A letter from April 11th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I can't believe i'm doing this because when i do weird things like this i mess up and then i give up. It's currently 1:38am and i'm just sat on my bed wondering where should i start from. i hope your happy future-self :) i hope your proud of yourself and who you have become. Seriously i better be the only one reading this lmao. Anyways i just want to say i know my younger self has gone through so much and hopefully when i'm reading this i remember how i felt in that year. i hope you've found what your looking for, if not keep holding on, your strong babe! you know when you have so much to write about but you still don't know what to write, yep me right now. "so i fell for you, foolish move that i fell for you, cuz baby i need you, i will never leave you, wonder how you left me..." future me better be laughing. Yeah girl you better be laughing because you know what i'm on about! Ali Gatie uno looool. Ping,Ping guess who just got a notification from someone you've been waiting for to reply. Honestly, i don't know what i'm going to do i tend to overthink things for myself but you've made the right decision and to be honest i don't want to forget him, i don't think i ever will. I'm not going to lie i thought i was happy, i thought we were happy but in life times things are really in expected and i've learnt that you should never keep your hopes to high because when things go down your left hurt, always. I hope were both happy. i want to leave this in the past but i don't want to forget it, you know, i know that 2018 was hard but what can i do. I appreciate what happened because i wouldn't haven't became who i am right now because my past. I know you know by now that life is full of tests and that you should never give up on what you need to achieve. Life will always be hard! one more thing, i hope your still friends with Maisha. She's one of them friends you know you'll last with and i hope it's true. With Maisha i have learnt that if things are supposed to be it will be. We were friends from the beginning of secondary but we split up in year 7 and never spoke again because of our "mate". But then year 9 came, 2018 where i also had an physical fight lmao and Maisha was there and Maisha being a lovely, sweet girl she helped me and after that day we became friends again. from that lesson as i've mentioned i've learnt that if something is meant to be yours or happen it will. You know old me would have wrote so much about Muneerah, my ex bestie. She's too busy for me and i know you should never be like you did that for this person but it hurts. I have done so much for this girl it hurts. i guess ive been the only one making effort all this time. STOP, where not doing this, i mean we are but smile its all in the past now! This was a good catch up i guess if ive forgotten lmao but no it's 2026 and i honestly hope i'm happy and that ive graduated as well, made my parents proud. i doubt i would be married i'm how old now? 22, WOW, can you actually believe it ive done it well kind of. OMG imagine i don't get this because were all dead of the corona ********. Hope you blew up on Instagram as well, beat that *****;) BTW this is so weird but you would probably have a sis-in-law by now and i hope you like her lol and i hope she makes my brother happy. He honestly deserves the world, both of them do. Ima close this off because it is currently 2:20am and i am tired. P.S happy birthday to myself, SMILE BOO X Another thing i hope you passed your GCSE, i might as well say i hope you passed your A levels. I LOVE YOU - YOUNGER.ME