A letter from November 14th, 2019

dear futureme, hi, i hope all is well. ive already sent like three of these today but im sending this one the farthest. hopefully you haven't deleted the email im sending this to or something stupid. how have you been? are you drinking your water, eating enough, exercising and socializing? i wouldn't b too surprised if you haven't been doing the last two but whatever lmao. our husky is currently one year and fourteen days old, her name is lola and i hope you're still taking very good care of her, she must either b dead or a v old lady by now :( i hope you don't grow up to be like pa. learn to love yourself and talk to our pa's side of tias and tios and primos and grandparents before they all turn too old. do you still remember the france and spain trip you took? im going sometime in june and ill probably write you about that too when the time comes. i hope you've embraced the fashion style ive been trying to pursue for so long now and i hope you dont regret bleaching your faceframing hairs like the cool tiktok girls. i hope you're happier than we / i currently am. go outside and take a walk, talk to lola or call brittany or something. please don't stay like the homebody i am right now forever. find a cute boyfriend and pretend you're talking to me about him. learn to play another instrument other than violin n guitar or just talk to me about your day. gush about kim junmyeon and joji and byun baekhyun and jeon jeongguk like i currently do, find your happiness and don't just spend your days cooped up watching anime n kdramas. don't become lonely and sad, please. grow and flourish and smile. i know life can be really hard and you may be stressed atm but just breathe. pray and call ma or abuelita or read the bible or listen to some music or talk to some relative. if you're happy rn, that's great! i love you very much, i know you've always been self-conscious but you're very pretty and you know that. give urself some credit. smile, laugh, blush, squeal, cry, scream, sleep. its all a part of life and i hope you find yourself in the whirlwind of it. be true to what you love and pursue your dream career as a neonatal nurse. or a journalist. or an author. or an architect. just choose one of those and i'll b alright, but if that dream job ever changes, that'll b quite alright too. ik they're v stark and different paths but i like the sound of all of them and i don't care if you choose all or none, just as long as you're happy. take care and give yourself a pat on the back for me. you've made it this far. thank you so much. keep going, believe and trust in no one but God and yourself and call ma and pa and martita and abuelo and m and k tell them you love them because you do not know of the day that God will come. te quiero. - 111419 / 10:39 PM.