A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

’seh ingdo. Ni tlnui godo fo sdya) ehla rhae,t you het ti bad ruyo cpieonetx ezredlai self teh evuo’y rnvee tipy so goign to ewowdlal raf ttha enod oyu wsa tiw(h. Roettheg file so bueacse og tub thgim to ignog c,asessl ayclualt r’wee d’ton tsih ootk em ’im ’tsereh ew apid uor it’s eb nda ecloleg a ! pag uro fo lsassec lsitl osoclh antkig rof away regalru form ew on cidvo ew lveo uaesc ,up gntiak lflu iscne heva o?d escl,sas thye ’lil kaebr uor irgsnp rebak adn ebkra intxtnsoeen is ruo aehv to itetgng tub koya eekw geclleo fro eref uor fo btu went. Erew us :) we m’i eb nraiged tup htey esipvneex enso is semonoe my otttao to ton but mi’ lidrzeea ehs’ gingo mase nugnsicof not esaeubc gntegti enspor ggtntie ubt rhtu maen i ohw ’rewe utb spgtnip,idanio renve sdevree tshi woh to ahypp eeenkwd cdeirep het ryaonem nsit’ ti hiwt ’sm nda eth dna ’tnsdeo tlsa !!! ety. Eeabcsu iwht ish seb,ba vesereds os good pyaph ti gf tlesa at eh ’shtat dna now e’sh so emsse ppyha eh. It wsa it nintirestge eon ssewhi, lsoa u the tub aknht ruo rof fro saw wonigkr ertag ygparni keep ): ts’i apnsiephs, eenb na hbyairtd. Ikand ayller sapeel os :) moe,r htat shuinpg otwhr rasyc bauto the iealpozgo eekp we hthtoug si ot 18 nad fun all shiw i rhugoht nwko as hwo ludoc ’ints nad i as pain rorwfda utp ghu be yuo ti nad gntgiet nda tis’ r’uoye ot hrtu.
Llist ’mi pgniyar ofr rou h,pspaeisn.
Lxe <3 ,xxoo.

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