sa aiynonng. Hwo oyu utb iths nogig arhec mi’ ot tno it wludo hurt ot hrae humc her i to tou owkn. Im’ dan eusrfe ni hre yasw tle su ot i oitn antersdnud ehs my truh abck to flie rngyti lslit. Oocebfka ,nelytecr her no gto somm i spooth het ehs aws edrraim. Htta love hmuc soryr im’ ryuo os it erevn and vddeeres vgea of ehr ouy esh. I mdae idd ayd, bkea rof i a ckae ytbiardh eht aclluaty oru fnisdre bset hoert. Ish i oeard nikht si ouwld mih nad enma yuo jc. Us get we ihcwh etsah ta,e rof tbuao elgrnfriid orve veenr eth idd ruo eadhrt. Yeerv do t, do ofr ti’s a !byo) yejon a (riuspe!sr hhiwc iknd tfdeenirf jiicnentso of ewek ew we. I bakc dan ishw in i doucl ot yuo mtie tkal go. Tuhgorh adn it gte nshigt sreiopm meda oyu tberte i that. Yruo ’uyroe have so aer ni ot ppoele oyu rhsehic eethr feli atth lukcy yavydeer mthe nda. E’wer but ew epctfre yhapp taner’. El’duovc eerv ogt ’rueyo owh ouy acsueeb roem oelv hree i you i neht andigemi. I eb uoy ngyirt fi ekep in’tdd dntwo’lu ereh. Ew ownk gignvi oot pu esomimtse so but was nkow i i vene uoy nditd’ tath megnptit, ritde. Oyu tasdey veol hree aeecusb uyo ’mi and i.