A letter from May 12th, 2020

Time Travelled — 12 months

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, are you happy now? do you wake up feeling like there is a reason for you to be awake and alive? have you found love in a person, a friend, family, are you in love? have you recovered from your eating disorders and is your anxiety any less? do you eat food and not question it? did you ever tell your parents that you're struggling? how's coryn and what happened with the boys? is chaos still healthy? is your mom and your relationship any better? when did corona stop controlling your life? hows high school, did you make freshman year memorable? how often do you smoke now? did you lose interest in school, did you lose your faith in your success? did somebody break your heart this year? are you over drake still? did you ever get to kiss jack or have you kissed somebody and really meant it? are you okay? i hope you love life. - mena :)

Epilogue

about 5 years later

hi mena. i am happy for the most part. i definitely wake up with purpose - i wouldn't say i 100% feel alive yet though. i have found lots of...

I thta odrwl i naht iulfagnnem iev si yahintng of shti emor dah lov,e ehnw a tfel ltetre erev nnigeeu orewt vloe adn orveidecds. Sa i wlle ,vole ni ma. Laets ti avhe ouy ahs rhewe owh em eardm i leov i t'ill ikel akem ta fonud ubt rpsneo gautth den wath be anc a cna u,p nad t'ond ohw kwon. Rneev shnigt ym tuabo ot thseon rtehyap add dan i rlayle b,e ddimatet i nad mmo btu cna vaeh anteiyx owh ma bnaeg dba. My rrgete also idd egeslnif otn w,lel d'tno me maek yeth ubt eyht hgnrsia accummineto. Is yrnco i no owh iaed nshytloe eavh. I oomsopreh aftre ew ni a 'otdn to ithkn onsekp vreen dan dlrinedek reh e'iv ra,sey otw dpfieirhns eyra,. Ohw htey pelpoe now i i ohw met what vene iths am knwo i i ttha ewnh wne dt'dni dna rea dfniede ertwo ertfa. Uot vicdo i revne rtaef iht i atth adn nguh ingaa it hte" (zcyar cdalle byso" na)oorc. Hety my sti unnfy oindteucn ie,lf othhug opp ni ohw ot up. Uyor fe,ca hwti eyth to eldnek twih etta het mtie nitagd my si utb ot now odaliezopg (tno no tnwe anho maot,rmeo nteatb as romp who cebla and orf byodfiner, onw nhasg ouy out ntew lla lts)li my eerttda. Wtore rmesum atth kmea tpsa ti teh itndd' ouy hsti sahco. I msis yeoranm gdso keil him, utb tills d'not i. Eht tsi i ,erasy eb mmo umch twah to sdeu ikle nad brmemree os ti ovemirdp vero ot ym rdha. Seh sjut sgugesrlt chmu ti ads ,nwo tub who me kemas. Wtan how ledom of dsa ehs to nerev ti me hatt si be kames i a. Ubt shcolo od ehansfrm not romf wsa vhae ogdo ighh arye me,rbolmae i iceatnylr ermeiosm. Gnitsh fisedl ngiylpa uot lilckelpab acr grhtuho nrnginu dna eu,omstak let,a. Ithw dan usnsste ubsrau in tkunr eht hte of resnidn gnia. Rdseiv eth no oeuspal. To eleipdr im htta eorons iswh of utb a nego ti own i sthi i l,ot ti ahd far aosl skecdu so rmof dna. Tnrsatgi tub ouhegn i mi nfuyn iagna eskmo nrdincsegoi dnot' at lal,. Dan ryorw i wya im vreo u,sainxo ,yaw sti btu - oofd lsitl tetber lislt. Ti no dttiacse genlor my ayds. Dan ddi that puodr tafhi uhtgfo a ni i em way kmesa tno my ughhotr hscool i ni sscuesc seol. I medeard i o,f whree sithgn ioaplsedcchm gtaer veha ogt ot i adn. Eth i ysa - to het eccioh lcudo i i sti steb btu ngiev tghir kewn tbu fo won nay ti asw wtha idd if radh. Rokbne yutnaelvel phpaen ilwhae, ehrat but did bonydos' in ti ym. Nokw taht ellf hitw isignks cajk, hsi ot oy'du in olve sbet eb fdroloe fo esidnta yuo eridnf but tsloulaybe. Wll,e nde t'nidd who lleray out st'aht nufny splya ubt it eilf. I i nca evnrwhee sski efbrnyiod trcunre my. Sh'e to thwa wslyaa ni i ofr em ohdep a uyg neeb. I mi' ndo't ubt on,w at gnubdiil lvoe i'm eewrh i lveo awth. .

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