A letter from May 12th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Uhhh hi 👋🏻 It’s May 12 2020 You’re 18 about to be 19 and life is crazy. Covid-19 has taken away your senior year and everything along with it like prom and graduation... although you weren’t going to go to prom it still would have been nice to have the option to last minute change my mind.. this past year has been amazing though you got with your wonderful girlfriend in November and plan to stay together till you die.. your future is looking bright and hopeful although there are a few obstacles still to face. You’re about to enter into college this fall and it’s very scary I have no idea what I want to do or who I want to become all I know is I’m here for the ride.. you have big plans to finish your associates degree at grcc and move somewhere with your girlfriend and work towards your bachelors and maybe even your masters. A second obstacle that you still have yet to face is coming out to your parents and telling them about your girlfriend I hope it all works out when you finally grow the balls to actually do it. But if they don’t accept it I don’t need them it’s that easy I already don’t have the best relationship with my mom and my father is like a big brother anyways... I hope that you guys do get married on the beach maybe while you’re in Hawaii finishing out college...that would be ideal if I do say so myself.. I hope it’s on the beach like we talked about and I hope we have friends and everyone we care about their I hope it’s one of the best days of our lives. I can’t wait to start a family and have kids maybe three or four should be ideal? I’m not sure but all I know is I’m so ready for my life to start now I can’t focus on work or school I just want to be an actual full adult living how I want to and where I want to. I hope future me has that and is happy with where they’re currently at in life. If not change it please I don’t want you to be miserable you’ve been miserable for so long already. But if you are I’m so happy and proud of you I can’t believe how far you’ve made it you’re truly my role model, from not thinking you’re going to make it to your 18th birthday to accomplishing so many amazing things in your life. I’m so so thankful you decided not to take your own life thank you so much. This letter really is a mess I do admit I’ve had a few drinks, but some advice I want to give future me is to stop overthinking every little thing or action the only person your hurting by doing that is yourself. I hope you open up more and let loose you’re so uptight and reserved from everything that you need to just live in the moment. Be more confident please!!!! Love your body more treat her with the love and respect she deserves there’s absolutely nothing wrong with her and you need to start believing that hopefully you have others around you to remind you of that everyday. I hope I do get to read this again one day and share it with my beautiful girlfriend. God I got so lucky to get her like she’s mine?!?! It feels like a dream she’s so perfect and pretty and beautiful I get so nervous around her and shy because how on earth did someone like me get with her?! She’s god tier. Anyways I hope life has been treating you well and everything is turning out for the better. I love you and I’ll see you soon Love yourself.