A letter from July 31st, 2018

Peaceful right?

Hello. This night a year ago you were violently kicked out from your only safe place in this world and your heart broke. It was around this time you made that really obvious cut on your arm that no one even asked you about. Has the scar faded at all? It was a time filled with so much sadness and crying in public places and late nights trapped in cigarette smoke. This night right now you are filled with overwhelming sadness. The career you fought so hard for just a year ago is now something you can't wait to throw away. You couldn't keep your promise to quit smoking and you haven't gotten any healthier. You are feeling so alone right now and you are so scared of the future. Something snapped within you and nothing excites you anymore. I pray that all this has changed. Hopefully you are still surrounded by the people who mean the most to you. Are you finally doing something good for the ones who need it more? Have you fallen in love and maybe had your heart broken again? Have you travelled to new places and collected stories you will never stop sharing? You recently came back from a trip to Taiwan. I want to remind you of your last night there, when we sped up the mountain on motorbikes and drank coffee to the sounds of our own laughter. I hope life has been kind enough to bless you with more good memories like these, too many to count. I hope your parents are finally getting the retirement they so deserve in a place they love. Is Mama finally back home with her favourite breakfast, the farms and the wet market? Are your brothers doing alright for themselves? My wish for you now is that life does not torment you. That the ruts you find yourself in are shallow and you grow immensely as a person. If you are reading this, hopefully you are laughing at how the years between us has made the sad memories almost painless. I have no idea what I'm doing in life but maybe you do. That's all I need right now to keep going.

Epilogue

3 months later

Hello!

It's us again. Reading this made me smile, then made me cry again. I'm finding it very difficult to find the words to reply to this, but here it...

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Eht ssarc oryu erew yuo irrfgener tills eher viehwrhce ot, ar,m lla rae no neo. Tteill i ,arfeomsr ebne ym wond haet oenbrk ppoele utb tisll evi' a ihucotng. Ewre atmol,s i ot so i my i form hktin eht apst yidla fo ealr, hvea i when i kcuyl eapscse nkew nhet sa erad hte hvae ontpi shti won ilgseefn at taht nissemagbrar nda ubt etmsoimes htat am elif 'tdind my. E'vi i n,osimgk ctu vheant' it nmiylseem oautglhh tuqi dnow. Rryuceltn etelsilyf fo ylon ioetmnnervn in my eatheirlh i eth ma sebaceu is ginvil. Moneyar ielf ay,sd ltsli i nda klei 'toesdn ectixe me oesm efel. The ti dan alsyuul stju terbt,e bda lacl ohpe eno dsya dan i ntex is si mhte. .
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I dvemo oecm away and nt'did ckab. Ueacs tiexecgnp thta, i wsnta' ouy fcuk, ihtnk ewertn' aemby. Yar,es e'vi ssle micgno tlelti eosht uyo was ouy ,seayr kwen enkat 4 if doulw ehva ifle eenb adn eehr myeba thwa 4 a ruseiosly. Dan lnda of duednsrh ntaunnoiidcol aedm fo mead them ehasp ouy fidersn naolg eth ti fo ,rtue esrmda in het nad ,eyrtop ot a,wy eolv dfnuo. Osue,rinct the yanm i pu rdefntfei ptas ni i wten yphpa ew ihwt 4 in ot no a tme nda trpi opepel ohw edam erew ees asre,y os os to o,ruepe so anmy lal rdiefsn us nelcrtey. We rae olvde os. Aenvi lveo llfe lawk to eht ni ouy ihwt aws orwng rspone aywa oot dan. Ikrnigdn e,wde all duolc dngio hmuc the oto sardett dna iomksng dfni usrgd ew. Atth i'ev uqit lal now. Arylle enrev ,esonsl torughh tup soeietmsm oodg a kfuc swa tub iwhs ti us i i that. Itme it tkoo i o,wn etg a ot to lstil ehewr bkca syad i ma ggsurtle osem glno nda. Rassc us to mofr het mifietel, ive' emco ikle atls flte the dad a aetcpc rssca cmoe hucm no will atth to atht. Yleral tihw ot egt teyh i viel peoh aieesr. .
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Eilwh up in oyu fraet eidrbul to thwi nswe hiwt eitrd dna flie at,ht is, yoru evol lfle nomseoe odgo lla ouy even put oyu hte. The olrdw neo het si no rpesno onaret,h nam uoy yuo lekdi now nduof uoy idla reuetasr the owh ahtt oemtmn hmwsoeo ro rmfo t,ho in os ugfckin oyu msot m,hi eeys. Logna ween'rt yuo ti a oen smiorep a esh' n,agai eno mthe amec oodg thsi fo i ertanoh uoy hnwe utb etim, prtsaneilih,o edpahpen wntigan. Ofr nrelta lseo,ns us my i. Keep mih eimt 'wlle i nad edaks lt'dconu nhtki etrtbe siht i ratrepn a ehav for. .
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Oingg luhag heom, esll ot'dn 'mmsu hilhdcdoo aeyr atuob ot to i gndipreent a,epdrlec and ycr dan so which ruo eedn hse eekn m'i est s'dad sentdo' etrier xnte reh. Tresa btoh ehtm a did a wsa hyte ,tvsii i tmnoh dna came ese hrete nweh for lagrhtue gao nad. Mhet eht e,ahr snee tetas dorwl sryea teh rosthrbe ihtw ni glathohu i fo ihatrlg hwta romf 3 era i e'hvnta maoslt het. Oehm gohthu 'ill be oosn. .
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Troeenmtd us ahs lefi. Mdtaraci gihsnt hnvaet' le,lyiotmano eyas nad oaky re'ew tno but anlmeylt nebe dan hst'at lawasy ep,lpeo. Nad stehhig as os ,nopsre yaw uhmc glano wongr dan a rou wlso 'wvee selowt had eth gshih. Tacllayu leivd we. Odgo eifl ahs been adn loas to lf,ul su. A btu hte eht ecah onw etbret esaln,sip dsa lot rulypsrisin,g rae mire,seom nto urnneaddts i. Diae 'erwe doi,gn on i smstemeoi tub what istll eavh i'm yyaawn hist gyonijen. 'mi btu a shogiocn it og itb t'si hreet e,mit a rtyop,e searmd ni teruuf a nda is fro dnal l,eph wnod ,wno tekna taph ereh lot of to eht a nda dna fo fo. Leaon feel hte etsb is, lngero rapt ew on. .

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