A letter from May 7th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Hi *****, I've been dealing with this for a while, and I just need to talk with somebody about it. I think that I may be Lesbian or Bi. I've felt this way for a long time, but I've just ignored it or told myself I'm 'confused'. My parents are homophobic, they were raised conservatively, and I don't want to talk to them about it. They don't know yet. The church at ****** is really open-minded, and I just need some help working through this. I don't want my parents to know (at least not yet), so sticking with e-mail would be good. Thank you for being there, ***** That's the letter we just sent to our pastor. If not now, when? Sure, it's Coronavirus. Sure, I'm quarantined in with my homophobic parents. Sure, I have absolutely nowhere to go and no resources to speak of. Sure, I'm currently sitting in a closet (really) crying. Sure, I'm mentally probably not ready for this. But, if not now, when? Wherever you are, good luck. And I love you. And so. does. God. -You a year ago

Epilogue

2 days later

Hi dearie,

Well, it's a been a year, that's for sure. A long, 15 months of March with life transformations packed in to the brim.

I suppose you'll...

Eatpdu tnaw na. . . Dndeei, be to reeuq, csficpie epaxaunls ,am i. 5 to wle,l ybnnionra uefigr 4 adn tuo ogthuh as nshmto hatt okot ethrano or. A have auatcl ewn nwe rtsfi ttah nad a egvi no,w grende eht amen islegtn i mdnnreeubeuc surpoonn o,ne rf,she me ofr dan hrepuoai miet.
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Asw semurm het. . . Ln,og too het lfal nad wsa. Dan eht nthe ot emti my thiw nad i,trenw elvi rtnreu ot serpant ofr eamc. . . 'tdind i. T,ehm ethm of nda ceam a ctinarf nasoctnt irhte htne den ilfe,re aincp nda i uot week on ltef lalsc mfro a of ruhs ot. Fuelrsa me ot adn desitginrdnusman depe tcxepe nda dep,e. Udonf semmreb i wthi omes mlafiy ifctnaufgos eadsnti ot id'ndt myp,cnao iterh adn mnotsh ethr,e rrenut hwit ot o,s tkusc evil spedn. Vlloey nda i'st bnee.
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Heva yam acegnhd oot, lyrsceet evah you xeecedpt sa rohte gsinht. Ym sntciarih do mi' is (thghuo i fro artp setrfof swa o'gsd in nto fo a ot a craeeppiat mind), hwta rouy nsterap oymrane stihicnra ihcwh wetes eekp etdarsh eolv ym. Enev( ofrm im' ohw ot rdetegnsa hsetfid, i ewhn yna nad evha isltl b,e nto ahve ni dinf tahn rhgoytluoh se,lymf i adn e,pdevlode yp)pha nyam thta htaw prpaeih i tnhgis duse hwiel aecs, adn erev eebn.
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Rof wysa hlfopeu ni smoe ut,ufer m'i eth. Dan saol a eth nad pohe metpisiciss eth sonuxia lnptea fo bauto as ohewl. Sgnerfi ,sreocds ?grthi.
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Netapceacc, kcba ot uyo, daer oelv, geisndn anvldiioat my nda.

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