A letter from April 17th, 2020

Dsonec het a eebn to iwchh u,p of hte mngaki tye ssocepr ceomnoy boj onitapplica kpic tib lahuhogt illst l,locgee sha has eary dpgneeriss. .
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Utb iltls yer a as lnaa tnod' aoirtefv we to fditneeiyl fntoe edl lsinte eh'ss ymnaoe,r. Ahrd uoy a hlaeddn am dan ,eb nsa is elpac ohw ta omcnioed i rinehgveyt to adezam. Am pheyrat yraes geroevcrni awht ot rmof tlisl i yuo ni ot htsoe undigr be eto,hsn hpndeeap. A eht up ,ihcld adn trse pkic ivervsdu ntomau i na an ew sa wlli utald orsmnoeu as. Idong ryou uyo ginamei were' pnesirxsoe euislizav wn,o ew'er 22 erev cna toslam fo yuo anc ry,wro by wa,y magi!nei ettrbe hte i nca naht tdroo—'rrnho. .
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Stnre ilnyma ,onw yuo atth yb noeg sdue wndo ist' gae gibrn to onaiebrsdu trcuelenbu onwr eetstdl tanesrp neetwbe mfro syittnien to yruo hte dna ear fyqenreuc aetrs. Iths soem twhi haev oeplmbrs fo citmaiyn you aesceub. .
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You eht ve,lo b"e ro:ewt leppeo ni foefr ltegen fo tl,rtsee atth dna ouy to ruyo love htiw yloefs,ru etehs one. Eerynoev nto ubt tno kdin is mean eerveoyn is. Mofr ot wtah nnnuotigci efcurla an igtynr thiw ethra, ouy ,taldu ma etrga i a " ym rpiactce sa eb tslli. Sodd hte natsaig rea meco eplpeo tmos fdin uot, yb wkno all ,yaw otughh? kn,di ouy to w,aht. Htgni dgoo o,drlw a btoau eaeirzl i'tsn ti? to het.
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3 we strif eswke eendd fo at adn ,22 ,vloe otg in ruo trnoaphleisi ti iont tiwihn ersmt. You eusirrps w,on ot *** on oen het of rae. Adis og,d insght eth uoyv'e. . . Do i o,sbpmrle ni reermbem gnisski heav shatt teh nto nikth ulwod yaana i ouy'd i and eebmremr ylearl ymeomr ot lomtas me eomiv altsce ,aettehr nivmog oswlh oitmhgens. Edaneetreg ti e,erhtat to uoy of osatleub qrtauianne ******* the uwdol oynl "eatethr urigdn ,ayw the we yb oury be louwd hurcch eht a eb esscca obdagirn not mievo hda lhs,oco omvei". Essuj scrtih. .
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Bauot i peek oyu nhktinig. Hrnveyiteg hte hwit nwo ta etesnix, btu in anaya ni cuhchr in ni nghit lola hre ehtr,bae a neiaproshlit eniglhp olscoh dan 'iass mnae twih bed lnigy ,hutoc idgnnca. Flgseine l,loa nvree dauntsrdne stuj aaayn, wsa i?t ot c,arys cundefos tnis' wn,o ew ynfun a pedpsessur cc,lhie awnt as,i were or or fro ubtoa ro efisl' it 'its ruo. Atth cnpcaectae eilf we of ricaetn neev loudw sueecab erhdra rewe we **,* cbeusae rsupgo caehr uto wkne rmof get reom eemocb ldouw. .
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Ro asw taoetnint —siltee knhti obckdel rou ou,t emeerowsh i udndrensat ftryingeir tnderu i wev'e why thsi. Cosila ryeve ircstati ot ni tyg,enirfir hweer rsomn pdcaete,c otni a and ehnpo wree yrtngi oruy lordw on slgir why aws ouy cipedman snese apcees ,tegfnriyri yrou lvoe asw tpeasnr eeesqsnur firtniyer,g ivdle a teh ikngaw ,dfenied qeeur opiatu leovd errgfi,tyin erew teh oyu amkse ti was erew efnsidr ,cdsone yuor erwe. Our lotauhgh nrvee do eepred si vhae ufuetr h,att ewr'e ahtib i rpat wnte hte thfia a of ,awy lislt eht ti by ni donig ndwuo, ay,wa. T,tebre hsti our daem sndsaem st'i rta. .
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Ialsoc life:.
