A letter from May 16th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Happy birthday🥳🥳!! I hope I am having a great birthday. Well today is horrible like all the rest of the days because it’s quarantine. There is literally NOTHING to do. Well kinda. I wanted to paint today but sissy put the paints somewhere, which is really annoying but I have deal with it. You will be graduating this year which is exciting I guess. I mean like do you know what College you want to go to because I definitely don’t know what college I am “ officially“ wanting to go to, but I kinda want to go to Maryland college because there lacrosse team is BAM! Why am I so cringe? I hope that you are still doing sports and that social anxiety gets better. Today I was trying to learn on the piano Julia by Lauv because I was watching the Some Assembly Required which is a kids show but that’s not the point. I went onto Instagram to see the main characters insta because he was kinda cute but I saw it was made in 2015 which was like 5 years ago and he was like 17 when he was filming so yeah. Right now my Celeb crush’s are Finn Wolfhard and Jack Dylan Grazer. Like look at them they are hot and also adorable. That was after I watched It the remake. Wyatt Oleff and Jaeden Martell are cute to but I don’t like them as much as Finn and Jack. Also my fav show is stranger things and I am waiting for Season 4. I actually found this website on tiktok. I hope you last year of school is great. I hope you got invited to party’s that get you drunk. Now that I think about it maybe I won’t we alive but if I do see this I hope that everything is alright. I hope that my dad doesn’t come back. Other people would be like “I would like my dad to be in my life” but me, nope. I actually don’t want to see him because one it is awkward, Second he wouldn’t of cheated on my mom and I know that my mom kicked him out but like he could of tried to talk to me for about 4 years he didn’t talk to me after he left like REALLY! They he thinks he can just start talking to me out of the blue. I really wanted him to take the Boston job because I didn’t want him to be he every day in my life. I use to cry every time I thought or talked about him. I remember this one time in the middle of the 4 years he was ignoring me which I am pretty sure my mom told him to. Anyway I started crying when I was on the phone with him which was embarrassing because he asked what was wrong! Like he cared! He obviously didn’t and didn’t want to talk to me because he was tried ignoring me. Sorry for rambling. You already know this. I hope school is going great and you have a great social life. I know the social anxiety wasn’t that bad and wasn’t as bad as other people’s but I hope it gets better. If you remember this is the time I wouldn’t go to sleep because I just couldn’t. If I was forced to by my mom then it would take me a minute. I just wouldn’t sleep and I would try to have fun of course without getting caught. Changing subject, today I was trying to make the whipped coffee that everyone was talking about on tiktok but it ended really bad and I had to clean it up. I have really been spending more time with my mom because we have nothing better to do and before quarantine we were fighting every day which isn’t healthy for me or her but we worked it out. On the other hand I hope that I learn to skateboard. It’s just cool 😎. Hahahaha. I have been feeling bad like my stomach has been hurting a lot more, but it’s ok because it will go away. I hope that you don’t get with a jackass that hurts you. You probably aren’t emotionally stable for that, but I wouldn’t know that so. I hope you are having a great birthday and don’t do stupid stuff. Actually **** that, you only live one life. Live it and don’t be a wuss like me now. Also keep up with the memes. Well bye *****, Your futureself, 6th grade, Paypay the badass 😝