A letter from May 16th, 2019

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Ka-Rin, It is 9:23 pm on a Wednesday and I've decided that for my 18th birthday I'd surprise myself with a letter. From my 17-year-old self. There's a lot on my mind that I've been meaning to tell to someone who'll listen, anyone who'll listen honestly. And I hope by the time this letter gets to you that you will have at least told mommy. Um I ate a grapefruit today and searched up the benefits so guess who's eating grapefruits before every meal. I'm going to be completely honest I'm not sure what to write and it took me 5 minutes just to finish this sentence because of Andrew. I hope mommy got you what you wanted for your birthday, if not it's cool your older and more mature. LIfe is changing pretty fast and it can feel lonely (cliche right. I know) but you've got to pull it together and be the lawyer you've always wanted to meet. Please future me, be the rich eccentric aunt you've always wanted. (lol). Don't let anyone take you down and mess with your head or make you believe a lie, 17-year-old you is dependent on your success. Mama's gotta bring home the bacon and mama knows how to get it. Now I know what your thinking, "this letter kind of makes no sense." Well no duh it's written by a girl who hasn't been in school in a year and craves knowledge!! I'm starving here! I hope your happy with all the nutritious knowledge you've been gobbling up because it's essential to your sanity. I'm going crazy in this house. I have books sure but nothing is like sitting in a class and learning collectively with other pinheads. And by pinheads I mean idiots. Right now though, honestly, what I miss most is the adventures I took when I was with friends and sometimes even by myself. Future Ka-Rin, I truly hope you're happy, like really happy. Not putting on a smile for people but real happiness that you can feel. Sincerely, 17-year-old Ka-Rin p.s. I could've written more but I have a huge headache. Good night.

Epilogue

over 1 year later

Okay here me out,
You're 20, and there is a pandemic. Yes, a pandemic. People are so bored that they've started arguing about vaccines, you're vaccinated, and you respect others...

And to tsgirh not owrry isnoniop etka ont'd i,t. Oyu 'yvuoe divco got y'oeru tsmar basbe, ubscaee thsi ttenog enrve. Eenb teh rdah royu of v'eouy pkee adn eetsrsem mdin hte cdefa no but rdlo hsttugoe ouyr to bene flei t'is ey'uvo gitynr. Den t'thas lewl enwre't jsut vh'anet yuo ,dahr evne ihts nebe gonig scslase ot mnyeallt mrsestee nad hte. .
Mfor oyu a 3 ntew. Ot agp 3 a 6. Yvoe'u ubt ihts gto 0. Weehr ont lstil wree em rmof youe'r and uttsr afr oot tsmra yuo s'ti enylpt. Lla tsessr to yaw now dna het yoru jsut reov is to ont you od scaesls gto gaesdr yonje uesd y'uvoe. .
Go as insfrde raf as. . . Dame she dntd'i lgolcee yrea a uto tbu sfrti eth trun fo your btse ragte to eb inrdfe ouy hetn lwel. T'ddin of do oto fo gtihnany ,bda you seh aws otbh dnki ti. Me otin lwle utb my 17 hwne lcgolee i aws ogt ,uoy sniec tno dybhtria tale i is. . . Utb tderi a sihaa dna on fo adn ,aswayyn atsht' edegw to seh benetwe frcoe no ikdn a you. Rae rof ifle serstsi. Kwon rudnog yuo uoyr and uyo isht hedl. Ahrhs a oto htugho yuo eerw etitll. Uyo ideftrd adn desnrfi tforfe oyru tetx on yuo own os hegnuo oyu verne nyol dmea utsj adn hte hoslihcohg isratnmag ollowf eht ot sihalnipeort mteh herite. To nogig ubt ryt 'oyeur aellyr tsih semtesre. Ealcghnel settrda senridf ont to fdesirn eneb ear e'iv igslnakc utb iohwutt ot e'vi thta me, gretnheviy citdeon ahtt. .
Roybblpa tsal and ni 'thats to ywh veor redit prcee mreestse noseiedpsr and take. My htta i tel eb ow'nt ysrto. Hriete nto 'im srpndiesoe icinlagm. Ujess hlod nmea ahs in me on no it. Mteh i rtdsdaunen katl emetesrs shti igong ot otrffe thsoe dan na dna to rndduseant me won, m'i dfni to reom akme plpoee owh. Daed,nnustr utsj and eprndte to ehsot cacpgitne epploe ear hwo be tlalcayu btu tn'od who. Asllm me how llits utb aicptilol sdebate hvae anc akme ihwt htngsi heost dnt'o. Nad too ti uessj for in os mybea nmagicli 'im adn siakgn it 'im neam is eht hmuc btu. .
Sujes i fog lilw cnt'a hgistn eht lispem wlil dan mena on tkinh hold cilam eoosl fo i lefe eemrrebm hatt i me ro no ekli gloren s'ti ndmi ni slao. Hnoj go my juess lilw i sclas jay ot nad erdgee i lwa eth nda opt get fo ym htree fro br'leachso mena ta in llwi udagtaer. Tehso tshgin rea fo oen is lal shgtin dan shit loespibs. .
Ndiatsng dna ti of your dogo ayd rbefeo teef on hdbyatri no oyu btu a rfsti ht02 on boj otg rfo idkn souhr a ojb a uryo was asw uroy and ho. Uoy pdeli rewcroko utb dcluo pu vihryetegn eednd deal hte ti dan else you ihwt rboehlri. Myeon gdoo odt'n uoy ywror aedm. A 'ist ouy exirneecep eontgshmi ahtt a odwul sutj venre khint oh ni atht and vhae ot yuo w!n!!o hgohttu hueso ryzca uoy raye lluo'y. Otg efi,n but ,yrwor e'sh ntod' rou hte yb rlldsdoan stuslaead ons dad. Yuo to nwta ot kwon ubt og o'tdn urse teilad onit i tanw eorm i'm. Y'llou ehtre gte sono eonghu. .
Eh crzya rheot to si rtrgeae niffctgee gte btu wloud cna ew ginths htat ighnt itshgn iths eth cedided os ertetb dan eoryveen pnhepa how suvir etsgbig etl ttha ogd s'it esel eehst. Elik tath tsuj swokr he. .
I i ,nsayway dna orf kainltg htta kepe haev ltas eth if teerh reasy meti l'li otu illsp no. .
Abbse lsdotoe. .

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