A letter from May 12th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I write this to you as I am sitting in the garage of your hopefully further mother in law’s house. You, Matt, Zach, Nate and Andrew are all currently residing here, anxious awaiting our next chapter in September. Currently, you are in the covid-19 pandemic and it suuuuucks lol. However, it is not the beginning of isolation anymore and things are actually starting to reopen (slowly). Btw how’s the economy now? And how ****** up was the world after this all ended? How long did it take to get fully back to normal? I’m guesstimating a year. You did not respond very well to the outbreak and are still quite bitter about it. You are also learning a LOT about your mental health and how to cope with it and I must say, you’ve made some GREAT strides in the past month or so. And also gaining a bit of weight!! You are about 110lbs rn, but we’re still going ;). I hope this letter (email) finds you with all your desires becoming a reality. You keep asking Matt for a baby and he keeps declining lol no surprise there, we are only 22 and 24 however I always have this fear that you won’t make it to parenthood so, if you are finally a parent, congratulations momma!! (Lucky *****) I am predicting that Matt will purpose to you by the end of this year and that by the time you’re 24, you would’ve completed that desire. How was the wedding? Was it everything you had been dreaming of? Bc I know for **** sure I want an actual, big wedding. Not just some little ceremony with family, nah sis I hope you went ALL OUT! If you have kids (***** you’re 27 you BETTER), what do they look like? Who’s eyes do they have? Do they have Matt’s face, or yours mostly? God I can’t wait to meet our babies. I count down the days and remain hopeful that I am able to do so. For right now, I love the name Lyndyn (god that spells SO white) that Matt picked out so I hope you have that name for a girl if you have one...also Rose for the middle name bc you love Tara hahaha and for your baby boy (god I really hope you had a boy as your first) to be named Mason since you are the last of the Mason line. Also currently, Odom is almost two years old! He’ll probably be nearing old man-ness by now however I hope for nothing more than his great health. You love your baby dog so freaking much. I have to ask, how did he do with the first time meeting your baby? He loves babies, especially the ones that are family. Ada is currently almost one years old, god I can’t believe that whole year flew by just like that. She is your light and she recently took her first steps, to YOU. It felt amazing and I love her very much. On a more serious note, I pray to god you were able to reconnect with your little sisters. I know that battle really sucked and was hard but I know that right now, you’re just holding out for when they are released from their toxic father and you’re able to open their eyes to what really happened. I just fear they think I don’t love them but they’re always on my mind. There’s just so much I want to tell you and wishing I could have my 27 year old self speak back to me and guide me but I know that I have to do this on my own and experience life and learn as it should be. I’m not sure what occupation you have chosen or found yourself in but nonetheless, I am PROUD of you and all that you have accomplished. You are so bright and caring and will do great and amazing things. That I know for sure. I may write another one of these so don’t forget to check for another! Pleaaaase tell 29 (oh my ******* Jesus just realizing we’ll be almost THIRTY) that 22 year old hot amber says heeeeyyyy and that I love youuuuu. Don’t forget to keep going. Amber Mason P.s you cried like a BABY writing this hahaha Love you girl <3