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Dear FutureMe, I'm only dating this 6 months out, because, well...because I just don't feel that great, and I'm worried about my health. I wonder if I'll be here in a year? Last weekend and this weekend, I just haven't been able to get ANYTHING done. I have had to stay in bed and rest. I feel like I have some kind of infection in my lungs. To be quite honest, even at this age (early 50's) I wouldn't mind saying goodbye to this life. I just want to get my affairs in order. I would miss my loved ones--family and friends--but hopefully will see them in the great beyond. I ask God to allow me to do that before he takes me, if he doesn't mind (get my affairs in order). I know he's running the ship, but God knows how very weary I am. I get so tired of being alone, with no affection for the most part--so tired that it takes a lot of life out of my spirit. I know it is said that God is walking hand in hand with us, but with us being human, and especially for those of us who are tactile, it's very painful to walk this world (physically) alone. I have to go. I am so exhausted. I'm just going to lay here and rest, and then try and get a couple of important things done this afternoon. Everything else will just have to slide, as it has for many months. LD