A letter from May 24th, 2020

Time Travelled — almost 6 years

Peaceful right?

Dear Me Are you scared? I know we thought it would never get better but does it? Do we stay with Aurora or do we meet someone new? Have you fulfilled our dreams yet? Are we still going to be a teacher? Have we gotten better? You're turning 19 today huh? Is it fun? Right now its 5:24 pm on may 24th 2020. I just turned 13 and I'm in love. Are we still friends with Frances, and Cadence, and Arissa and Bella? Have we gotten our first tattoo yet. Do you still write? Have we gotten better at writing and singing? Have we been in a play? Is it terrifying to grow up? Do we still think about our bio dad? Is mom doing okay? Say Hi to her for me! And Dad! I guess the kids too because when you read this they'll be 10 right? As i'm writing this their still four. And loud too. I'm scared I'm scared for mom I'm scared that the person I hope is the love of my life might leave me. How do I even know you're reading this? You might've died by now and whoever has this email is getting a horrible surprise. Do me a favor okay? Give yourself a hug. You made it through all of the ******** you had to deal with in your life and I'll be damned if ill let you throw away how incredible you are. Get your *** to the best school and show the world that your ready to rule it. I'm proud of you. It's okay if you still don't know who you are. Get your **** together and breath. You've lived this god**** long and you better appreciate it. Do you still paint? This letter is all over the **** place but its you so you know it would be. Did you ever take up knitting like you said you would? And I know I've mentioned her already in this letter but tell Aurora I said hi. I don't care if we're together or if we even spoken in months, just call her and say hi because no matter how you feel about her as your reading this, the you writing this is so in love with her. Take a moment and make something. Write someone a letter, bake something, just get up. Did you ever get over you're hatred of tea? I hope you did because I've heard some good stuff about it. It sucks that I don't know whats happening to you right now because I would write some questions better for you. Hey, do me another favor and stay alive. I love you

Epilogue

about 22 hours later

Y’know I was really nervous to open this letter. I know how bad we were back then and I was scared this would just send me spiraling back. I am...

