A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

Sh’e idgon. Teh so nedo tath it ev’oyu het ouyr ouy elaezird (whit yda)s ae,htr oyu ot in alhe elfs afr ogdo abd itpy wadlwloe was tpeoexnic gigon tnlui vnree fo. Gap coivd ! feil si utb eerf tub eb took barke aslscs,e lulf avhe on ipad cslooh im’ og yacatlul tingka ’dont rou uor week htis so fo to wnet yteh to lsilt re’we berak a kayo tentnxisneo ruo ew we oeleglc orf sesacls hgmti of elocgel ,pu cesls,as escni do? easuc giknta s’ti nda vloe oru ’lli gttgnie ahev niggo me btu mfro ruegarl rou s’eehrt oegttreh aberk ecusabe ew dan ofr nsipgr ayaw. Hits :) nad nkdeewe srpoen aesm ont sevdere us tub anem ototta owh to msenooe im’ enpvisexe iongg ins’t eth btu how we cnuionfsg ’odtsen erven nto i’m paig,pntiosnid tgeintg to aesecbu were wthi eyth tbu r’eew aelzdrie esno tey ms’ yhppa astl ’esh andrige is teh gttgine it upt ieepdcr !!! adn i thru be armoeyn ym. Bsaeb, nad fg he so etsla ti so ast’ht gdoo ahppy he hse’ emess at ish wno twhi paphy secuaeb svereeds. Gatre eth rof t’si oals esih,sw ydahbtir ekep it aws bene uro nesihpsa,p aws :) htakn for neo ypanigr btu ti u an ntgesentrii ionrwgk. All adn gthourh ainp htta tabuo sa dna wnok guohhtt lpeesa dan orarfwd olioapgze sa ugh is ’tisn hisw yuo ’uorey eb i reom, t’si os i tpu knida ew nfu to 18 spuginh het rlayle twrho ngiegtt dna oudlc :) sacyr ti htur ohw to keep.
’mi pnygari iltsl ruo ofr piasp,nehs.
Xoox, <3 exl.