A letter from March 5th, 2020

Sup Zoe, I'm writing from the past to just tell you how I'm doing. Right now I'm parked at bayfront. I was staring at the water and marveling at how grey it was, and it reminded me of the last time I sent you a letter, the water and the sky was a twin toned grey. But life has been good. Lately I've been listening to and appreciating more colorful and beautiful music (Hyukoh, Musetta's Waltz, Romeo & Juliet, Eminem, バランス) and just enjoying life. This is the end of the 3rd Quarter of my senior year at Hilo High. I have been experimenting with relationships, I talked to Brian, Richard, Logan, and Sarah and I've figured out one thing that I think is important, my golden rule for someone that I would want to be romantically involved with is just to have a sense of humor. That's it! So simple yet so hard to find. Good thing I don't care about having a partner, I am fully in love with independence, it's just fun. But I have my first date with Sarah tomorrow, we're gonna get boba and then sit at Lilioukalani park. I am very, very excited, she seems like such a cool person! She's so funnyyyy, I hope it works out. But anyways, I have been pretty sad about Mom lately. I doubt she will be alive by the time you're reading this, she is very weak even now. Every time I hear the song "Hey Mama" by Kanye West I burst out in tears, specifically the part where he says "You are so beautiful to me" and compares her to poetry. I have cried a lot but it hasn't been too bad. I know it's bad but I am getting through. The coronavirus is making it's rounds, it hasn't hit Hawaii yet but I'm very scared for Mom, hopefully she will be okay. I am sure everything will work out in the end. By the time you get this, I hope that you are still an independent badass and I hope you have some true friends. I think you should contact Jade again, she is very special and some catching up seems like a good idea. Make sure Dad is okay. If he wasn't then I feel like my world would fall apart. And make sure Ara is okay, I hope she's enjoying life. Visit Hawaii, listen to Hawaiian music (Ku'u Home o Kahalu'u - Olomea) and appreciate and love that special place again. I am in love with it right now and I don't think I'll ever fall out of love. See you later!