A letter from April 17th, 2020

Yet ,pu itb ioppacinlat hwhic rscospe raey has eth leleg,co htagholu bene hsa fo to nigamk eht tilsl nsgpeisdre onoymce boj a scoend pcik. .
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Ielnts naal to tlsil nt'do entfo we e'hss sa ery eydfielnti ubt yaoemnr, a tveafroi edl. Ehlandd b,e to a i nda hirtevygen dmeaza hwo am ans is lcpae omncieod adhr ta you. Mfro heost ni llist nugidr ,ohnset erhtayp igenrerovc i enhppade to to yesra uyo whta eb ma. Udalt hdic,l an pu a sa ieuvsvrd the an sret ew rueoosnm nad as iwll ikcp i mtouan. Doign gin!eima uoy —o'rrrondhot 22 ouy teh fo 'weer erve ,onw ee'rw ttebre yrwo,r ilsziuaev eosirpsxne yrou nca toamls awy, nca nac i einmgia by ntah. .
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Crfyqunee dan hte htta gae to panerst staer ,wno uyro ofmr by to ebnweet netsytini esud nowr dtteels gone nodw erdisobaun ouy ebnctlueur 'sti rsten ribng rea miylna. Fo vahe mseo you berlsomp this eeabscu tmnicyai tiwh. .
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Oevl eon etste,rl lepepo eforf oyu in rowte: to tlegne ehset eth uryo fo yeolfr,su wiht be" dan ouy thta ,voel. Nto evnreyoe ont btu nidk enam is orveeney si. Tlisl cniouigntn " hwta rccaeipt ,dluat with gtaer am ealufrc i ot a romf as be rhat,e uyo an rityng ym. Nokw din,k w,aht tmso are awy, to yb hhtog?u yuo epolpe dsdo hte dnfi taiagns oecm lal o,tu. Dgoo a d,wrlo nhigt utboa the elzaeir snti' ot ti?.
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3 tapneiihlosr ogt and ta eskew mstre in nedde rtisf of toni our 2,2 it ew ol,ve hnwiit. *** to of ,now no eno eth ouy reurisps aer. Inshgt het 'oeyuv idas ,odg. . . I htats i besopm,lr orymem naaya tt,hreae tknih uoyd' me to mebremer duwol i estcal reembrme vhae teh ont dan igsikns ni mogtnehis tamlso eovmi owlsh vonigm od yerlla. Wldou rtethea" chrhuc to eht lnoy ew dha imeo"v dwulo ******* btoelasu eht nigdur a eb yb awy, h,etrtae uyor otn oc,lhso cssace fo aoidrgnb yuo be ti nuaatneriq the rdteeegnea emovi. Sihtcr sjsue. .
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I peke uabto kihigtnn oyu. Eisx,net aaany nlipegh ni teh in nygil nwo hiwt huccrh snpiiholater ch,otu itnhg ta gcnadin in lola mnea her edb ni chsool dan eniegthvry a hwit si'as tbu trhe,aeb. Uor we wno, 'selfi it nfnuy fro ais, ro osudnfec sutj eadnrutsdn tsi'n hclei,c iflesgen ot a,srcy sit' or or wree aa,nay a wsa vnree erupessdps oall, otuab awtn t?i. Darerh cemebo we nwke acreh rewe ofmr wdolu cuabsee aietncr taht etg upgosr *,** ilfe we fo vene meor dluow ausbeec out ecccanetpa. .
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Ewe'v nrdetu edcbkol u,ot emewseorh i hknit sith ieet—sl or yhw aws einanottt i asudtdnnre uro rriginfeyt. Revey het gfneriy,irt sidrenf fe,ndeid a weer it snsee nepho alcios gtniyr eocds,n inkwag frg,iyinert lived a you ittacirs oyru eytgi,rrfni dlorw caeesp in asw asw cet,edapc eht eerw nad yhw srpanet on ruoy uoy niot mnros mskea tg,efinirry pendamci uory eehwr aws eeruq erwe eewr slgri vleo ouatip ensueesqr ot eodvl. Hghutloa fthai oun,wd a,yw rwe'e veah teh tha,t het in of a never ,aawy prta is ti i do by tlsli tnwe ahbit gnodi oru uueftr eedper. Atr oru mnadses ts'i treebt, dmae iths. .
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Acliso :ilfe.
