A letter from May 2nd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hi, how are you? Is everything alright? I just want to check in from younger me. 15 year old me specifically, at 1:02am, May 2nd 2020. I have questions for not only you but the future, that's if it still exists and we are alive... But I'm very lazy right now and tired too. I don't think we'd make it this far to be honest, unless we are dead. I hope you are well. Just wanted to tell you to not be depressed anymore, and be happy even when it's hard, because there are other things to think about. Put people in your life that make you happy, do things that make you happy, do what you love because it makes you happy. Please don't continue having low self-esteem and low confidence, it won't change anything unless you change it yourself. Are you motivated? If not, do something, it's better than nothing. Are you procrastinating? If so, stop. Are you eating? I hope so and healthily too, cause 15 me is not, I do be starving. Are you happy? Please be - I don't want to go down the same path again. Stop being sad. Breathe, that's all you need to do for yourself, no one else. Are you stressed? Take a break every so often and have a nap. Just breathe. Important, do you at least have some money on you? If you still haven't invested in trade or stock market, I'm telling you to do so now. And don't buy crap, you don't need. (Also for anyone who reads this, you should do it too, if you aren't doing so. And I want to ask "How are you? Is everything alright or okay? Don't lie. You are doing well, go at your own pace, don't force yourself.") Do what is more important for your health. Mentally and physically, don't pressurise yourself for others and become a bottle full of negative emotions that will explode at some point. Have some water in your own cup even if it's a little bit, do not put it in someone else's cup recklessly for their happiness, you need it too. All you need to remember about past me is that, I'm not happy, I'm depressed, stressed, insecure, tired, exhausted and maybe forever 15 but at least writing to my future gives me a little hope. I still question everyday "Should I do it?" Don't say anymore future me. I'll talk soon. Goodbye. - 1:36am, May 2nd 2020