A letter from December 13th, 2019

Dear FutureMe, Hey, today is 3:28 am. I am an inconsistent piece of ****. I spend too much. I am too aggressive. I want to finish school. I am still in my 10 th grade. I am still undecided on what course could I take. I'm currently dating Joshua. We are going 9th Month together. He's my longest boyfriend. I kinda hate myself right now, cause Im boastful. but to the contrary, Im just settling at the lowest point. I don't aim high because of my pride. i am too toxic right now. I am good at procrastination but I'm a failure. I couldn't do anything better. Tommorow at 4pm. Me and Joshua will go for a Job Hunting cause I spent too much in an online shopping. it actually reached 2000 pesos. Just for a day. I worked on my Mom's place yesterday and the day before it. I am disappointed because I expected for a g high salary, but I received just a half of it. I got a grudge against many people. One of them is Joshua's Father. Because I think he belittled me. The first time that we saw each other. Saying, Joshua's Little Bro's Girl is so beautiful. It hurts me. Because i felt like he compared us and he was disappointed of how I am. Like his son is too much for me . Joshua's friends seems distant at me too. Because maybe I'm not beautiful. To my future Self; I hope you are happy. I hope you are good. I hope you are loved. I hope you are successful. I hope you could do everything u want. I hope u wouldn't mind other people's opinion about you. I hope you are beautiful insids and out Please when you receive this. Smile. Because you got too far. You are something now. don't let other people to stump on you. Because you don't deserve it. No one deserves any evilness. Make yourself proud. Live your life to the fullest. :) Enjoy everything.