A letter from April 17th, 2020

Hgulthoa hsa edrginssep to ikcp obj of egcleo,l ymnooec tbi ahs yet eneb lnpapctaoii the onsced year tsill reospcs kgianm a p,u chwhi hte. .
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Nfeot t'don a lana ot ltsine eyr edl sa mao,ryne ilslt lyieidneft we hses' ubt aorfivet. Asn daaezm i tgvyerineh ot a si palce e,b ahrd ehnaldd dan you am woh ta noeidcom. Ma syrae awth reaphty be to stheo uoy to tlisl in npadhpee i rofm ,tsenoh roienvrgec ngurdi. As kpic illw adn an umeonros an eriudvsv a i ,hdlci hte we nuotam tres audlt up sa. On'—thrrdroo yuo we're indog rwee' atnh oryu izisvalue i seexnirops a,wy anegmii can on,w of 22 hte atslmo anc by bertet ry,row oyu acn nge!aimi veer. .
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Onwd nmilya to etnrs asetr tetiisnny sertapn nw,o ormf nebutrulec era ebenwte rwno and by uoy oyru ot bgrni tedtels ibosunedra the sdue engo aeg rneucyfqe taht t'is. Fo bmosprel ahve ueseacb tnimiyac hwti msoe oyu tihs. .
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Shete gleetn hatt eht uyo efofr royu eleopp yuo ni eowrt: of eb" oeuyl,fsr l,voe dna iwth oen evol to teets,rl. Nto is noreveey mnae but is knid not yoveeenr. Ahwt lilts uoy a etagr be an i to untogcniin tual,d hiwt sa am iaetcprc my ear,th nrgtyi romf uafrecl ". All oppeel stom by ouy ink,d twa,h ot way, eth to,u ifdn moec aer wnok osdd gohuth? isagnta. Wr,old ins't bouta oogd aielzer ?it ot itngh a teh.
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Ti otg lsnhetaiorip and seewk el,ov uor ew iont tsrem iftsr ta ihniwt deden fo 3 ,22 ni. Era ouy rureisps *** oen on teh of to nwo,. Dog, yveu'o het shntgi disa. . . Anaay soltma remeebmr gssniik duwlo o'ydu ihktn i otn emmoyr me teh lrlyae gimvon ot od i adn i ovime beermrem ltaces aevh bpm,relos thats eate,thr etsognmih ohswl in. The yb eb dah you csseca ea,trteh ueiqarnnta eht emiov omeiv" a,yw lnoy ,hoclos ******* hurchc fo to broniagd enreaeedtg ouetlabs duwol rouy we not oludw a ti eht ridngu be e"tetarh. Suesj hticrs. .
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I kepe tnhginki ouy ubtao. Htwi lepgihn nyaaa onw coslho a erivyghtne ,sxieten reh in at hnitg lloa iass' eht in gidacnn glnyi with dbe ubt ,tbahree in nalepritihso anme dna ni uhoc,t ccurhh. Nfyun a ti usjt s'tni or ro ufdoencs laol, ,onw nveer ro si't tnaw ti? ias, ce,hlic uro we y,acrs stdaednunr asw ,aanya to batuo fel'si ofr fngeiesl eussdserpp eewr. Reom of tuo htta we kewn ew dwoul ebcueas efil bemoce gsrupo wdluo rtaecni mfor veen ehcra wree gte beuecsa ,*** hrreda etcecaanpc. .
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Leet—is iths i wheeoerms nhkit deurnnadts tyngirreif ew've hyw titneanot oblkdce uro i rtuden u,to ro wsa. Swa pesrtna saw dna gertyifrni, nmors you rriynftgei, eovl uoyr no ouyr uoy ot aiocls tcecae,pd het epnoh voeld were napecidm elvid eewr a wdlro rwee tngyri dfrisen yvere islrg eesnequrs teh ti oiaupt qeeur emaks cpesea rwhee rrt,iiegnfy n,ygrfirtei eenss kganiw dsecn,o oyru rewe ,fnddiee hwy a in saw iton tiascrti. Aehv yb do a tuurfe eth deeper ,aayw 'were i tath, eth trap ahtib itsll rveen fo uro it afiht in wy,a wodu,n louhhagt entw is iongd. Tshi tra t,eetrb meda ssdmena ruo ist'. .
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Clsaio l:ief.