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Tepoccn d'dtin lcoo arey ouy ,awy wkon dwsroc eht doencs dsne fo ddi the yb eehtri i fetra the of olcele?g. Rtsa ueeqr fo edvnoliv ostm ew nwo emth ,epelpo ro fo rupsog nagh lvrasee ni garet the in. (+a)anhns ew do mead odm y,aw unpoitcdro ahve renisfd dna ,wno adn fwe htat a digsne inavvi. Yuor gsetgib ggi atherf yb pdeay asw vivnais 60$0. Bruotgh esdnig ikm peeo:lp yog,nu aiyij ontmymuci asol na ngaziam rrpfooess fo e,lyk wnonji. Uyo dan yo eotcrpj srinoe anet gobhtru dto yruo iemdthre belu epal anmshiw. In idsenrf duroan nedjyoe ew o,shntm iitvisgn 27 enev etnw nda boaard ystud ibeng ,aldicen wot ouer,pe adme ew dlgaenn ew l,tcadons ni ot. Sdkporbeoac ermosime of spgea uye'vo up 020 dan. Of uoyr cernuitso one nealdci rioevtfa iucqylk bemeac. Opleep ilndcue ,ahnhan se,casi msiyna cg,on sw:ag oreht. .
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Igrht fnu o,wn ecrhrase ahs nbee. Gg,ne sha on us, tub ikina yaa,lmak osrfrpeso jyo bnee hwit alb nad we iethss uor uro glomino eovl. Eevn cta. .
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My the ni dan fro errae,c tenetriy ievdl iwht tzme losa legeloc strapb,—ntitnaeim three we've ialan,e gaminza tgalnorni gisrl of. Ezmt eiaaln al a rtsedat own hilew and eeh'try etafr o,to tidgna ni. Mprgroa mezt ot retufu gslao ntalme rfo ot nad iymlaf her notpirlsaieh iqtu erh reh nad emho -eaatrveule ssemart cbak og ehr althh,e with. An ataisssnt ohem, erac cbka eey miranivitdaest igrowkn esi'l na rfo iylaftci sa. Nda crae espads orhmedrantg em sujt ,yaaw of agknti rhe ehr e'ssh hntik sha ahd deam eebn aubot ndaart,pnegr gae ti. .
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Tbiin bhto hotruhg adn sbar of adn fo ratnoc whit dmae grupo a epndisng u,csbl utlnomaciu fsnrdie yuo dsya ocles ni a viitc,asm uoy ct,oas rea. Ni boybr abl leyetcnr ltef ng,eslae kwro a hw(o in ot are,ci xlai,e ,ynsod a,dhrar)v esacrreh rrmias. E,rehdat pgoru clainrcolhy a rtm,sa vnbrati erup dna bit loneni of elppeo. .
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Vdiniuilda srec,uo fo ym i snreifd keep. Woshe ruoy hwo and upt ntaemsiidti sdaemr erenv oco,c no tub uoy eszlz,da twahle a cna ahs fgirne srslntlleeye prpoduets. .
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Aemc atht people fof tcsraicy ,wsay so gdoo tshi dna fmor in adtetsr ielf hgvina ta e'vwe mcntierd,sne fo thta uro inght, tengot epgsnial isalco sihdngde ectnpcacea oyhtu rou w'vee. Ledray i lwli ngebi leesf ene,tspr ni enziimmi on s,mdtuegjen ot waht 'ewre eth t,ferse yginap aengilrn our won utsrt rthyeap ohw iperc ,eabhterrak remieemrgnb on ti nve—aoerll evor utjs h,ntsgi ruo dna rades ggiettn utiecn,hta am. .
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I ma taset fo esthe dna emth eoucrtni ta so rseuqicit and on het all m,stra tbu feli grhit w,on ym rof tarnleot but aws,y iinoatmb aveh of how era kolo htye liasoc i ,eloppe i,s uor natc,peigc tagrleuf mazniag. Tbu a e,hav ogod tigvstinniega tno ohtwr s'ti to noe hotgthu. Aubto iserfnd iyslea, asy luwdo i htta i erevn eamk i fsmyle otughth. Lyfesm gehlain coiigznasli fndgiin hte ot tlucreu ntitpgu dlo o,lgelce tooinfg ylemsf my ndasa—w sygi,nfeitrir— eh,tre it tuo nanvcetnoinoul urndoa sn,reestti lilts wnous,d my ni uguirpns me. It olko f,of due nsetrom het to utb woh esepr of endissnk dan yadpe. Dan ll,arey dbmuh,el i'm duorp. Si't rsaegtn oimeotn a. Me, nfdi oyu uryo igtnfoo, rdoianuebs on oytummin,c est illw enev teterb do aehv ngai i botud anht. We eon cna meayb colo l,hel ayd eb. Ylrela ndki the looc thta colo, ettlsse of. Ot owfardr ti look i. .
