Dear FutureMe,
are you happy now? do you wake up feeling like there is a reason for you to be awake and alive? have you found love in a person, a friend, family, are you in love? have you recovered from your eating disorders and is your anxiety any less? do you eat food and not question it? did you ever tell your parents that you're struggling? how's coryn and what happened with the boys? is chaos still healthy? is your mom and your relationship any better? when did corona stop controlling your life? hows high school, did you make freshman year memorable? how often do you smoke now? did you lose interest in school, did you lose your faith in your success? did somebody break your heart this year? are you over drake still? did you ever get to kiss jack or have you kissed somebody and really meant it? are you okay? i hope you love life. - mena :)
Epilogue
about 5 years later
hi mena. i am happy for the most part. i definitely wake up with purpose - i wouldn't say i 100% feel alive yet though. i have found lots of...
Trowe meor ltef i enignue ever rletet a lveo htingyan isht si edocerdvsi dah i ldrow voel, thta galnnmuife eiv fo ewhn adn anth. Ole,v i ma as ni llwe. Alets can nkwo dna i elov nac ta uoy a reweh aveh u,p t'lil dton' i eardm em hsa be but it ahtw sopnre ned mkea elki woh utgath owh fondu. Baegn cna i neerv dan mom and bda aveh dad nghits atxiyen buato am ayllre yhprate i ohw ym but hestno metdtaid ot ,eb. Ddi otn wlel, tyhe eyth grisnha ont'd osla reregt nfsgieel ubt my em eamk cenatmimouc. Noyrc i veah ohw sheynotl no si adei. Yra,e neerv ew otw ,ayres ive' ohooserpm a ifhsrpndie ni iknht ldkediern to npesko 'dotn adn trfea i hre. Ear nad i fddieen own htey woh int'dd etm nvee aeftr nehw terwo htaw i ma owh atth i pelepo i new wkno thsi. Taefr naaig evern e"ht tih dna cz(ray c)naroo odicv ti i i atht oys"b uot elldca ugnh. Lie,f ni nfuyn up hwo my ppo tdoneiunc ot hyet htgouh tis. As ym nad e,fac ruoy opeagdloiz taet on beattn ot si het tihw uto sanhg to eeldnk l)tsli hona etaertd nagdit nwo own who my you etwn prmo ofr twne cbeal ndbf,eyrio nt(o btu hyet lla twih momtao,er eitm. Uyo taht usmrme cohsa oewrt stpa d'ndit ti sith teh maek. Kiel ubt emroyan i ssmi imh, tills ndto' i dgos. It mchu oevr so hte mom wtha ahdr y,arse merberme ot dues i its ym ekil be to nad idrmveop. Owh das hes me it tbu kaesm usjt tgsuesgrl much now,. Moedl me of tath dsa it kaesm ot who si vrnee a wtna hse i be. Evah od socohl ubt year aemlme,orb intelrcay mofr i srfamhne gdoo msroeime ihhg was nto. Clbkapleil ishgnt ylgnaip iselfd tuhhrgo rac a,tel nda amt,ukose tou ugnnnri. Eht adn stneuss arbusu nsrdien fo ni hte rnukt niga wthi. On sopalue eht drisve. It ukceds roneso ti a i wno tub iths arf of oegn im whsi i os rdleepi htat ahd frmo oals ,tlo nad ot. I oisenidgrcn la,l oegunh isgtrnta at 'odtn smoke mi tbu nyunf aniag. Im n,uasiox tub tllis way rettbe i rorwy sit ofdo tlsli - eovr and y,aw. Sdya nloreg ti siattced my no. My a ni gtfuho hgotrhu i itfha uodrp em ssuescc i ayw ddi locosh aeksm ni that olse otn dan. Rehwe ot ghsint have mchpiecolasd i great i tog dan eaemddr i f,o. Teh hdar - hgirt nwo teh sti i stbe yas but fi i fo dlcuo asw it wekn yan to i did ecchoi ubt hwta evgni. Ubt yobsd'on lnuleyvaet ni npphae ym ,liwaeh it heatr ddi bkorne. Uyo eirnfd atsiden tsbe eb nokw lfel wtih in btu of u'ydo to hsi oevl kssngii telulaosyb ,kacj lfedoor that. Utb leryla who ,ewll edn unfyn 'taths ntdd'i out apsly it ielf. Can cneurrt ym ioydbnerf i sski eewnrevh i. Ygu ni 'ehs neeb heodp i awasly wtah rfo to a em. D'ton 'im i loev wno, hreew voel twah 'im i iuidlngb btu at. .
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