Written on Tues 5/4/10

Dear FutureMe, 1 year ago today i met him. We've been emailing each other throughout his deployment ever since that day. Every day made me want more. Every day my feelings grew stronger to the point where he is always on mind. Tonight (5/4/10) was the first night i cried over him. i just wanted him so much today.. more then ever. It's only been 2 days since his last email, and i even got to talk to him this morning.. but it just wasnt enough! It hurts now whenever i think about him... All i can think about is how I just want to be in his arms, and to kiss his lips, to feel his warmth, hear his laugh, get lost in his eyes, sink into his embrace. The only good thing that came out of today was my realization that i'm hurting so bad because i am head over heals in love with him. ......I hope he loves me too.