25TH BIRTHDAY REAFFIRMA-SHUNS.

Dear FutureMe, Hey *****. Your 19 year old self here. Gotta take a CHEM 11 exam in about 10 mins, online, quarantine sucks yah. So, you're effing 25. twenty. five. This is a big bad reminder from the universe to get your **** together. Do what YOU. NEED. WHAT YOU. WANT. Learn that instrument. Pick up sketching, or poetry. Practice self LOVE, not just tolerance. Watch ContraPoints on Youtube, she's a genius. Explore and go out more, and DO NOT live in fear of violence. Because let me tell you, you will sit still for the rest of your life. Reevaluate who you are rn. Do you like being around yourself, would you be your friend? What are your values? Are you true to them? GOD im so excited for you. Did you take on the peacecorps? Law school? An NGO? I'm not going to stress in this email, because it is pointless. Yeah you heard it from me. POINTLESSSSS. You, like thousands and millions of other 25 year olds (promise), might not have a clear direction yet. You might not have had a healthy, loving relationship. You might not be financially stable and you might be scared of the future. But kid, this is the future. And you.....did that. You made it here. Everything you have gone through.....you have gotten over. Watch some RuPaul because hes more inspiring than me rn. But seriously, happy birthday. You are a blessing and you have a divine purpose. Your life is valuable. Remember that you should love yourself so hard, that it would be impossible, unfathomable, useless, to let anyone in your life who loves you any less. So if you have been meaning to start that hobby, or get into running again, or start cooking balanced meals, or text that person you want, do it. Because believe me dude, you will regret more what you DIDN'T DO than the things you did that you cringe about. Because shame and regret and embarrassment are super LOW VIBRA-SHUNS ok and they are temporary. Joy and pride and fulfillment can and should supersede anxiousness in the moment, and stupid what-ifs that won't even happen. Think about the good things that could happen and how you could evolve to be a better version of you. Take up Future Self-Journaling from the Holistic Psychologist again! Please know that you can. And you legitimately get in life what you allow yourself to get, you are treated the way others see you as being able to be treated. Your life is YOURS, my life is MINE, and you are responsible for your own healing and empowerment. Let people in and don't be reactive. Be open to viewpoints outside your own but do not take anybody's ********. Happy Birthday Sarita. You deserve to party. it. up. I don't care. Freaking party. I have to go take my stupid chem test now, wish me luck! Jk chem will not matter in 6 years. AHHHHHHH LOVE YOURSELF.