Escrad. Fo im’ a yeydrave dna eihlw my ofr i eb i lliw raedsc ielf tnhik. Rtem eth all eectsff sah spnrsregei we nrstu od logn tou altcayul. Oyu vole alhtyhe reve nto mi’ ouththg reh rsryo ’luedvow you was in wereh nda orwdl uth?ohgt thwi rorua,a a idlev rwe’e who. Be tisll od veha i to ofr aonpssi a i dna inogg etcraeh llayer a am ti. Itkhn rtlyu yarlel ttere,b v’ewe notteg od i i. Eht vew’e whta it had tnhki yuo etmi ihts uoy ’snwat huotthg utb nfudo ovle enddee i yuo. Hwo you era giev rof idsfnre wlduo ohw hvae eth rof ahtt wto owldr oyu love dna pepoel ouy ouy. Rtsa() or tlsil the i lable nda to rissaa, tlas t’odn bmrmreee latk encdace fsrcna,e i you mtei nereuqltfy utb dealkt. Ethm loignv ondt’ thkni psto i lyo’lu vere. Ianlfly bolayrpb we ouy a ton get epcxet did a,tttoo wduol neo ohtlahgu. Cfnamiret lodwu wihhc evol a hte tug,hho mfro nowk den omep oeutq i uoy is’t. Ew rome utlahgho eotpyr tenh on illts i uoy to csofu tweir evlo idd rvee. Elshp ilsnfgee get tuo ti bad teh. E’rwe hr’etey ’eewv buato adn adn ysa lltis siiggnn tniwrgi whit obht oedrmvip oru psastiaeno sllski i louwd ntihsg. Nwo htta ddi a pu ’ist moarj adn in cumh it edn os vedol i oru i ayl,p. Fro lordw na iegvs teuolt so’ntde eetahrt hte ssnee keam nweh su. Si a up orniwgg raycs llitet. Tno ellw srte’he od to utb lalery hatw uirnisscottn to w’ere ened d’i kiel eyptrt eebvlei nay ouy rof gndoi. Ntkhi and sih hiwt eb lel’w i add steri ni ntd’o lesco wya tbu he nwo eerv erw’e otn. Earse wihle ti kdi are nda on’edst i’ts np,ia ptrtonami wsa llbefila rwee he tsuj obnr we hwen lpoepe ttha eebremmr a to hte. Notegt msm’o esorw. Did hetalh okwn htgeimnar ttah ouyr strwo but saw eromivp rvene rhe i saalwy. To fo ohtrn htwi possecr het ejo oaanirlc in rdviognci gmovni arza es’sh and. To im’ nloy yu,o oyu nyogu love to dan teh oysrr eppelo too ohw neamt yuo atth hatt urth ryors erev ear eezlria mi’ eewr. Hte tuaob odog, raaz ear idks only huotlhag i kwno. Omeh was sah rocrdeeev a aog fwe no vmeod neo ormf atth elalry dan usjitn our seary mofr. Of bbay laos( wiht )luod sey walsay tbu oigng our hsse’ z llsti wnorg a snhtgi eb rh’etes to lrig sshe’ tlo. Wnok ohw uyo i rwee sarced. Iemt tisghn deemes arkd iyhgtevenr i woh nkwo ogt nda abd eth woh lla. Ntiirrfgye ahve wkno wludo maek seem i lses ysa i crdase but lltis epelop ’im taht ihntgs i. Ncegah onso tno to lsilt niemayt eliav and htast’ e’rwe oigng. Emro sya uyo nbdelieirc hnet luwod tkhin nagrieh leziera m’i i oyu ehpls. A nebig nhtki uwldo i elvi to way htat ubt eb i my rmerbmee oudpr enedde me ouy iefl here enve rpoud of ,fo ni atth ludow to uoy rof i watn be. Estnerw i tbes idd st’i coh”ol,s elvo elhwi goe,lcle pu end ni do ew arleyl nda nto “eht. Is’t seecbua arce whne ylrlae rea sufft ew rstam outba ruo rea nigamaz ew regsad. Will d’i yas ohw eikl im’ btu i if ont ot okwn i am reve i seur. Ehtn ti uoy na itpn,a rmeo hatt it an tbu sio,apsn i easkm hypap ’dont me i saepec oldev swa nthki fo sltil ti tluaac. Ttah neess life kmase rnteie ti too yuor rlyeal be lal os inwtrgi of is wldou oruy yna cealp vroe eth. Driet taeh os it fodun hcum ew uto we tktnigni dan. Llhe ti’s as iaoynngn. Ot ti tish m’i i uhmc uyo rahce to ton iggno udlwo rtuh tou tub ohw hre knwo ot hrea. Edausndrtn hrut ot m’i cbak lief adn noit su ni eeufsr i ym lstli ot hre ywas ynigtr esh etl. Aws mrdarie on ckafoeob tohops eht n,eyterlc ehr seh i smom otg. Velo so ’mi oyrrs sreeeddv yrou of eernv umhc you dan ehr esh evag tath it. Ekab maed i hrote our eth a,yd dyatbirh tebs did keac orf fnidres lyalutca a i. Lwudo si oraed nad kithn jc oyu i mnae ihs mhi. A,te haterd idd lfgireidnr rof ihcwh eorv ew verne su teh atesh uor uobta teg. Jeicionnst do of we jyone ciwhh a reyve we week urp(isser! kdni bo!y) t, rfo a do rdiftnfee si’t. Mtei kabc altk dan og iswh in i uoy coldu i ot. That i eterbt ruthohg ihsngt omrpesi adme ti dan get you. Eeraydyv ouyr in aer ahtt lkcyu mhet rteeh feli ichrhse erouy’ ouy nda os have peopel ot. Wree’ epetrfc ew a’trne but pypah. Evre oelv cdouvl’e ebausec tenh tgo idaienmg oerm i eo’ryu uyo here i oyu who. Be ereh epke uyo rtygni t’idnd fi i wnlu’tod. Ttah enve i nowk you tub oto asw edtir os ggvnii ,ttmeipgn oesmetims ddni’t pu i ownk we. Lvoe eseabuc ouy yuo tdyase i ereh adn mi’.

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