A letter from January 22nd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, It's been a long journey. Remember the way we used to feel. It's been hard, all the changes and theres more coming. I dont know what they are but they're coming. I hope you made it through them alright. Take the world. I squat 400 and feel great, but it's not. I cant stand the way I make myself act. Theres noone to blame but myself. Stay true to yourself. I'm still friends with Emery and Vanessa but they're probably not when we get this. I'm scared and I dont know what to do. I'll figure it out. Remember all the time we spent in xbox. How much we miss Will. All the times we had sleepovers and ooop played around. Dont forget who you are. I know you're 18 and I know things have changed, but dont forget ever who we are. We stand for others, for the weak. Remember how Makenna hurt us as a reminder to be careful. I hope you're a better person than I am now. Look at this as reminder of who we were. The sky is the limit yet we love to put weight on till we fall. I'm either gonna fall or lift it and I guess I'll find out when you read this. Please be careful. It's ok to cry. It's ok for others to know you're hurt. Dont close off. This year you're gonna lose a lot of people. It will hurt but we'll do it. Love yourself and remember. Not all who wander are lost.