A letter from July 16th, 2018

Dear Self-today, Happy New Year ! You're turning 30 this year, I hope you managed to to get through quite a time now. I know you have faced a lot of pressure, struggles and challenges up to this point, how was it now? You know what, this year, your ex-lover is getting married, she just had her bridal shower this month. I guess, marriage time is inevitable, but I'm just 22 today, you see? But I hope you got pass through those emotions of deception you had for a very long time, have you? Tell me please if you managed to live like a normal young guy before this point? Also, I think you are married now? I just hope you are, and with Leah, it would be much better :) You liked her that much right? I mean, I like her now in my time, but I'm just afraid not of being in a relationship but I'm afrain of myself. It feels like there's a big gap of who I am and who I am supposed to be. I'm indeed struggling, and having hard time taking control of my emotions. I hope you don't struggle now and just laugh reading this weird letter from year 2018. Just like how I am particular on building my physique, I hope you are not fat now (as you are a married man?) and you have bunch of kids. Remember to treat them right and spend more time with them okay? I know that I cannot meet with you cause you reside on my future, I know I cannot talk to you how was like has gone through all this time but I keep it in my heart today. Also, keep spending more time with our parents, okay? Stop being such a kid thinking of selfish feats. Yours truly, 2018 self.