Hey there, it's another letter!

Hey you! Yes, you. It's two days since you got your second tattoo. You got the 'grounding tree' I've been calling it on September 18th, 2010. A lot of people seem to think you got it simply because it was pretty. I suppose at first that's why we got it, but people change and so did I, in that week I had to think about it. I got that tattoo because I needed it. My quote (done on the Friday of April break) reminded myself and others to come to me and talk to me. 'Tell me what it is you plan to do with your one wild and precious life' I wanted exactly that, tell me, talk to me. Now, though, I have a new mentality, kind of. I want to grow, but to do that, I need to remember the old times. I need to remember that I have a family, that I am loved, that I am a strong person not easily swayed by fear, nervousness, newness....the unknown. No. I am a strong person, with roots that touch the ground and delve into the past. With branches that are both strong and weak. Delicate and sweet. Firm and unrelenting. I'm happy I have it. That day we called him. He didn't pick up, as he said he wouldn't. He didn't call back, he hasn't been online. That's okay, we know how he is. Has he changed, in a year though? Is he softer? Are we even still talking? Please, still be talking. If you aren't, find him. Please. I hope you are still hanging out with the suite-mates. They were all so sweet and they all make you laugh till your sides hurt and you have to pee. Seriously. Don't make that face. I wrote once, in a letter to you, that writing isn't everything. It isn't...but it is important. Truly, it is. We write to release, we write to calm, we write when we're bored. Both of us know this- past me and future you. Don't try to hide from it, or ignore it. Don't revolve around it, but don't hide from pen and paper- keyboards, word documents. I hope we remain as sane as we are now. No drinking, no drugs. No parties, no...insanity. Tattoos are fine. More than fine. How is Suzie? Is she still goin? What about Frank? Has Suzie scared him? Is he eating? How is James. As I said in the other letter- Find him. Hug him. Be real, be there. Are you driving yet? Still have grandma's '04 Rav4? How is grandma, by the way? Is she still kickin' the 'good lord' in the balls, as she always said she would? Try to be more patient with mom and dad, they're stressed little beings. Do you remember Andre and your crush on him? Haha, it was a small one, rather cute. If you haven't yet, try to get into contact with Anly. We love her. We miss her. Is you know who pregnant? Who has had babies already? How is everyone....find out. I know you're wondering where all the major advice is. There isn't any. Not right now, anyway. Right now, you are a strong person and life is going really well. You can keep at it, you can be amazing. I love you. Forever and ever yours, Past Me.