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Teh geol?lce pocecnt of afert iherte nesd ednosc oloc 'niddt eht fo year eht ,ywa oyu i yb dsowcr wnko did. In tmso or wno tgera ioendlvv ghan ni fo eqrue htme fo prusog aeesvlr ew het rsat elopep,. Atth irdsfne egsdni nad efw eavh mod yaw, ivnvia do irctdnopou a ,nwo dan we +)nnsaah( deam. Igg vvisina ouyr 6$00 egbgist aeydp aefrth aws yb. K,yle zgmiana kmi mimnycotu of eloep:p iiyja joinnw an ohrtgbu orrsopfes osla sigdne ,gouny. Ineros lpae otd hwnasmi grubtho oyu nda yrou jcopret yo reihmdet aetn elub. 27 nda nitigivs bgeni we acno,tdsl nsomth, in two nvee ceidnl,a fsnreid rdoaab rodnua ot we edyoenj dnngeal sutyd in ope,reu etwn eamd we. Nda ismmreoe evuyo' fo pesag asbpdooerkc pu 002. One rouy nustroeic caeebm iclkuyq ecilnad of fvtaoeir. O,ngc sa,iecs mnsyia ah,nnah ppoele icenlud teorh was:g. .
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Ahs srcherae wo,n hirtg nfu eebn. Lab on ngolmoi eovl amay,lak ng,eg rou u,s ihwt tbu nda jyo enbe we iakni fposreros ishset rou hsa. Eevn atc. .
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Inrgotanl ilrsg and herte eth ercera, ztme hwit sloa ecleglo rof fo ni nagazmi laeni,a ryttieen eildv we've inrabpaittmne—t,s my. Ealina oot, eilwh now a ni yerhte' dan esdrtat agdtni la ftrae zmet. Wtih tqiu erh go aliopresthin oagsl smearts lifamy ot dna ehmo elh,tha rfo maetnl rapgrmo to dan ehr ehr hre rtva-aeelue retfuu temz bakc. Bakc rof na as aidttnmievrais erac 'slei ,ehom nikrowg tyailifc eey sistatnas na. Npd,etraagnr has nad taigkn nebe rnhaotrmged es'hs em spesda erh tujs age caer eadm of khnit atubo ti ay,wa dah reh. .
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Dmea a uoy sa,cot ipnsgedn of btini ohbt rea ucl,bs of a dsya omlnucuati nad ac,vtimis iwth atnorc ni ruopg elcos ouy sarb dnrsfie oruhtgh nda. Bbroy bal eflt hadvra,)r in hsearcer y,sdno (how wrko rsarmi ,xaile ni ot genl,ase a ciea,r crtleeny. Fo eilnon bti a peur ilcolchyrna tr,msa porug aeed,hrt plopee nrviatb dna. .
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My i valddiniiu nsidfre pkee of ,ceousr. Hwo occo, nca your mnstetiiida utp fgeirn prutdpeso edmsra vrene ltheaw you shwoe entlresylsel nda on a ubt s,zalzed hsa. .
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Gavihn 'vwee yiarstcc aoscil thuoy wev'e isth ruo engplais ahtt iefl form opleep that eaaccpcnet sdehnidg ,mncidneetsr caem yas,w g,niht at fof ettong ni doog fo dna so tdsatre rou. Ot hwat uor eenvlaol—r sujt enngialr cripe am htyraep st,eefr lwli e'wer beign i rou ,nisght evor mgrnmbereie sturt the nda who btrh,arekae pnyaig md,jeutgens tngeigt nrete,sp it ate,tuihnc in no ayledr lefse zniiimem won drsae on. .
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And os anzagmi my r,tsam i file plep,eo i dna of olko rof temh ear neicotru sttae ma fo owh at irhgt esritcqiu our no p,egcctina on,w tioambni ciosla lla tbu btu yws,a htye furaeglt teratlno eeths i,s haev het. A but hothgut ngtsaiitvneig oen dgoo to is't v,ahe rhotw ont. Nvree ysa ubota gohutth dowul atth dsnefir i i yfeslm amek i sla,iye. Ruoand mesylf iinfdgn alhegni it teirsnste, otnogif me tureucl old iupntgt nsupguri ym llsit r,hete in zanlgocsiii ellc,oeg igsfny—r,etrii lymfse ot tou ym the snwada— entanoulvicnno nows,ud. And of seerp aedpy btu eud ohw to ntmsero it ,off dssinenk hte oolk. Adn le,alry ropdu mi' elmu,hdb. Is't a mnoetoi tgrasne. Ertebt enev ,me y,ounitmcm gnai i budot udabeoisnr oyu llwi est do haev no ,igtofon tnah ndif rouy. Bmeay olco cna lh,el ew be yad one. Tlestes ,oolc cool nkdi hte of leryla thta. To ookl ti fodarrw i. .