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Ddi the i reheit nocsde the the wya, yuo clge?ole reya by nsed owkn fo rscdwo atefr fo coecpnt tdi'nd olco. Rgeat now in vlnoevid of rvlesea ethm ro rast ew of osmt upsogr the ni ,lepeop gahn qreue. Vhea n+a(hsa)n dmo dema ivvani taht udortiocpn od and efw frnedsi ow,n gdneis we a,yw a nad. Etafhr dyeap vsianvi yb igg swa oruy 06$0 btsgeig. Oiwnjn ncmmoyitu mki lsoa ayiij an p:eelop of kley, dgisen ougrhbt amzigna ,nugyo oresofrps. Tod uryo yo horubtg lpae lbue ntea uoy eihdrtem reions ropjtce nda sihanwm. Enve wtne dna rdnoua deam gndelna bdraao to we ,mtnohs eeynjod ni otw asondt,lc ytusd bngei 27 we dan,ilce we vingiist risendf in uer,poe. Msmeioer uyveo' 020 egaps adn poodkcrbsea pu fo. Oyru ucqlyki oveitraf eno ldacine ioncesrut bcmeae of. Css,iae :sgwa iulndec epolpe ehotr nyiams h,ahnan ng,co. .
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Eben has ,nwo seaercrh ufn higrt. But oru sha rou bal ihtw inkai we yoj ngge, aamay,kl no and stihes eenb ognmoli us, love frsepoors. Eenv cat. .
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Ni eht rfo oals tehre ldiev mezt ym tiwh dan reiytent of zgaimna ratgonnil lecleog aen,ali rslig t—np,imsetinbaart ve'we a,cerre. Rstteda wno al ,oto tmez naliea e'yhret dna nigatd trafe ni ehliw a. Hleath, twhi rhe amilfy saretsm nmelta nad to adn erh go gsola ofr to mzet meoh lerveatea-u aoslhitnepri raogmpr qiut ehr hre rtfuue cabk. L'sei na aiyitfcl raiatmsentvidi kigrnow erac kabc ofr an omh,e atnasssit sa yee. Had it napnga,tedrr aecr sah ehr me gae utbao sutj kaitng hse's hnikt of nbee her htrgnoedmar dan sdpsea w,yaa eadm. .
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Uyo sarb tinbi hotb and acot,s of a tcarno a yuo hwit nidpnseg of ni uamlioncut snfdrei celso sday eamd pougr lbu,sc adn rae rthgohu ,tmsaciiv. Dnso,y aha,rv)rd bla rheacrse krow el,anesg bbroy ni lfte cnteyerl ,rieac (hwo a sairrm ni ,iexal ot. Einnlo tnabrvi nda epeplo a onrcihlycal tbi ,smrta fo uogpr etdeh,ar uerp. .
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My crsoeu, i fdsneri epke of vddiuianli. Aemrsd waleth no swhoe evenr esdntaitmii dna tpu but ahs pedtorsup ryuo acn owh tlnslleesyre uyo oc,oc feingr a ,lzaszde. .
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Hatt ev'ew ailengsp ,hgtin fo deinshgd yutoh ne,tedsrmnci in our ignvha ee'wv mfor fof iefl wysa, os stih and our gnetto syrctiac enetccpaca dgoo aecm lepope htat csaloi at tstaerd. Easrd nda gngtite it hwta ibgne eremnmgberi owh ynipga onw no tsju orve uro fseel t,eserf pe,snter eadrly ewre' to i in epicr be,arkhreta pyareht the no zinmiemi eujgdsme,nt tutsr rou ealnvloe—r hsn,git lilw nthteu,aci eirglnan ma. .
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Aernotlt abitiomn ym uor lief am ,ywas sehte orf ohw tub inagmaz ihrtg on eth ntiocuer mthe onw, lla gafulter oisalc ,asmtr i,s so siieurqtc ecna,itpgc nad oklo adn fo aer of i i but veah hyte ep,pole at etsat. Eno ahev, ubt gthuhot dgoo not owthr tsi' ot a gngatvisntiie. I sneidrf oubat nevre wudlo i hhtguto syea,il thta lsmyef eakm i asy. ,elcolge udoarn nofogit tuo dol the ym ym laeighn licnaoenvounnt ymlesf it dnngiif itugptn dnuosw, tere,h csgilanzoii ltils gpunrusi gyref,tisii—rn itsretn,se em smylfe —nswdaa in eultrcu ot. And ued fo to esrep who ntremso ti hte fof, ndneisks epday lkoo tub. I'm poudr de,lmhub and lleyar,. 'ist otonemi a enrsgat. I lilw you angi ureibosdan nm,ymucoti ,me avhe oruy eetrtb o,iogfnt eevn od on tes ndif hnat dtubo. Nca oen cool abeym yad we eb ,hlle. Of atth oocl rlaley etesstl nkid the cool,. Ti i drawrfo ot kool. .
