A letter from April 7th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Happy birthday <3 I hope you are doing something you love. I'm on quarantine bc of Coronavirus and I'm ******* stressed. I hope you've found a way to care less. Also I've just got off a video call with the nutritionist and I'm planning to keep up with healthy eating and exercise (5 days a week or more). Are you vegan? I hope you kept going. I hope you're still alive. If you haven't been healthy, get of the ******* couch and do something right now. Please forgive anyone who you're not talking to. Talk to our parents (yeah even dad, who I now kinda don't bear). Talk to our grandparents. Talk to nona, if she's still there. Keep up with your studies. Are you studying? If not, do you like what you're doing? If yes, do you like what you're going to do? Nowadays I'm thinking of studying space engineering and becoming an astronaut. Have you changed your mind? If so, why? Is Pancho all grown up? Please tell me he's all mature now and you get on better. On the other hand, have you fallen in love yet? Please tell me you've found someone or even got your heart broken. If not, how do you feel about it? I'm now anxious bc I don't really know if I want to or not, but I hope you have decided. Are you going to the psichologist? Is it still Tamara? I hope not. Are B and V still your "friends"? What about other girls form school? How long has it been since you've talked to the people you are really interested in talking with? Have you got new and better friends? I hope you do. Today's April 7th 2020. I'm feeling a bit sad. I don't really know what my life is anymore (I've started crying, you know that teary eyes, no sound crying). I'm not finding any good reason to be alive anymore. I hope you've found it. Well I believe there are a lot of things missing but this is all I can come up with for now. I hope this is a motivational message and you can keep going towards some goal. Do you have one? I don't right now. Please achieve it if you do. Watch some netflix. You'll like Friends and Mean girls better. Also, have you learnt German? Please do, German boys are😍. Also, if you can, move to Norway, people there are gorgeous and (at least right now) it's the most developed country in the world, you'll have a great time😉. Well bye, I love you. Love yourself, don't let anyone bring you down. You're the best♥️