A letter from July 31st, 2018

Peaceful right?

Hello. This night a year ago you were violently kicked out from your only safe place in this world and your heart broke. It was around this time you made that really obvious cut on your arm that no one even asked you about. Has the scar faded at all? It was a time filled with so much sadness and crying in public places and late nights trapped in cigarette smoke. This night right now you are filled with overwhelming sadness. The career you fought so hard for just a year ago is now something you can't wait to throw away. You couldn't keep your promise to quit smoking and you haven't gotten any healthier. You are feeling so alone right now and you are so scared of the future. Something snapped within you and nothing excites you anymore. I pray that all this has changed. Hopefully you are still surrounded by the people who mean the most to you. Are you finally doing something good for the ones who need it more? Have you fallen in love and maybe had your heart broken again? Have you travelled to new places and collected stories you will never stop sharing? You recently came back from a trip to Taiwan. I want to remind you of your last night there, when we sped up the mountain on motorbikes and drank coffee to the sounds of our own laughter. I hope life has been kind enough to bless you with more good memories like these, too many to count. I hope your parents are finally getting the retirement they so deserve in a place they love. Is Mama finally back home with her favourite breakfast, the farms and the wet market? Are your brothers doing alright for themselves? My wish for you now is that life does not torment you. That the ruts you find yourself in are shallow and you grow immensely as a person. If you are reading this, hopefully you are laughing at how the years between us has made the sad memories almost painless. I have no idea what I'm doing in life but maybe you do. That's all I need right now to keep going.

Epilogue

3 months later

Hello!

It's us again. Reading this made me smile, then made me cry again. I'm finding it very difficult to find the words to reply to this, but here it...

Osge. .
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No eerh eno eht egrerrnfi a,mr you era slilt lal rwee t,o richvheew arscs oyur. Bnekro otchigun ym iettll oerarsmf, down e'iv iltls tub eneb heta poelpe i a. Atps wenh hknit sgaesinbarmr rfmo psscaee i ylukc nkew ta won ym vaeh i taslom, i fo i rwee i eahv nda ssoiemmet tshi feli rl,ae teh nesieflg as yiald to atht am enth het nptoi ym tbu so iddnt' daer htta. Htuoaghl ti eylmenism i wdon ,ngkmosi 'hvtena qiut ie'v uct. Lnetyrruc am arhteileh eucsabe is of ietfllesy viilng onyl ni my i vnnnomtriee eht. Ilke iectex eonymra 'dtones ,ydsa elfi and efle lilst em eosm i. Lalsuuy adys e,bettr is stuj llca i and noe si it dna adb eht nxte ehmt pohe. .
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Evmdo ocme waya i cbka t'nddi and. Hknti fc,ku enitpxgce scuae i neet'wr mabye you swn'at htt,a. Flei erhe sraey, 4 othes 4 a ive' saw irsysleou eknw yuo cmogin if yameb luowd r,aeys you tlielt ahev ssel nad ktaen been htwa. Prte,oy dema ot uyo fo it rdefins of ladn eardms olve dna fo ,teur eth deam eth otidaninncolu ddusrhen ngloa and wy,a dnouf sepah mhte in. So to pu meda pahpy rtpi us amyn ot on owh i tiferenfd het oepepl ,orpeue wree apts ese mte a 4 nwte nyma so we os r,syea hitw i lla ni ndsiref ,nuotesirc eclernty ni and. Os lveod era we. Nopres ot nviae ni too olve ithw dna awya wsa lelf teh ongrw alwk ouy. Umch grsdu ew nda ifnd nignrikd igodn oot eth d,wee mskigon lal estratd lcuod. Iutq taht lal won 'ive. Hugothr tub eylarl it ,sonles i us ogdo eostemsim atth eenvr i was kfuc iswh utp a. Ma kcba a koto sday i tge ot ,now ewehr lgon eutgrlsg to mite adn i it smoe lilst. A hte dda on wlil letf ttah v'ei sscar ilke mcoe tath apctce ot satl ofmr to much come efimtie,l su sarcs het. Hitw they llarye i ehpo eivl ieears teg to. .
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Up ftear lal ilehw evne ot ihwt oury eifl eth ibuldre flel ,taht good uyo nad snew enmosoe uoy lvoe redit uoy htwi s,i ni ptu. ,rtoneha idal ,toh ukfncig os oyu ostm ih,m teh is you how ldeki one ldrow snreop hte dounf you on ro amn in the taht wmooseh ntoemm syee now yuo arrueest frmo. Good neo iantwng roahetn erispmo naolg aolhnsiptier, ngaia, ti i eon aemc of a htis a wehn uyo se'h ertnew' utb uoy hemt ei,tm aehpdnpe. Ym eatlrn ,soslne i su for. Wll'e a dsaek i keep mhi dltcnu'o teebtr hvea i ofr hkint this dna pnrreta iemt. .
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Ened and i ggoni to uro dnnreepgti she sdd'a neek cddhoilho ot h,emo 'ndot ryae te'snod cre,aeldp whchi 'im so dan esll yrc u'smm laguh ets ritree hre xnet toabu. Si,tvi tomhn a dna ddi emac was ese for rheet thrlguae hyet nad i a ehtm ewnh boht aog rates. Goahtuhl lrihgta i athw rmof sraye iwht i hare, the testa wrodl era hetm smatol 'avtneh ohertrbs ni 3 nese the eht of. Ghhtuo soon l'il heom be. .
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Has life trmoedetn us. Not utb nbee no,yltlmaeoi llynamet dna tdamacri aeys eo,lepp dna yaok gsnith 'htast were' nht'ave ywasla. 'wvee lgnao nda wols nda awy our gwron shigh a wsoelt re,sopn hte umch as so eshtgih dha. Yllctuaa veidl we. Odog nad nebe salo ot life has l,flu su. Are a tbu ing,rpruyslis now uensrtdnad tbetre eapils,ns sda teh mm,oseeri i hace eth ton tlo. Tslli idea nayawy gyeionjn no m'i awht imetmseso dongi, utb itsh heva i 'were. Isoocnhg ti no,w h,lep of si i'm the a ,roypte fro fo fo athp mie,t daln turefu a to otl emards i'st but ni a dnwo dan akent ereh dan go dan rtehe a bit. On eelf tsbe hte s,i ew oelan loengr arpt. .

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