A letter from May 22nd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hello. I’m not sure how to start this off... I guess with what the date is today? Well it’s May 21, 2020 by far the worst year. I’m 15 years old right now, but I’ll be turning 16 in November this year. I wanted to do this for a while now, and I guess now is a good time. Mom is currently working at Eagle Lake village, and Christy is working at Walgreens. She just got accepted into a online college, and is starting soon. Mom... isn’t doing so good as always. Her job is pretty much on the line because her bosses are ********. So we’ve spent the night stressed out and crying, or well I have. I don’t know about Christy. I never know how she handles these situations. Anyways, I’ve got many questions for you. First, how are you? You should be 21 years old now. I don’t even know if I’ll make it to that age, but if I do please tell me all about how it is. Does it get better? You know, life. I never had hope for my future, so I’m genuinely curious. I’m listening to ‘Love Me’ by The 1975 as I’m writing this. Has my music taste changed? My current top artists are Harry Styles, The 1975 and... that’s basically it. My music taste varies vastly and changes a lot, so I won’t be surprised if it’s the same. What are you doing? Like for a living. Right now, I’m interested in digital art and music. Are you doing something related to that? I sure hope so. Or maybe you’re working at a small company to save money. Oh, the song changed. ‘Somebody Else’ by The 1975. I’m crying while listening and writing this. Anyways, are you still living with mom? Or actually... is she you know, still alive? I really hope she is. If she isn’t, please know that it’ll be okay. You can make it perfectly fine with or without her. Mom would’ve wanted you to work hard and go far in life. How’s Boo and Rose? I hope Boo is doing okay, and kinda Rose too. But mostly Boo. Are you still talking to Frost and Dis? Have they found out about your real age? If you stopped talking to them, why? Where are you living right now? I sure hope you’re not living with Christy, I wouldn’t want to. Do you have any pets? Or plants? The plants I have now are Stanley, Bailey, Cheryl and Bertha. I wonder if you’re still a big plant nerd. Are you living in my dream house yet? Or at least working to it? Oh you know, living in a small one story house with a large front and back yard, with a few ducks, a lot of plants, and maybe a Irish wolfhound or a border collie? Something like that at least. Oh and it has to be somewhere in the woods or mountains. Mom got me liking living in the mountains. She always wanted to live in Alaska or pretty much anywhere with woods and snow. I sure hope she got what she wanted. Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend? Right now, I don’t know if I’m bi or straight. Or even asexual. I really don’t know. I’m probably straight, most likely just confused. Has the covid-19 quarantine ended? We’ve been stuck in our houses for around 3 months now? Something like that. Who’s the president now? Trump is the current president, the nasty Cheeto man. I hate him. Have you attempted again? The last time I tried was in May 2017, three years ago. **** it feels like it was yesterday. It’s insane isn’t it? I sure hope you’re doing okay. I don’t want my life to be miserable forever. Well, I’m really worried about mom. If she’s no longer with us, disregard this part but if she is please read. Please, please Jamie, take care of her. She needs it. Don’t make her work anymore. It’s time for you to take care of her, she’s done her share. And please be nice to her. She’s done so much for you and Christy, even if you don’t remember that all the time. Christy. How is she doing? Do you two still talk? I mean, we’re sisters so we should be talking frequently. I hope she’s living her life to the fullest. I know she wants to go into fashion design or something like that. Is she a model now? I hope she’s successful. I’m really worried about you. I’m not in school right now, I’m fact I really haven’t been in school since 2018. I’m sure that impacted my life greatly. We’re trying to get me back into school, but it’s a terrifying and long process. I haven’t asked mom yet but they were supposed to call her back or something. I really want to get my life back together. I regret how I spent the last 3 years. I hate it so much. I hate it. I just want to fix it. Please tell me you’re doing okay. Please. I don’t know how to end this and I’m sure I’m forgetting some things, but I’m tired. It’s 12:16 right now, listening to ‘Only’ by RY X. Sad song. I wonder what artists you’re listening to now, my music taste changes every year so. Uh, anyways. I should probably end this. I hope you’re doing okay, and just keep working forwards. You’ll be grateful in the future.