A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

Se’h ngodi. Haret, uoy yeuv’o fra eht was ouy (hitw ti of igogn ni vrene eond elah os fles dba to tpyi inutl dsa)y the ttah godo alierezd pnoixtece dlawlowe uoyr. Slsscea rof grurlea ubt elvo lli’ kbare pag ofr ot tesher’ ew idpa buaecse lfei aoky litsl ruo we tsi’ lflu ,pu e,asslcs ueacs weke covdi btu on so si ngoig and our ! em eref otok of ew veha tish eb tehy og lulcyaat mi’ nicse aekbr ecsa,ssl fo atkgin evah ttgnegi and ruo oru ginkat a ubt waay mithg n’otd sohcol kbare rou ewer’ mofr gsipnr wnet o?d cgeoell ot eolclge hrtgeoet esnxetnnito. We ncugnosif not m’i neos het ebsecua ewer m’s twih woh si sn’ti utp woh tuhr eignttg egtingt tbu su nde’tso my htsi tye anme utb ot rilzeead m’i but to oaottt nda veersed maes omeeson !!! ’she dengira eb spnoer yeonram nto derepci tyhe paphy i pis,pnatdnoiig adn ’erew ltas pvieexens it ongig :) kedwene nrvee hte. Rdeeesvs nad as,bbe t’stha he wno ta so shi he gf doog seesm ti h’se aseubec aphpy eltsa phyap os tihw. It briydhta tbu u giitentenrs it ktanh kpee our orf sh,wies ebne lsao :) het okigrnw an wsa arget s’ti asw ofr eon rypiagn ,hispsnaep. Lal we pihusgn rem,o isnt’ hswi dan be yuo peek know sa ot ainp i dan ghhurto rthow :) dan fun huthotg utp uabot it lyrlae to nad hgu trhu ttha inadk 18 codlu oruy’e is how i gpeozaloi ysrca ts’i eht as paseel wforard igtegnt os.
Mi’ s,ppsiahen ipgrany tslil ofr ruo.
Xel oxox, 3<.