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Saha,h ady whti chuto nornuo en,os i dan my alji,an rcuseo, in fo eekp. .
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Mmn?catcophsile setetagr.
Am i yesnalrpoit bluti gieynnlue dna i rto,sh kl—eiin i a i rbkic nad work thsi doog dan veha i cbrki ma ahr,d d,fnire a asut,obmii i eyslt taht yb ilfe. Fo three leegcol neo desptreen eer'w het ned oltmsa wve'e redeg,e ot psto,rse oru enaiayltortnlni. Dan a oucbliam nda !() nseutrivyi to tgo syp iotn eippndrepe ew dticmmeot. Cna eb oc!t)rdo uyo a he(,y d. Deivr we we nociurodpt nac o,)t adn rniygt or( ihghwyas loco inogd own eirgcienxs r,wok era igsdne. Oen came ot,u nda ,ho a gril, no adecr tadde we. D,enitsm eth fo ym ma revwheo i hnkti i sdtupeor. I rengol nad pulrey a no lca,k fleysm kowr i eaplc scretep ecma hreew omfr nwo fmro fo nad i. .
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Esgard?.
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Fo ittgnge eno yoka, you ehter of drs,gae mreo setoh rae degsar giond aer remst yraeonm, uyo in rdatague sa no awrsda ourye'. Si hgrti utb rearc,seh gdino do sa,em okto i ******* year ikhtn icnallci aws mte het s,dioecin it as yadot lypgsooych for i we a a who si llwe byo hsdp ti xreta luahem,fs ot teh an. .
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Rtgih eht w?no stegbgi moplerb.
Be si hte form rgdpneoti cnoomye asuocrvrnoi lfte and war eth msot egosldina miecrs asbeh,sml vr,eo sevaerl ntkagi ot to igmtsainmr in emses soplmbre mtrup :saelt ia. Lwrdo eth ahipngpne sdoingece 'rhtees aevlers ni. Rfo ot a het rfadai vgei canlliic iarafd arn,pelylso ariafd ot lyygopohcs of and ,bjo s,idgen mcimot and ot i to etretisn mead korw omntumme i nad ma infd cnhi up fsiecirac. A adn haev ifdgernirl lla 'ndto a nda myneo a,rc i his,t i i avhe vahe tdon' 'tdon. .
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:lshooc whhci.
D!saiv.
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Are pa?phy we.
It, bti a yes on sse,retds tub igrkwno dan. ,tacayllu on. Efar veli i ni. Aws as phyap id,mneooc i acn eb rsnaw:e whne a?m i i o,emr swa i as i ereh say asw evtoiylejcb who eht i'm htiw i phapy adn ctan' asy asme to ni nsa onw aelb.
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Lrofeu/uegtelc on ithnynag objs?.
Untqoeis htsi is ibg the. .
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Drame?s.
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Owh iyct, yb lcoo i mso,lar veil a yb rveols cool ot oloc dkni adeord ridsfne nda tnaw aehv in cutapnoocis ruousnrded lpepeo and. Ot sue tlclaaniay nad pltnaiteo my sdnige wnta i. I hliudsepb to h,eimtgson heva antw mllas. Ot ********* ym tircnae opdru i nad tanw fo eb. Rhnoo omm, aswayl tmcneviahees ntaicos and eb llwe ihts be i mthe ot imh a to imh nda and ym htrgedau ot ratet add, eocls nda wnta and ni good. I cnoeftdni ot efel tawn. To atnw of ton **** a si me o-lnngbdwmii (100k nmeoy aemk i ot r)n. Ot i ntwa eb idetepnednn. Ot asrtm and be i fbuealuit wtna. Dna crdeepets pwlfroeu i be nvratlee dan to natw. Hitw stuj sidrees gibne yh,e heston my. .
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Oot dna at swa ssutta peadut i 61, ophe the dan a t,reetb reom 'twasn eivrfog buentlsns htat ot psnee,rttoiu ivge gtiwrin tirwre nethso a ujst i made nthki twenad so my i hist. Omse i opeh lidub waysla eacm siht oeph eur,t ym e'wve i radmes file fo maedrde we up to wath fo adn. Lfi,nege will yu,o eb rwied os in ist' i a ceths drupo i ti am so efel of i dopur oyu, fo ym. Otg vuoe'y vener dan envre yoru a rldeosuh t,sleedt u,p trpyet oodg on hade yveu'o 'ovyeu aevg. Kognoil m'i yuo for fdin oehp teh olve i. .
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Lestal, age 22.