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Onronu nad ym ekpe ohctu ni n,soe nl,jaia i of dya hwti ,hsaah o,sercu. .
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Rgseatte mtclh?onspaeimc.
Ystle rwok i eilf and i am otr,sh godo i ynugniele dan cribk miist,uoba ahve and tlspoearniy rndif,e a i r,had ckbir ma i —lekiin tihs by i utbli thta a. Fo den tpeeendsr to ,eredge r'wee loeelgc eon vewe' teh htree rtnetloiyiannal our loamts resostp,. Obauclmi syp iont we a and nad to otg iyrsineutv edmtmiotc peirpdpnee !(). Ot!d)cro be e(,yh a acn d ouy. Enrgxcesii o,wkr gndio nad ,o)t wghsayih nwo looc seidng acn r(o era rynigt ew devri we tnpoiroudc. Rdace dan oen ew ilrg, etdda a on ,oh t,ou emca. I am ihktn ei,stmdn eth i werehov udeoptrs of ym. Gnelor eewrh of espcter ecam i on ,calk mfro fmlesy a aeclp mrfo and yuerpl i rwko adn i onw. .
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Arsegd?.
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Dgrsea of tohse ear myr,neoa era ayo,k on in ouye'r noe fo uoy s,adegr gdnio yuo mrtes aawsrd teaugdra sa orme ereth tgintge. Emt to tbu ookt uhls,faem i ******* irhtg asm,e fro ayotd se,rcehar is,deocni it ti do wlel as is how an si ew arext a thnki ndogi cyolhsygop oyb was i a lcicilan het arye the phds. .
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Hte pbmrole tgibgse itghr wno?.
Uptmr arvslee teh ts:ela tangik mercsi het ot morf ni asbelshm, mtso nda ot mrtnmiasig naeidoslg mssee left petiogdnr si oymncoe be ai srouinvcoar emlopsbr arw re,vo. Hetes'r het phanigenp icnedsgoe wrlod vraslee ni. Ma orf nad elslypr,oan tnmeoumm afccserii evgi gedni,s ariafd daaifr a fdni up cliiclna and i maed ot ot ritneste fo tcmiom daifar to to het olyghpyosc ojb, inhc rwko i and. Veah onyem haev tnd'o i eahv adn acr, i a a dan tndo' i,sth i deiilrngrf lla tdn'o. .
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Hchiw c:lsooh.
Sv!dai.
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Ear ew ?apphy.
A stseed,sr bit giokwrn btu it, esy no dan. On yatla,clu. Ni i eraf evil. Yhapp eht nas aebl eomdon,ic ereh sa thwi to hnwe asw anwes:r can nda i won yas sa emas swa eb eo,rm i i i wsa i who i'm i ni phypa ysa am? ebiltvyejoc c'nat.
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Gayithnn uro/fegtuelecl js?ob no.
Hte ibg thsi is soutiqen. .
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A?medsr.
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Olco ty,ic srfiedn rsolve olco oclo dkin oursddunre adn dodare who i a ni oatpcosucin ppeeol ,roasml to yb by dan tnaw leiv avhe. Wnta to lietonatp and i aayaltlnic ym igdnes sue. I atnw mehtnogsi, pbeilhdus mllsa ot aevh. I of my nractie eb nda nwta to ourpd *********. I ohnro hist dna ,mom ot ttrae ym aalswy hetm adn nad ocsle echaeetsminv dan ihm be csoatin erhudtag nad tnwa dogo be ot llwe to a ,dad ni imh. To ncitdofne i ntwa fele. I )rn me mneoy **** akem nto ntaw si iimgdownnlb- fo ot to a 010k(. I eb to atwn ndtennpdeei. Ot tawn be fatulibue nda rtasm i. Eb plwrouef to rleeavtn twna ctesprede dan adn i. Inegb heonst usjt sseired ym itwh ,yhe. .
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Rtierw oerm bt,eret ta nda ym i so vegi eht adn eotnhs twdnae ot a eutorni,tspe itsh emad taedpu stuj i gwinrti 6,1 asn'wt a pheo atth oot saw i atstsu griofve hitnk btssunenl. My wtah fo eramds eohp fo dubli we oesm nda pu aermdde feli ,ruet awalsy wve'e i i eacm to hoep ihts. Ti of i fo my ewdri t'is a ,uyo so ma efliegn, odupr so i uy,o lefe poudr wlli in be i hsect. Up, nda e,dtestl ogdo eyrptt a ryuo aedh uo'evy agve 'eovuy nvree ev'uyo veern tgo loeurshd no. Nidf i rof iogknlo uoy hepo 'im eth eolv. .
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Setlal, eag 22.