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Runoon dan ohutc peke i,aanlj ni day i ,hhsaa oue,rsc twih ns,oe ym fo. .
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Gretseta ahe?motnccmspil.
Selyt lief am ileikn— enniuylge end,fir isropanlety i a oodg i ,buiasiomt by cribk and ehva i dan itsh i and r,tohs built i ahtt owkr i a am brkci r,dha. Ether vw'ee rotess,p oen tlasom tinltenryloania het ecogell geee,rd ned our we're of to esdtrneep. We tisrvneuyi a !)( ot nda oint yps ieppnpdeer tog ticmmodte dna mcabliuo. A e,yh( can be otcr)d!o d you. Oouctdprin niodg iwhygahs ievdr nad ro( to,) colo we rae ,okwr nca egnids tignyr won igiecexrns we. T,ou no a ceam ho, ,lgir dcrea ew dna dedat one. Ts,mndie ursdetop am hte i of evehorw ym htink i. Ca,lk okrw cleap epstcre dan a emca morf orfm erweh rngole no lypuer won nad i of i i smlefy. .
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?rgdsae.
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Akyo, fo era rdegas retdgaua uoy eerht meor in dawars ,esdagr tohse esrmt fo uoy no as ientgtg ye,onmar yu'roe one dnigo rea. Rof i eht hcyygosplo grhit rc,hserae was si na tkhin do ,deisicon oaydt a ew ti pshd a who llew lf,heuasm clniiacl sa i gonid is eary xaert tbu ot ,aems koto it ******* etm hte byo. .
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Igtrh ggisteb promlbe no?w eht.
Raoruincvso cmnoyeo tganik tanmsimigr be si eimrcs tsmo rumtp edlsaogni left ot tse:la ai ot war rveo, nad ni otrdniegp s,bmshale eelsvar hte bmolsrpe teh mfro msese. Evlrsae gdoscenie teh ldwor ni sr'hete gpepannih. Fro dfraai dan aifadr i s,egnid oimtmc ,bjo ot icfcisaer dema ot ot teh vegi ypse,larnlo ilnlciac up and rowk am dan sgyhcoyolp chin umnteomm nidf tiestrne ot of a rfdiaa i. Ac,r i lla nad adn a a h,tis enmyo i to'nd aehv i heav glreirindf 'ntod evha nd'to. .
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Coho:ls wichh.
!vdsia.
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Rea pahpy? we.
Rsesdst,e eys adn gwrikon btu a ibt t,i no. Atcllyu,a on. In raef i ivle. A?m in ans leba hypap woh wnhe m'i 'tacn saw yas aems i wa:rsne yas acn i nad hte hiwt edmcni,oo i was happy i i rhee i bcjoitvyeel was won o,mer as as to be.
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Tynahnig sob?j eo/cleturueflg on.
Itoequsn igb eth si htsi. .
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Deam?rs.
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I,yct oloc erlvos oolc how i ni anwt nad yb sidfnre cloo tpoaisonucc kidn ievl evha yb eppeol deoadr a uorudnedrs ao,rlms nda ot. Edsing tnaalylaic to i nwat use nda my pltntioae. Avhe gotnih,esm ot delhpbius i lasml awtn. Of ot be ritenac ym ouprd and i ********* atwn. A hsti sloec to to aretdguh ogod be adn ,dad ym him ni i istcnoa ihm atetr smeahvneceti to be adn and aasylw om,m dna temh onohr and lelw nawt. To want itencndof i elfe. Make ot a ot **** not fo i iwgbnlodmin- 0(1k0 si me onemy wtna )rn. To i want be pdeenntdeni. Nda iubtlaufe ratms be i to antw. Dan i to natw csreepedt etalvnre be oulfewpr and. Utsj desisre tsnheo my ,hey htwi benig. .
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The saw i tauped oeivgfr ihts 16, epoh a dawtne veig i my os htta too ihtnk tusj and puesertonit, meor tausst ot neohst tniwirg eritrw at adn deam e,ttbre ltssbeunn sa'wtn i a. Fo i what ot aemc we mddreae i hsti sreadm aawlsy meso ifel urt,e hoep of my pu e'evw dna pohe dubli. Fo in a feel my lwil dweir i os of so 'sit l,gefeni be opudr i y,uo csteh i am duorp ,uoy ti. Haed odgo v'eyou enver oeyu'v vreen yttrpe p,u no ,dttsele ryuo otg osdhreul a uoe'vy adn gvae. Ouy eht ifdn rfo 'mi olev kloigon i hoep. .
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Age 22 ,saellt.