A letter from March 10th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hi! I assume my name is still Reagan when I get this so...hi Reagan! I'm sure you remember that we're not doing so well right now. but I hope I'm good when I get this. and in case you don't remember why we're not doing well I'll just tell you. at the moment there is A LOT on my shoulders, firstly right now I feel very unloved by everyone actually. my friends, my family, etc. and I feel s if I'm giving my everything for the people around me..yet I'm not getting anything back. this has been very hard for me, feeling so invisible. only visible when I do things others want. and being pushed around, half the time doing things I don't want to. lately, I've felt locked away in my room, but that is the only way I feel safe. my self-confidence only going down more as I try to look better only getting stares for everyone, I can't tell if the stares are good or bad but they still put me down. but I feel like this has been too sad so let's make it a little bit happier! I'm just gonna ask if you still like the things I do. ok! first BTS. I haven't gone to the concert yet but you definitely have(i hope) was Jimin as beautiful as I imagine? did Yoongi's rap make you faint? EEEEE I love BTS so much. they probably disbanded by the time your reading this but oh well. do you still like kpop? I hope you do, I'd be disappointed if you don't. do have a boyfriend? you most likely don't...but anyway are you still friends with Mallory? if not who broke the friendship? oooooo dramaa! but on a more serious note, how are mom and dad? does mom have her own house? did dad even end up kicking her out like he said he would? and is dad happier? I really hope they are doing ok and are happy. and is jane ok? has she been out of jail? did Clay and Jordan adopt Bryce? and how is Chloe doing downstate? oh yeah! do we still live in Boyne? I hope so. I love it here. oh, and how are you? happy, sad? and if you are sad...BE HAPPY! you have so much to look forward to in life!! and with all that said...please tell mom and dad, I love them so so much and everyone else too. I hope we have a good life and if we don't, well that's ok. not everyone does. love yourself -12-year-old Reagan :)