A letter from May 11th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Let's start by saying that i'm proud of you, of us, i know mom and dad don't say it too often. but i'm proud of us i'm proud of the person we will become all our struggles and everything. the past, present, and future had and have lots in store for us but if youre reading this than it means we surrvived. The only reason i'm writing this is because i saw it on Tiktok and well im in my feels. anyway yeah let's get it! When you read this it should be our 21st birthday, happy birthday:) do you still hate our birthday? right now i do but i hope by then i won't. Today i am 15 and stuck inside because of coronavirus but you probably didn't forget any of that. online classes are really kicking my butt but oh well right? Did we achieve the goal of being the youngest billionare ever? I don't think so but it'd be great if we did either way i'm content. how did you spend this birthday? how many times did we cry? Well how are we at 21? are we still idiots? are we at least good looking? Right now we have a lot of goals, how many have we accomplished? Did we stick with business as our major? or did we actually switch to humanities? Also what college did we choose? did we choose u of u of usu? both are good. how about korea and korean are those still going or no more. I hope we can travel by then. what about volleyball right now i love it so much and i hope we made the team sophmore year. What about salem hills how was it going to school with the rich kids? ooo what about our music taste i need to know haha. 6 years ago you loved kpop and foreign music, haha anyway theres much more to say Right now there's not much going on i mean i'm stuck inside because of corona but i guess that's life. my last day of juniour high was March 13 2020 and not gonna lie i'm pretty sad about it I still really miss all the people. But i guess right now i'm just stuck in a place in between wanting to be cute but still edgy you feel. i guess in these months of qurantine has got me thinking a lot, like imagine if we went through with the unthinkable all those years ago, we were what literally 10 years old and we wanted to do a no more breathe like that's scary. we would've missed so much, as my 21 year old self are you proud of 10 year old me for pulling her **** together haha. it also put me into like this kinda self realization thing like we change too much bro. Right now i hope we are happy you know it's like right now as a 15 year old we aren't too happy eventhough we should like it's just hard to be like yeah we're doing great when in reality we aren't. my anxiety is through the roof right now but i hope it's better in the future. most importantly are you proud of what we've done in our 21 years of life. are we still just alive and not living? What about realationships? right now the only one we actually had was in 8th grade and that didn't last. but hey it's true when you truly love someone you can't just stop. have we finally had a girlfriend? ugh i hope so or at least one actual partner. Remember to never settle for anything less than you deserve. we deserve real love and someone who respects us and understands our emotional baggage and doesn't try to fix it but understands that some things will always scare us like arguments and loud noises. you deserve real love and happiness i just really want to emphasize that. also remember a love life isn't everything if were single and happy then thats good but if not that's also good What about parties? i love parties and dancing right now but i also understand if you don't like to dance but i hope we do. remember don't go overboard on the beer and drugs. how were they btw the special stuff that we always think about, you'll know what i mean, a hint because i know that we still won't get it, its starts with S and the other one starts with D. you should know by now. was it good? hehe what about college are we doing fine? i hope so you'll probably be like god why did i write so much. hehe i didn't but okay How we doing in the friends department? right now your best friend is adrie and really the only other close friend you have is chris. are we still friends with them i hope so you loved them so much. Lastly, we both know what we're capable of and we still strive to be better and that's good and all but remember to take a break once in a while. We are loving we are strong we are capable, kind, compassionite and we should stive to be the best version of ourselves even if right now we are not it we will get there. you and i both know we have a good heart and we work hard, we will reach our goals sooner or later. No matter what we go through no matter if life gets so hard we don't want to move we'll get through it. Remember we still want to change the world for the better. no matter what storm we go through, we have to remember that for there to be light there had to be dark first. and we have to remind ourselves that we will be okay through it all. It will get better and we'll be okay. because the truth is it does get better and we will be okay. :) can you imagine, future Isis Carolina Perez Hueramo, if your 15 year old self was capable of startin to love herself than you better still have it an be full of self love, confidence, esteem. but if you don't than thats okay we'll get there some day. I hope that by now you won't settle for anything that might hurt you in the end and that you will continue to value your self worth, and continue to love yourself because remember Namjoon would be proud either way. just like he said i hope you come to love yourself for who you are who you were and who you will become, and i hope you will understand it's worth living no matter what. so go, go and take that chance and be unapoligetically you. live for yourself and yourself only make you past, present, and future selfs proud. and don't forget to forgive people also don't hold grudges that's not good for our health. So, nina, it's your 21st birthday today, live it, be happy, be free, be strong, and be loving, love so hard because we don't know when and how things will happen, be caring, be fearless, be compassionite, be selfless. Do something good today for others and not for yourself. from your 15 year old self i truly love you and i hope you stayed true to yourself and accomplish so much even if it's small because ulitimately our world will get better. And i hope you do things that make you happy and not for other's happiness. their happiness doesn't depend on you. I hope you do things that will make your younger self proud. I hope this letter makes you smile and not cry but we both know we're gonna cry. Anyway i hope you right another letter for when we're 26 cuz you know gotta keep a pattern of 5 years. you better keep writing more letters every 5 years. anywho, with so much love you 5 years in the past PS i'd love it if we made it you know like the 1975 song. also listen to run by bts again, and remember how much mikrokosmos meant to us. and remember that bts made us who we are and you love them so much. spring day is good one too basically i want future me to listen to bts's entire discography to remember how much we love them. and you'll see that they will always be a part of us no matter how old we get. i got you and you got me. i love you because you are me and i am you we'll get there i pinky promise you